- Jan 4, 2017
- 30
- 30
- Country
- United Kingdom
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
Hi, I have been a born-again Holy Spirit filled Christian all my life, since I was a child.
In 2018, I had been getting some thoughts I did not want and suppose I did not understand they were already forgiven, so I did not need to let it affect me. I had a spiritual attack where I thought I lost salvation. I found out I hadn't lost it and God brought me through that time and showed His incredible love for me. I got so close to God that year and He helped me to overcome, even though my mind had been affected.
Holy Spirit cleared up my mind in 2019 from intrusive thoughts. It was a miracle.
By the end of 2019, a few things happened which made my mind feel weak again and the same thoughts affected me. I did not know how to overcome it.
I started 2020 feeling quite overwhelmed but held on to Jesus.
He gave me an amazing victory in February and I felt wave after wave of His love and grace and power wash over me.
In March, we were warned at church not to doubt God. How I felt at the time made me still have some doubts and I even feared losing Him. I don't why this was an issue for me but I think it was because of the spiritual attacks that happened from getting so many thoughts.
So many attacks keep happened and I felt very isolated and trapped. I felt like I could not escape the attacks happening with the slightest doubt or fear.
God gave me rainbows a sign with coronavirus, a sign of His promise being true.
I am absolutely desperate for restoration and hope of Heaven. Life is so hard right now and I can bearly cope thinking I will be condemned to hell. I just can't bear it.
Every day I am trying to come to terms with what has happened to me.
I don't feel like doing any work, everything seems pointless now.
Eternity only matters and I need to know I am saved.
I want Holy Spirit to dwell inside of me again. I am absolutely desperate. I need another chance.
In 2018, I had been getting some thoughts I did not want and suppose I did not understand they were already forgiven, so I did not need to let it affect me. I had a spiritual attack where I thought I lost salvation. I found out I hadn't lost it and God brought me through that time and showed His incredible love for me. I got so close to God that year and He helped me to overcome, even though my mind had been affected.
Holy Spirit cleared up my mind in 2019 from intrusive thoughts. It was a miracle.
By the end of 2019, a few things happened which made my mind feel weak again and the same thoughts affected me. I did not know how to overcome it.
I started 2020 feeling quite overwhelmed but held on to Jesus.
He gave me an amazing victory in February and I felt wave after wave of His love and grace and power wash over me.
In March, we were warned at church not to doubt God. How I felt at the time made me still have some doubts and I even feared losing Him. I don't why this was an issue for me but I think it was because of the spiritual attacks that happened from getting so many thoughts.
So many attacks keep happened and I felt very isolated and trapped. I felt like I could not escape the attacks happening with the slightest doubt or fear.
God gave me rainbows a sign with coronavirus, a sign of His promise being true.
I am absolutely desperate for restoration and hope of Heaven. Life is so hard right now and I can bearly cope thinking I will be condemned to hell. I just can't bear it.
Every day I am trying to come to terms with what has happened to me.
I don't feel like doing any work, everything seems pointless now.
Eternity only matters and I need to know I am saved.
I want Holy Spirit to dwell inside of me again. I am absolutely desperate. I need another chance.