Ive just registered today for school. Changed my major to Fashion Design cause I couldnt find peace about Web Design.. and now Im feeling just as stressed with the idea I signed up for Fashion Design. Ive always wanted to be some kind of designer... but now Im looking for more.. and nothing seems to fit right. I am using Financial Aid.. and feel like Im wasting money here. Im 26 just getting back into school did on my second semester... Im so confused... really as to what I really want to do with my life.. I was thinking of taking the semester off but others convinced me to stick with it.
I want to follow only Gods path... I keep dwelling on the idea like I want to expand my education into something greater but I cant find what it is... I was told you go to school to really find out what it is you want to do in your life.. My entire life I thought Id either be a fashion designer or Architect or something... and now that Im actually going after it all.. a huge cloud of fear has come over me.. to the point I feel depressed.
I feel like Im reaching a point in my life.. that I want to start a relationship & have a family.. I find myself just adoring other families.. and that maybe Im reaching to high & everything I really want was already within reach.. One of my biggest career goals since I was young was becoming a Fashion Designer... now here I am with opportunity & I have no faith in myself or feel that this job can do nothing to help others or share my experiences with God...
Am I just freaking out??? .. I prayed on it for the whole summer felt at peace about it & now its time to do & Im scared to death!! That I want to call my advisor & back out!
I feel like its an old dream Im trying to revive!! I love Gods way of the unexpected life.. I like building my life as I go ... the way he was doing it before... now I feel like Im confined to whatever it is I am committing to pursuing as a career!
I want to follow only Gods path... I keep dwelling on the idea like I want to expand my education into something greater but I cant find what it is... I was told you go to school to really find out what it is you want to do in your life.. My entire life I thought Id either be a fashion designer or Architect or something... and now that Im actually going after it all.. a huge cloud of fear has come over me.. to the point I feel depressed.
I feel like Im reaching a point in my life.. that I want to start a relationship & have a family.. I find myself just adoring other families.. and that maybe Im reaching to high & everything I really want was already within reach.. One of my biggest career goals since I was young was becoming a Fashion Designer... now here I am with opportunity & I have no faith in myself or feel that this job can do nothing to help others or share my experiences with God...
Am I just freaking out??? .. I prayed on it for the whole summer felt at peace about it & now its time to do & Im scared to death!! That I want to call my advisor & back out!
I feel like its an old dream Im trying to revive!! I love Gods way of the unexpected life.. I like building my life as I go ... the way he was doing it before... now I feel like Im confined to whatever it is I am committing to pursuing as a career!