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I was born with an evil nature inherited from Adam and Eve, which places me, by default, under God's condemnation. I will argue the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ until the cows turn blue and the moon comes home. But it seems I cannot bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me.

My nature makes me distrust and disobey God and places me under His condemnation. For all practical purposes, I CANNOT bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me. I've tried for fourteen years and I cannot do it. As Jesus said, "With men, this is impossible." Therefore, for all practical purposes, I was designed to go to hell.
 

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I was born with an evil nature inherited from Adam and Eve, which places me, by default, under God's condemnation. I will argue the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ until the cows turn blue and the moon comes home. But it seems I cannot bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me.

My nature makes me distrust and disobey God and places me under His condemnation. For all practical purposes, I CANNOT bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me. I've tried for fourteen years and I cannot do it. As Jesus said, "With men, this is impossible." Therefore, for all practical purposes, I was designed to go to hell.
The Holy Spirit doesn't control us, He guides us.
 
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I was born with an evil nature inherited from Adam and Eve, which places me, by default, under God's condemnation. I will argue the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ until the cows turn blue and the moon comes home. But it seems I cannot bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me.

My nature makes me distrust and disobey God and places me under His condemnation. For all practical purposes, I CANNOT bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me. I've tried for fourteen years and I cannot do it. As Jesus said, "With men, this is impossible." Therefore, for all practical purposes, I was designed to go to hell.

Bob, your honesty about your inability to trust in Christ and submit to the Spirit’s leading touches me deeply. You’ve clearly wrestled with the weight of your sinful nature and the reality of God’s just condemnation. Your words echo the truth of Scripture—that we are born in Adam, under wrath, and powerless to save ourselves (Romans 5:12; Ephesians 2:3). When you quote Jesus saying, “With man this is impossible” (Matthew 19:26), you’re recognizing something profoundly true: in ourselves, we cannot believe, repent, or obey. But praise God, that’s not where the Gospel ends—it’s where it begins.

You say you cannot bring yourself to trust Christ’s and the Holy Spirit’s “right and competence to control” you. I hear a heart that’s afraid—afraid to surrender control, afraid you’ll never measure up, and maybe even afraid that God has made you for destruction. But brother, let the Word speak louder than your fears: “What is impossible with man is possible with God” (Matthew 19:26).

Your inability is not proof that you were “designed to go to hell.” It is proof that you need the Spirit of God to give you a new heart—and this is exactly what He has promised to do in Christ (Ezekiel 36:26–27). In Reformed theology, we call this monergism: God alone saves. He opens blind eyes, unstops deaf ears, and draws sinners to Christ irresistibly (John 6:44; Philippians 1:29).


You don’t need to produce faith—faith is a gift, and Jesus is both its author and perfecter (Hebrews 12:2). He came not to call the righteous, but sinners like us. Jesus, truly God (theos) and truly man (sarx), lived a sinless life, bore our sins, and rose again for our justification (1 Corinthians 15:3–4; Romans 4:25). His sacrifice was a propitiation that satisfied the wrath of God for all who are in Him (1 John 2:2). There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1).

Friend, the Christian life is not built on your ability to trust, but on Christ’s power to save. The Spirit doesn’t merely “guide” in the sense of gentle suggestion—He regenerates, convicts, draws, sanctifies, and seals (John 16:8; Romans 8:14; Ephesians 1:13). He doesn’t force like a tyrant, but neither does He fail to accomplish His purpose in those whom the Father has given to the Son (John 6:37).

If you have strived for 14 years, yet still long for Christ, that very longing may be evidence that He is at work in you. No one seeks God unless God is drawing him (Philippians 2:13). Cry out like the man in Mark 9:24: “I believe—help my unbelief!” Christ will not break a bruised reed or quench a smoldering wick (Isaiah 42:3).

Friend, you are not “designed for hell” if your hope is in Christ. God does indeed create vessels of wrath for His purposes (Romans 9:22), but if you are drawn to the Savior, humbled under His Word, and longing for grace, then rest assured: that desire does not come from the flesh. It is the Spirit’s call. Run to Christ. Not when your trust is strong—but because He is strong.

Let’s walk through this together. What do you fear will happen if you truly surrendered? I will pray for you, and I believe God is not far off. His arm is not too short to save (Isaiah 59:1).

In Christ’s love,
Hazelelponi
 
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The Holy Spirit doesn't control us, He guides us.
Your assertion is comforting to me, but other commentators say "control." In his note in his study Bible on James 4: 5, Dr. David Jeremiah writes: "The expression scripture says does not point to any particular verse but to a general biblical principle. the Holy Spirit who lives within all believers jealously desires to posses those believers completely and control their lives (Exodus 20:4,5; 1 Corinthians 2:12; Ephesians 2:1-10). The Spirit does not want His place to be given to anyone or anything else." I looked up the reference verses and do not see anything in them that contradicts your assertion.
 
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I was born with an evil nature inherited from Adam and Eve, which places me, by default, under God's condemnation. I will argue the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ until the cows turn blue and the moon comes home. But it seems I cannot bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me.

My nature makes me distrust and disobey God and places me under His condemnation. For all practical purposes, I CANNOT bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me. I've tried for fourteen years and I cannot do it. As Jesus said, "With men, this is impossible." Therefore, for all practical purposes, I was designed to go to hell.
It sounds like you have been shepherd by people who do not understand the character of God. Everything in your post is well...not my Father . So it sounds like, if its not too late, that you need to uncover His truth. Self condemnation is not His will for you. Receive His Comforter today!

Be blessed

Luke 11:13
"If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to those who ask Him!”
 
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Bob, your honesty about your inability to trust in Christ and submit to the Spirit’s leading touches me deeply. You’ve clearly wrestled with the weight of your sinful nature and the reality of God’s just condemnation. Your words echo the truth of Scripture—that we are born in Adam, under wrath, and powerless to save ourselves (Romans 5:12; Ephesians 2:3). When you quote Jesus saying, “With man this is impossible” (Matthew 19:26), you’re recognizing something profoundly true: in ourselves, we cannot believe, repent, or obey. But praise God, that’s not where the Gospel ends—it’s where it begins.

You say you cannot bring yourself to trust Christ’s and the Holy Spirit’s “right and competence to control” you. I hear a heart that’s afraid—afraid to surrender control, afraid you’ll never measure up, and maybe even afraid that God has made you for destruction. But brother, let the Word speak louder than your fears: “What is impossible with man is possible with God” (Matthew 19:26).

Your inability is not proof that you were “designed to go to hell.” It is proof that you need the Spirit of God to give you a new heart—and this is exactly what He has promised to do in Christ (Ezekiel 36:26–27). In Reformed theology, we call this monergism: God alone saves. He opens blind eyes, unstops deaf ears, and draws sinners to Christ irresistibly (John 6:44; Philippians 1:29).


You don’t need to produce faith—faith is a gift, and Jesus is both its author and perfecter (Hebrews 12:2). He came not to call the righteous, but sinners like us. Jesus, truly God (theos) and truly man (sarx), lived a sinless life, bore our sins, and rose again for our justification (1 Corinthians 15:3–4; Romans 4:25). His sacrifice was a propitiation that satisfied the wrath of God for all who are in Him (1 John 2:2). There is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1).

Friend, the Christian life is not built on your ability to trust, but on Christ’s power to save. The Spirit doesn’t merely “guide” in the sense of gentle suggestion—He regenerates, convicts, draws, sanctifies, and seals (John 16:8; Romans 8:14; Ephesians 1:13). He doesn’t force like a tyrant, but neither does He fail to accomplish His purpose in those whom the Father has given to the Son (John 6:37).

If you have strived for 14 years, yet still long for Christ, that very longing may be evidence that He is at work in you. No one seeks God unless God is drawing him (Philippians 2:13). Cry out like the man in Mark 9:24: “I believe—help my unbelief!” Christ will not break a bruised reed or quench a smoldering wick (Isaiah 42:3).

Friend, you are not “designed for hell” if your hope is in Christ. God does indeed create vessels of wrath for His purposes (Romans 9:22), but if you are drawn to the Savior, humbled under His Word, and longing for grace, then rest assured: that desire does not come from the flesh. It is the Spirit’s call. Run to Christ. Not when your trust is strong—but because He is strong.

Let’s walk through this together. What do you fear will happen if you truly surrendered? I will pray for you, and I believe God is not far off. His arm is not too short to save (Isaiah 59:1).

In Christ’s love,
Hazelelponi
I love your response. The second time I read it, I stopped again at the quote, "I believe - help my unbelief!" Not only did I pray that again, but I also again prayed in sincerity and intensity, "Lord take me!" A Christian friend of mine once told me that when he finally gave his life to Christ, that's what he prayed: "Take me!" He prayed it once and was saved. I've prayed it dozens or hundreds of times, sincerely, but doubts about my salvation keep coming back shortly. I have wondered if in my heart of hearts, there is a tight clinging to self that just won't let go, and all my conversions to Christ (literally hundreds) are fake/superficial. An OCD person desperately wants psychological peace, which eludes him because OCD is neurological. It won't stop, no matter what. I've wondered if, thinking I'm seeking salvation, I'm really seeking psychological peace. I'm probably seeking both. But OCD experts warn that no matter how many times an OCD person "jumps for the carrot," the obsessional doubt and anxiety will return. I'm not quite sure what to think will happen if I give my life to Jesus; anything is better than repetitive/continuous OCD doubt/anxiety. So I pray to receive Christ as Savior and Lord in sincerity, then shortly doubt I meant it enough for Him to save me. That's why I have lately been referring to Ephesians 1:13-14. That says that those who have trusted Christ, past tense, have been sealed by the Holy Spirit. With my wavering faith, which causes severe doubt as much as OCD does, I think I tend to trust Christ, sincerely, for only one to a few moments at a time, then waver away. Repeatedly. My fear is that His hold on me is as fickle as my hold on Him. Sometimes I have prayed something like, "You save in a moment and you do not waver! I cling to Ephesians 1:13-14!"
 
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Seems to me you could be overactive in looking at the sin side of things and not enough left to look at the righteousness side of things. Colossians 3 is a great example. First, Paul tells them to quit the immorality and lying, then he goes on in the same chapter to say "Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience."
So which are you? Both, but being transformed by the renewing of your mind. So why not rest in all that Jesus has done for you positionally and quit looking at all the sin stuff where you fall short. In spite of your feelings too, I would suggest changing you confession or what you say about yourself. Meditate and speak what the bible says you have as a child of God. God bless.
 
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The Bible tells people to believe in Jesus for eternal life. Nothing about trust in Jesus for eternal life.

We trust God for things He has not explicitly promised.
We believe God for things He has promised.
 
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I love your response. The second time I read it, I stopped again at the quote, "I believe - help my unbelief!" Not only did I pray that again, but I also again prayed in sincerity and intensity, "Lord take me!" A Christian friend of mine once told me that when he finally gave his life to Christ, that's what he prayed: "Take me!" He prayed it once and was saved. I've prayed it dozens or hundreds of times, sincerely, but doubts about my salvation keep coming back shortly. I have wondered if in my heart of hearts, there is a tight clinging to self that just won't let go, and all my conversions to Christ (literally hundreds) are fake/superficial. An OCD person desperately wants psychological peace, which eludes him because OCD is neurological. It won't stop, no matter what. I've wondered if, thinking I'm seeking salvation, I'm really seeking psychological peace. I'm probably seeking both. But OCD experts warn that no matter how many times an OCD person "jumps for the carrot," the obsessional doubt and anxiety will return. I'm not quite sure what to think will happen if I give my life to Jesus; anything is better than repetitive/continuous OCD doubt/anxiety. So I pray to receive Christ as Savior and Lord in sincerity, then shortly doubt I meant it enough for Him to save me. That's why I have lately been referring to Ephesians 1:13-14. That says that those who have trusted Christ, past tense, have been sealed by the Holy Spirit. With my wavering faith, which causes severe doubt as much as OCD does, I think I tend to trust Christ, sincerely, for only one to a few moments at a time, then waver away. Repeatedly. My fear is that His hold on me is as fickle as my hold on Him. Sometimes I have prayed something like, "You save in a moment and you do not waver! I cling to Ephesians 1:13-14!"

Your heartfelt response touches me deeply, and I’m encouraged to hear you prayed, “I believe—help my unbelief!” [Mark 9:24] and “Lord, take me!” with sincerity. Your honesty about wavering faith, OCD-driven doubts, and fears of clinging to self reveals a heart wrestling with the Gospel’s truth. The cycle of trusting Christ briefly, then doubting your sincerity, and your fear that Christ’s hold on you might waver like your own, is painful, but brother, salvation rests on Christ’s unshakable grip, not yours. Let’s anchor your hope in Him, the center of our salvation, through His Word.

You cling to [Ephesians 1:13–14], which promises that those who trust in Christ are “sealed with the promised Holy Spirit, who is the guarantee of our inheritance.” The Greek word *sphragizō* (σφραγίζω, sealed) denotes a permanent mark of God’s ownership, secured by Christ’s finished work, not your feelings. Your moments of sincere trust, however fleeting, are not superficial—they reflect the Spirit drawing you to Christ ([John 6:44]. Your longing for salvation, despite OCD’s torment, is God’s work in you [Philippians 2:13].

Your concern that you’re seeking psychological peace rather than salvation doesn’t negate your faith. Christ, Truly God and Truly man [John 1:14], died and rose to save sinners, offering eternal life and peace (1 Corinthians 15:3–4]; [Philippians 4:7]. His sacrifice satisfied God’s wrath [1 John 2:2], ensuring “no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” [Romans 8:1]. You need only look to Him, the author and perfecter of faith [Hebrews 12:2].

Regarding “control” vs. “guide” (James 4:5), Dr. Jeremiah’s note suggests the Spirit desires to “control” believers, however the Spirit sovereignly regenerates and sanctifies (John 16:8, Romans 8:14}, “guide” better captures His loving lead, not tyrannical force, aligning with ozso’s comfort [post #2]. The Spirit jealously guards your heart for Christ (Exodus 20:5).

In Reformed theology we see the Song of Songs as typology of Christ’s love as a Bridegroom calling His Bride, the Church: “Arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away” [Song of Solomon 2:10] Your prayer, “Lord, take me!” echoes the Bride’s response: “Draw me after you; let us run” [Song of Solomon 1:4]. This isn’t a demand for unwavering trust but a tender call to rest in His grace. Christ’s hold on you is steadfast [John 6:37], [Jude 1:24].

OCD’s doubts are real, but they don’t undo Christ’s promise. The Spirit seals you because Christ’s work is sufficient [Hebrews 7:25]. When doubts arise, pray, “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you” [Psalm 56:3] As you grow, craving spiritual milk [1 Peter 2:2], the Spirit will strengthen you to rest in Christ [1 Corinthians 10:13].


What makes you fear your faith is superficial? Scripture should give you comfort. Would you like some good theological book suggestions?

In Christ’s love,
Hazelelponi
 
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Hazelelponi wrote "What makes you fear your faith is superficial? Scripture should give you comfort."

The wavering of my faith makes me fear it is superficial. I have just now been praying, "Jesus, because my faith wavers, I fear You have no hold on me." The Ephesians passage and James 1:17 speak to the unwavering hold that Christ has.

Jesus spoke of those to whom He will say, "I never knew you. Go away from Me." That is a fear-invoking passage. But recently, someone who wrote to me said that those are they who trusted in their works and did not have faith in Christ. Since I have wavering faith in Christ, I periodically think that He will not say that to me.
 
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Hazelelponi wrote "What makes you fear your faith is superficial? Scripture should give you comfort."

The wavering of my faith makes me fear it is superficial. I have just now been praying, "Jesus, because my faith wavers, I fear You have no hold on me." The Ephesians passage and James 1:17 speak to the unwavering hold that Christ has.

Jesus spoke of those to whom He will say, "I never knew you. Go away from Me." That is a fear-invoking passage. But recently, someone who wrote to me said that those are they who trusted in their works and did not have faith in Christ. Since I have wavering faith in Christ, I periodically think that He will not say that to me.

Bob,

Thank you for continuing to share so openly. You are not alone in this battle. Your honesty and persistence speak to something deeper than superficiality—namely, a soul that is clinging to Christ, however trembling the hand. A superficial faith doesn’t agonize over whether it’s real—it shrugs and walks away.

Let me offer a few thoughts in response to what you shared:

“Because my faith wavers, I fear You have no hold on me.”
Scripture answers that fear, not with a command to strengthen your grip, but with the comfort that His hold on you never wavers. You’re already meditating on Ephesians 1:13–14 and James 1:17—and rightly so! That sealing of the Spirit is not revoked every time your emotions shift. You don’t walk in and out of justification depending on the strength of your confidence. Christ saves—and keeps—those who come to Him.

“I fear that my faith is fake because it wavers.”
Faith can waver and still be real. Even Abraham, the “father of faith,” had seasons of doubting (Genesis 17:17, Romans 4:20). Peter walked on water toward Jesus… and then sank (Matthew 14:30). Jesus didn’t say, “Well, you doubted, so I guess you never had real faith”—He reached out and caught him. Real faith falters, but it always turns back to the object of its hope: Christ.

“Will He say to me, ‘I never knew you’?”
That’s a terrifying passage—but context matters. Jesus is addressing people who boasted in their works, not in the cross. They said, “Lord, Lord, didn’t we…” (Matthew 7:22). They relied on what they had done. You, by contrast, are casting yourself entirely on what Christ has done. That’s exactly what saving faith is—even if it feels weak and wobbly.

“I think I tend to trust Christ, sincerely, for only a few moments at a time…”
And yet, those moments count. Christ said a mustard seed of faith is enough (Matthew 17:20). Not because the seed is impressive—but because He is. The seal of the Spirit is not stamped every time we "feel" saved. It’s once and for all, the moment we truly believe—even if that belief feels barely lit.

And Bob—your persistence in coming to Christ again and again is itself a powerful indicator of God's drawing. The unregenerate heart doesn’t keep reaching out to Jesus in desperation. The Spirit is not absent in your wrestling; He’s the one keeping you from giving up.

Remember: God doesn’t follow one script in salvation with each person. We come to Christ as individually as we are, this is a personal experience for each of us. For some, faith feels like a crisis moment. For others, it’s a slow dawn. But both are real. Don’t measure your salvation against someone else’s story. Measure it against God's promises.


For now, I want to leave you with this:

“The one who comes to Me I will never cast out.” —John 6:37
“He who began a good work in you will bring it to completion.” —Philippians 1:6
“Even when we are faithless, He remains faithful—for He cannot deny Himself.” —2 Timothy 2:13

Still walking with you in Christ,
Hazelelponi
 
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Bob,

Thank you for continuing to share so openly. You are not alone in this battle. Your honesty and persistence speak to something deeper than superficiality—namely, a soul that is clinging to Christ, however trembling the hand. A superficial faith doesn’t agonize over whether it’s real—it shrugs and walks away.

Let me offer a few thoughts in response to what you shared:


Scripture answers that fear, not with a command to strengthen your grip, but with the comfort that His hold on you never wavers. You’re already meditating on Ephesians 1:13–14 and James 1:17—and rightly so! That sealing of the Spirit is not revoked every time your emotions shift. You don’t walk in and out of justification depending on the strength of your confidence. Christ saves—and keeps—those who come to Him.


Faith can waver and still be real. Even Abraham, the “father of faith,” had seasons of doubting (Genesis 17:17, Romans 4:20). Peter walked on water toward Jesus… and then sank (Matthew 14:30). Jesus didn’t say, “Well, you doubted, so I guess you never had real faith”—He reached out and caught him. Real faith falters, but it always turns back to the object of its hope: Christ.


That’s a terrifying passage—but context matters. Jesus is addressing people who boasted in their works, not in the cross. They said, “Lord, Lord, didn’t we…” (Matthew 7:22). They relied on what they had done. You, by contrast, are casting yourself entirely on what Christ has done. That’s exactly what saving faith is—even if it feels weak and wobbly.


And yet, those moments count. Christ said a mustard seed of faith is enough (Matthew 17:20). Not because the seed is impressive—but because He is. The seal of the Spirit is not stamped every time we "feel" saved. It’s once and for all, the moment we truly believe—even if that belief feels barely lit.

And Bob—your persistence in coming to Christ again and again is itself a powerful indicator of God's drawing. The unregenerate heart doesn’t keep reaching out to Jesus in desperation. The Spirit is not absent in your wrestling; He’s the one keeping you from giving up.

Remember: God doesn’t follow one script in salvation with each person. We come to Christ as individually as we are, this is a personal experience for each of us. For some, faith feels like a crisis moment. For others, it’s a slow dawn. But both are real. Don’t measure your salvation against someone else’s story. Measure it against God's promises.


For now, I want to leave you with this:



Still walking with you in Christ,
Hazelelponi
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I was born with an evil nature inherited from Adam and Eve, which places me, by default, under God's condemnation. I will argue the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ until the cows turn blue and the moon comes home. But it seems I cannot bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me.

My nature makes me distrust and disobey God and places me under His condemnation. For all practical purposes, I CANNOT bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me. I've tried for fourteen years and I cannot do it. As Jesus said, "With men, this is impossible." Therefore, for all practical purposes, I was designed to go to hell.

No, you aren't "designed" to go to hell. Where are you getting that idea, anyway, Bob? You're not doing yourself any favors by jumping to that conclusion, bro............................... :rolleyes:
 
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No, you aren't "designed" to go to hell. Where are you getting that idea, anyway, Bob? You're not doing yourself any favors by jumping to that conclusion, bro............................... :rolleyes:
The reason I was saying I was "designed to go to hell" is because I was created with an anti-God nature. But this discussion, especially including my communication with Hazalelponi, has led me to the conclusion that my faith in Jesus is real, saving faith. Thus, I am having what OCD people are typically denied: assurance of salvation. My OCD and wavering faith may tend to produce doubts, yet. But I am planning on taking the advice of one Christian OCD expert: "Be committed to believing in spite of incessantly raging doubts." Among other things that I plan to respond to my own doubts with, now, is "Ephesians 1:13-14" and "James 1:17." I consider this conversation that I've had, especially with Hazelelponi, to be the turning point. Now I can proceed with the understanding that Jesus has me.
 
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Dear brother @Bob8102

I praise and thank our Heavenly Father for the assurance of salvation He has granted you—a miracle wrought by the Holy Spirit.

Like you, I’m just a sinner saved by grace (Ephesians 2:8), and I’m humbled that Christ allowed me to meet you in your need with His word. All Glory to Christ alone.

(John 10:28).

May God bless you doubly and grant you peace

Your sister,
Hazelelponi



 
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I was born with an evil nature inherited from Adam and Eve, which places me, by default, under God's condemnation. I will argue the truthfulness of the gospel of Jesus Christ until the cows turn blue and the moon comes home. But it seems I cannot bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me.

My nature makes me distrust and disobey God and places me under His condemnation. For all practical purposes, I CANNOT bring myself to trust Christ's and the Holy Spirit's right and competence to control me. I've tried for fourteen years and I cannot do it. As Jesus said, "With men, this is impossible." Therefore, for all practical purposes, I was designed to go to hell.
No person is designed to go to hell. God desires salvation for every person He has created. If you read the early church, you will see that for the first 400 years they taught that man has "free will", and we work in synergy with God to inherit salvation. It was only Augustine who introduced the idea that people were "destined" to hell.

God loves you, has a good plan for you. Every good thing we could desire comes from God, and He freely will give to us what we need.

Psa 37:4 Delight yourself also in the LORD, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
 
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Dear brother @Bob8102

I praise and thank our Heavenly Father for the assurance of salvation He has granted you—a miracle wrought by the Holy Spirit.

Like you, I’m just a sinner saved by grace (Ephesians 2:8), and I’m humbled that Christ allowed me to meet you in your need with His word. All Glory to Christ alone.

(John 10:28).

May God bless you doubly and grant you peace

Your sister,
Hazelelponi



Grace, Hazelelponi! I pray for you and everyone on Christian Forums.
 
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