hello (<----wow!! what an original thread title! i'm just so creative.........)

[Arianna]

hi,

i have been here a while, thought i would introduce myself. i first cut around 6 years ago....... i guess i decided cutting is a problem quite recently - because i think about it so much of the time.....that is the problem. (when trying to study, actually just thinking about how much i want to cut - not really condusive to getting much work done.....)

Trying to make it to one week without cutting...two days to go --struggling right now.

i am frustrated because i don't really know how this happened or why i feel like this. i want to stop because i don't want more scars and i am scared of being found out. But i don't want to stop because........i want to be able to hurt myself if i feel i need to......

anyway, just thought i'd say hi.....

nice to meet you,
Arianna
xxx

 

[goldenviolet]

God bless you sweetheart
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[meh]

Hello Arianna Your cute emoticons gave me a big grin

You will be in my prayers. God be with you during this time.

 

[inHisgripkim]

hi,

i have been here a while, thought i would introduce myself. i first cut around 6 years ago....... i guess i decided cutting is a problem quite recently - because i think about it so much of the time.....that is the problem. (when trying to study, actually just thinking about how much i want to cut - not really condusive to getting much work done.....)

Trying to make it to one week without cutting...two days to go --struggling right now.

i am frustrated because i don't really know how this happened or why i feel like this. i want to stop because i don't want more scars and i am scared of being found out. But i don't want to stop because........i want to be able to hurt myself if i feel i need to......

anyway, just thought i'd say hi.....

nice to meet you,
Arianna
xxx

Arianna:

Fight the urge anyway you possibly can. A friend of mine told me once to stomp and and hit a pillow. Drop to your knees and cry out to the Lord. Fight girl. You can do this. Whatever you are feeling that is giving you the urge to cut is "not life threatening." It is not. Goldentviolet will tell you that "the feeling that causes the urge will pass." Take your thoughts to a happy place in time. Keep them there. Remember that feelings are just feelings and they are not fact. Something caused you to feel bad and triggered your urge. It's just a feeling and it will pass. It's just a feeling and it is not life threatening. Fight the urge. Do something that makes you feel good about you. Take a hot soak in a salt bath. Paint your toenails. Get some praise and worship music and turn it on. Write your thoughts down. Turn your bad feelings over to the Lord. Surrender them. Let Jesus take on your burden. Surrender it.

You can do this. You can. Believe that.

We are here praying for you. Reach out to the Lord.

God Bless You,
Kim

 

[inHisgripkim]

hi,

i have been here a while, thought i would introduce myself. i first cut around 6 years ago....... i guess i decided cutting is a problem quite recently - because i think about it so much of the time.....that is the problem. (when trying to study, actually just thinking about how much i want to cut - not really condusive to getting much work done.....)

Trying to make it to one week without cutting...two days to go --struggling right now.

i am frustrated because i don't really know how this happened or why i feel like this. i want to stop because i don't want more scars and i am scared of being found out. But i don't want to stop because........i want to be able to hurt myself if i feel i need to......

anyway, just thought i'd say hi.....

nice to meet you,
Arianna
xxx

Dear Lord, Arianna is hurting right now. Lift her up out of her hurt and pain right now Lord. Help her to see that she is Your creation and she is perfect in Your eyes. Help her to see that she is a beautiful child of God. Go to her side and hold her close Lord. Help her to surrender her burdens. Her load is heavy and she needs them lifted Lord. Take her burdens Lord right now and make her load light. Help her to see that she is loved. Thank you my sweet Jesus. In You, we can accomplish anything. In You there is victory. You are our rock and our fortress. Praise You Lord for Your utmost love, grace, mercy, generosity, and healing. We love You. In Your beautiful name Lord, I pray. Amen

 

[Daysoni]

I applaude you for trying to refrain from the SI. It's so hard. And the fact that you are trying to stop is great. I just wish that you were not trying on your own that you had someone that could be there to help out kind of an accountability partner. And I pray that you can lean on the Lord. I say this because I am working on recovery as well in my life. I know of a few things that work sometimes for me but I'm unsure what we are to post in here and what we are not to. When your struggeling and I'm on feel free to pm me. You are in my prayers...

 

[Arianna]

Thankyou for your replies and encouragment everyone

And , thankyou for your suggestions, i will try some of them.

another smilie for Meh, since she likes them so much!
(It is so clever how you make the duck smilie walk along Dee, i am so impressed!)

i made it to a week - made it to 9 days - but the 10 day mark is still around 18 hrs away. - seems a very long time.



I like your forum, it is great to see people working on stopping.

Arianna
xxx

p.s.

happy birthday Daysoni

 

[oneandlonely]

God job on 9 days. that is something to be proud of.

 

[Arianna]

God job on 9 days. that is something to be proud of.

thanks

my current record is 11 days................which is not much of an improvement on 9 days....

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i spend more time thinking of ways i can get away with cutting myself without anyone noticing and trying to come up with other less noticable ways of hurting myself than i do trying to focus on how to recover. This is stupid, i know. I will never get anywhere like that.

[sign]Arianna[/sign]

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Hi Ari . How have things been going? I just wanted to drop in and remind you how wonderful you are. I have been so blessed in meeting you on this forum and I hope we'll know each other for a long time yet (lol, maybe together our German will get us through the country ).

Beautiful, I'm praying for you and sending you so many hugs. I know you've got the courage to do this - even if you don't always feel like it .

Shalom,
Steffi

 

[Arianna]

wow...i had forgotten about this thread..i can't really believe i was ever brave enough to post it!

um..i am ok..not doing too great...on day 1 right now.

i did go 2 months without cutting...it was so hard..and nothing got any better - which has kind of left me with the feeling that there is no way out of this

and now for some cool smilies!

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[Arianna]

oh! that was very rude of me to reply without mentioning how cool you are Steffi!!!

 

[Soulwings]

Ari. You made two months - that is amazing - and even if it didn't feel like you accomplished anything, that is a huge step. You've made it that far before, and you can do it again. And you know what's cool? Each time you do it, it'll get easier. There is a way out of this, you've just got to trust and believe in yourself and in God, and even though I know that I just made it sound easy, know that I know that it's a struggle. But with God's strength, comfort, and peace, recovery is not impossible. Remember, nothing is impossible with God.

I'm here if you ever need to talk, lovely.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

wow...i had forgotten about this thread..i can't really believe i was ever brave enough to post it!

um..i am ok..not doing too great...on day 1 right now.

i did go 2 months without cutting...it was so hard..and nothing got any better - which has kind of left me with the feeling that there is no way out of this

I believe you were brave enough to post it Ari. I've seen how brave you are! . And whatever you say - I'm not giving up on you. Never ever. If it's one day, then I'll praise God for that one day. It's a day He's made. It's a day He's blessed. It's a day that shows you haven't given up.

Gorgeous, I'm so, so proud of you for what you accomplised in those two months...but I'm also proud of you for what you accomplish every day. You are brave and I have faith in you. One day I hope you see it too.

oh! that was very rude of me to reply without mentioning how cool you are Steffi!!!

Not sure about cool, but I'm still wet from all the rain .

 

[Arianna]

Ari. You made two months - that is amazing - and even if it didn't feel like you accomplished anything, that is a huge step. You've made it that far before, and you can do it again. And you know what's cool? Each time you do it, it'll get easier. There is a way out of this, you've just got to trust and believe in yourself and in God, and even though I know that I just made it sound easy, know that I know that it's a struggle. But with God's strength, comfort, and peace, recovery is not impossible. Remember, nothing is impossible with God.

I'm here if you ever need to talk, lovely.

thank you April You are so amazing!! i am so glad about everything you are doing

. thank you for your advice.

I believe you were brave enough to post it Ari. I've seen how brave you are! . And whatever you say - I'm not giving up on you. Never ever. If it's one day, then I'll praise God for that one day. It's a day He's made. It's a day He's blessed. It's a day that shows you haven't given up.

Gorgeous, I'm so, so proud of you for what you accomplised in those two months...but I'm also proud of you for what you accomplish every day. You are brave and I have faith in you. One day I hope you see it too.

Not sure about cool, but I'm still wet from all the rain .

Thanks Steffi,
i guess i must have been brave enough to post it - because ..well - the evidence is there! (but really you should not be proud of me - it is something that will only lead to disappointment)

you are cool and i hope you dried out now! (and also that those drowning seagulls dried out) (did you know seagulls live up to thirty years? - that is a scary thought!(um...although mb not when they are submerged))

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really stressed today....i want to feel calm

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Hey Gorgeous . The evidence really is there &#8211; lol, we&#8217;re posting in it! (I could never be disappointed in you. Never ever.)

Lol, I was dried out&#8230;but it rained again today . And no, I didn&#8217;t know seagulls lived for 30 years &#8211; that&#8217;s a rather long time for a bird! (hmm, maybe they were only submerged momentarily catching fish? Then they would be ok ).

Beautiful, you know that idea of jogging I suggested a while back? I really think you should try it today. I don&#8217;t mind how busy you are &#8211; you need to take some time out in the fresh air. Go on Hun &#8211; forget what your parents might think and spend some time not stressing. The time to take a break is when you think you really can&#8217;t afford to have one and right now, you need a break.

 

[georgie2319]

Hello i have been here for a while, getting to know how everything works. Welcome to the site. I love being here there are so many wonderful people.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Ari, I know you're away at the moment, but I just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for you and I hope all goes well .

 

[Arianna]

thanks Steffi

things are ok.
um...though i'm still only on day 1...and not sure i'll make it much past that.. (and i'm not really sure that fighting it is worth it)(ok, now i sound like a loser)

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

thanks Steffi

things are ok.
um...though i'm still only on day 1...and not sure i'll make it much past that.. (and i'm not really sure that fighting it is worth it)(ok, now i sound like a loser)

Gorgeous, you're not a loser at all! I really think you should put that jogging idea into practice though (no excuses! ) - you never know - you might even *enjoy* it . Fighting this is worth it Ari, I promise. The other alternative is running away from it, which works too. When you want to SH, get up, walk out of the room or away from wherever you are and do something else.

I have faith in you Beautiful. Please don't doubt that .