He would be 18 now if I'd let him live

[ames61]

I wish they would too (myself included) because just like the Good Book says in John 8:32: "The truth shall set you free!" And that is really what satan wants -- is for us to be alone in our silence and shame. Well, get thee behind me satan.

I too am like our sister New Creation. I had an abortion 28 years ago. I believe my baby was a girl and I named her Lindsay several years ago. My sister, unknowingly (to this day) named her daughter Lindsay (18 years ago). Funny how things work out that way. I have not allowed myself to think about this for years.

I drowned myself in hate and anger; drugs and alcohol and cigarettes; a tough chic attitude. You name it, I drowned in it! Matter of fact, I chose the user id "woman at the well" because of my past promiscuous lifestyle (3 marriages) that I believe was a part of the abortion process. It's been a long hard road.

I also had two miscarriages that I would like to mention in this post. They too are prevelant on my mind today. I'm almost certain one was a boy, not sure about the other. The boy I named Dylan.

Anyway . . . God bless those who shared their stories so openly in this thread I thank you from the bottom of my heart for giving me the courage to say my own story openly and honestly.

The Lord is starting to bring some things to the surface concerning my losses with these babies. I know I need to mourn. I know I need to heal. And I thank you for your kind words, thoughts, and prayers for those of us who have gone through this. Thank you for making us feel like we're not alone, or that we are unforgivable, and letting us know we don't need to carry the shame anymore.

You guys are awesome and true examples of Christ in the forum!

God bless you!

God bless you too! I love the picture on your post. That is so close to how I imagine myself with Christ. Sitting at His feet. Seeing the love in His eyes that I thought I had forfeited with my actions. Just being able to read in His eyes "yes, I died for you, too" Him pulling me up, wrapping His arms around me and saying "welcome home, child" Bringing me to a meadow with children playing, bringing me to my boys "These are yours" Knowing that through their prayers, they brought their mom home to Christ.

Thank you all for your prayers and kind comments.

Amy
Luke 7:36-50

 

[woman.at.the.well]

Thank you so much for sharing your story with everyone sister. I KNOW it has made a difference.

God has chosen May 30, Memorial Day as the day for me to memorialize my son. A good friend and sister in the Lord will also be joining me (not physically) to mourn her daughter. If you wouldn't mind keeping us in prayer that day ladies, we would really appreciate it. We'll need some help. I know I can count on you all. Thank you.

God bless you too! I love the picture on your post. That is so close to how I imagine myself with Christ. Sitting at His feet. Seeing the love in His eyes that I thought I had forfeited with my actions. Just being able to read in His eyes "yes, I died for you, too" Him pulling me up, wrapping His arms around me and saying "welcome home, child" Bringing me to a meadow with children playing, bringing me to my boys "These are yours" Knowing that through their prayers, they brought their mom home to Christ.

Thank you all for your prayers and kind comments.

Amy
Luke 7:36-50

Thank you all so much for your loving kindness and prayer! I thank God for people like you who have so much compassion and give out such wonderful encouragement. May God bless you abundantly for your faithfulness, love, mercy, kindness, and love that you show and the true examples of Christ that you are!

Ok New Creation, go ahead and tell them who your friend is!

 

[New Creation]

Thank you all so much for your loving kindness and prayer! I thank God for people like you who have so much compassion and give out such wonderful encouragement. May God bless you abundantly for your faithfulness, love, mercy, kindness, and love that you show and the true examples of Christ that you are!

Ok New Creation, go ahead and tell them who your friend is!

Yayyy!!! Thank you woman.at.the.well!!!

Well ladies, woman at the well and I have been corresponding outside of Cf as well and have really been able to help each other, praise God!
She is the friend that I spoke of earlier.
She will be memorializing her daughter at the same time that I will be memorializing my son. Now you know who to pray for!

The women (and men) here are such awesome examples of Christ's body at work. It is a true honour to be a part of such healing.

Amy, thank you for those beautiful words from Pope John Paul II. It's not often enough that the world hears about the healing love of Christ.

 

[leigh01]

it must have been hard for you and v.difficult at such a young age i aint hain sex b4 marrage that is one ov my strongest thoughts

 

[ladyhawk]

I am praying for you and woman at the well for peace on your day of memorial.

I pray to you Lord that these two women start to heal and find peace that has been so long coming to them both and find the comfort in knowing that their babies are with You and that they will see them again in Jesus name Amen.

 

[Picture.Of.Obedience]

*praying for you*

 

[SetFreeOne]

I find myself so emotional over what I have read in this thread. I have to admit that at first I didnt wish to include men because some women were forced into abortion by men. I thought that some would not come and share their stories if the forum had men in it. Now I am glad men are here. Mayhap the ladies who were forced by men need a few words from a man? What a wonderful work the Lord is doing! New Creation and Woman At The Well, I am so proud of you both. I have a tattoo on my right thigh that I drew myself. It memorializes my son, James Dean Freeman. I am thinking of having his name put below the tatt. I will post a pic as soon as I can so you can see it. My local Christians For Life has bought some land and is in the process of putting a memorial garden in place there. Mayhap I could put your names and the names of your children there? Message me and I will give you my # so we may discuss it.
Mr. Cheese, It must be painful for you to have found out that you were denied a sister.
Remember, you are loved. Feel free to share everything here if you wish. Thank you for posting. Everyone on this thread has been so loving and gracious. I have such a joy right now , its hard to contain it.

 

[New Creation]

I find myself so emotional over what I have read in this thread. I have to admit that at first I didnt wish to include men because some women were forced into abortion by men. I thought that some would not come and share their stories if the forum had men in it. Now I am glad men are here. Mayhap the ladies who were forced by men need a few words from a man? What a wonderful work the Lord is doing! New Creation and Woman At The Well, I am so proud of you both. I have a tattoo on my right thigh that I drew myself. It memorializes my son, James Dean Freeman. I am thinking of having his name put below the tatt. I will post a pic as soon as I can so you can see it. My local Christians For Life has bought some land and is in the process of putting a memorial garden in place there. Mayhap I could put your names and the names of your children there? Message me and I will give you my # so we may discuss it.
Mr. Cheese, It must be painful for you to have found out that you were denied a sister.
Remember, you are loved. Feel free to share everything here if you wish. Thank you for posting. Everyone on this thread has been so loving and gracious. I have such a joy right now , its hard to contain it.

Oh my goodness SetFreeOne, my heart just leaped when I read your offer. I am in tears writing this. Oh, I would love to have my son's name in a memorial garden. How beautiful. HOw amazing. Thank you for thinking of him.

 

[woman.at.the.well]

SF1 I am beyond words to describe (at this moment in time) what I am feeling with this offer you have made to NC and myself. What an amazingly thoughtful thing to do. How could I say NO?

I am not at this time able to break down like the tears that are welling up in my eyes and heart are wanting me to do, because I am at work, but this means more to me than I can say.

God bless you SF1. I will pm you! My sister!

 

[woman.at.the.well]

I just went back and re-read all the amazing posts in this thread my wonderful sister in Christ New Creation started. I am moved beyond words and can not even descrive how awesome you people are. Your kind words, encouragement, love, warmth, heartfelt prayers and wisdom are giving me more and more hope everyday that there really is light at the end of the tunnel and that NC, SF1 and I as well as all the others who told their stories on this thread will heal and be set free indeed, so we can live a full life in Christ and do God's will as He meant us to!

God bless you all, men and women alike who have been affected by abortion. Let this be the start of New Beginnings for all of us! Stand up and fight for what is right, for the one's who don't have a voice!!! I prophecy many abortion ministries coming from this thread! In Jesus Name go and speak. Tell your testimonies. Get the truth out there about abortion, and put an end to this terrible practice.

Amen!

 

[ShannonMcCatholic]

I just wanted to let you know I haven't forgotten and will be praying for you as you remember your babies in a special way in a few days.

 

[New Creation]

Amen to what you said Woman at the Well! I think you are right. I feel an urgency that I never did before. I feel the reality of my son Lance's life like I never did before. And I have known the love of the body of Christ like never before.
Shannon, thank you so much for remembering us and for your prayers.

Ladies, I want you all to know that I will be writing about this subject in the Christian Forums newspaper - in the very first edition- about abortion and it's effect on the women who have them and about how God can heal us through his mercy and forgiveness. I will be taking the wisdom I have gleaned from the brave and beautiful women and men who have shared their expereinces here to help each other. I thank you all for giving of yourselves.
I'd like to ask you all one more time for your prayers in helping me write this article. For Holy Spirit to use me as His vessel in saying exactly the right words for the right people to read. With God's help, we can make a difference together.

 

[ladyhawk]

You have my prayers to do this article, for it to be written with the Lords blessing..Amen

 

[woman.at.the.well]

I just wanted to let you know I haven't forgotten and will be praying for you as you remember your babies in a special way in a few days.

and God bless you Shannon! You are the best and I really appreciate you. May God richly bless you for your kindness sister.

 

[SetFreeOne]

New Creation and Woman At The Well,
I know the time draws near. I pray you gain healing and strength from the memorial service you plan for your children . I will remember you on your day.
Mary.

 

[woman.at.the.well]

New Creation and Woman At The Well,
I know the time draws near. I pray you gain healing and strength from the memorial service you plan for your children . I will remember you on your day.
Mary.

Thank you Mary. Your kindness is a gift! Bless you.

 

[Imani]

to New Creation and woman.at.the.well...

i am thinking about you and your children and i would like you to know that i really admire you both.

luv Sara.

 

[New Creation]

to New Creation and woman.at.the.well...

i am thinking about you and your children and i would like you to know that i really admire you both.

luv Sara.

Sara, my hug arrived today. I am touched beyond words. Thank you for your thoughts and your love. I can't explain how much it means to me. I really can't. It spells hope to me.
with love,
NC

 

[Imani]

Sara, my hug arrived today. I am touched beyond words. Thank you for your thoughts and your love. I can't explain how much it means to me. I really can't. It spells hope to me.
with love,
NC

luv Sara

 

[The Princess Bride]

I pray that you will have a quiver FULL of children!
Just because you messed up in the past doesn't mean that God is going to continue to punish you forever. If you have asked His forgiveness, it is gone from His remembrance. He gives us the desires of our hearts whe we seek Him first. So seek Him first in ALL you do and I know that He WILL Bless you!

Many Blessings and Prayers,
~The Princess Bride