I'm a 21 year old guy. Please know that in no way am I saying that Jesus Christ is not enough in my life. He's all I need. Unfortunately I have some very strong desires for a girlfriend, or a wife honestly, even though I'm still rather young. Sure it's probably sin. But my desires are much more than sexual, although, ashamedly, sexual desires are involved. Mostly though I want somebody to go places with and go to church with and read the Bible with. Have children with etc. I want a closeness that you can't have with any other human. Unfortunately for me I'm about the least likely candidate you'll ever find. I'm a shy loner. An only child and introverted to my core. I don't want to be this way, but it's the way I am. For this reason I know that there's no hope of me ever marrying or having a girlfriend for that matter. If you knew me you would certainly agree. How can I overcome wanting a wife and children? Just forget about it all and live a single life for Christ. I know some are called to singleness. I guess that's me because there's no way I could ever be married yet it's probably the thing I want most in life. And furthermore, if I live to old age and the Lord doesn't come back first, what will I do with the next 60 or so years. Any help is great. Thanks.
So I don't do girlfriends. Girlfriend is just a great way to add misery and sadness in your life.
What you want, is a wife.
1. It is not sin. Period. I don't know where you got that from, or if your parents are giving you that, or possibly you are going to a nutty church. Regardless, I'm going to tell you straight up... they are wrong. They may have been right in everything else they have ever taught you, but in this one case, they are wrong.
Sexual desire is not only normal.... guess who created it? G-d. Did G-d create sin? No.
It is *not* sin.
2. There is nothing to be ashamed of. Stop being ashamed of something G-d himself created, and called good. How exactly are you supposed to "be fruitful and multiply", if it's something evil and to be ashamed of? Does G-d give you contradictory directions? Not the G-d I serve. Unless you are serving a different G-d than me, then he doesn't do that.
3. You are not called to singleness. I am called to singleness. (At least I think I am, but I could be wrong.). How do I know I am called to singleness? Because I'm 40 years old, and to this day I have never come home thinking "man I wish I had a wife and kids!".... Never.... as never. I never dated in high school, college, or all during my working career. Never. And never wanted to.
If you are sitting there going "man I wish I had a wife, and maybe some kids!".... if you even having that discussion in your mind... then you are not called to singleness. So you can dump that line of thinking, and move towards your calling.... your calling to be married and have a family.
4. Everything in life... literally everything in life.... requires you to overcome some obstacle. Everything. There is no way to get all the good things in life, and have zero resistance. Zero problems. Zero opposition.
Sometimes the problems you have to overcome are external. You have to overcome an examination, or work through a degree, or even just be patient with someone difficult (I'm dealing with this right now).
But sometimes the problems you have to overcome are internal. The desire to be laze and watch TV, when you know you need to study for a test. The desire to sleep in, when you need to go to work, and put in your 8 hours.
It sounds to me like the bigger opposition that you need to overcome, to you finding yourself a wife, is going to be you defeating your own desire to shy away and not say anything and play this poor pitiful me card on yourself. It sounds to me that your struggle and battle to get to the rewards you want, will be you defeating yourself.
Well... brother.... you just gotta own that. The bad news is, your old self will fight against you with defeatism. The good news is... you can win this battle. Flat out, G-d helps his people to overcome their internal struggles. You are not the magic exceptional introvert that is beyond all hope.
There is one prayer, that is almost universally accepted by all Christians that G-d will ALWAYS answer.
James 1:5. The prayer for wisdom. For the next month.... whole month. I want you to pray "G-d give me wisdom on when and how to find a wife". Pray that. He will answer that one.
But it's not going to be easy. I want to encourage you, but not white wash this, like it's going to be a walk in the park. It's not. (although taking a girl for a walk in the park would be a great first step).
And let me add another fun tidbit. You are going to get rejected, or find a girl that isn't any good.
Just accept that, and keep looking. You have to look, in order to find.
Now how you look, is not set in stone. You could go to singles groups. You could ask your friends, or even your family to set you up on some blind dates. You could put a profile on a dating site.
You can do a number of things to look. But you need to look. You MUST make some effort. Again nothing good comes without effort. Don't think you are going to hide in your basement, and pray a few times, and some Christian girl will mis-dial your number, and then ask you out on a date after dialing a wrong number.
I told my parents decades ago, I'll marry when a girl accidentally walks into my house, and I hear a booming voice in the sky say "Thou shalt marry her". That was funny, because it was ridiculous and not going to happen. That doesn't happen in the Bible, or in life.
And it never happened.... (although the first year I moved into this condo, two girls with cookies knocked on my door, and walked right into my home.... very funny. They didn't let me have a cookie though. they went next door with them. I was very sad.)