Fed up with family and christians in general

[christianfilmcrew]

For the last 25 years I have been a christian (christ follower) and in my lifetime I grew up in a christian home, but with a mother who had borderline personality disorder (undiagnosed, but apparently low functioning). And a couple of years ago I got married to someone in a foreign country who eventually I found out had BPD and was high functioning.

I grew up with an abusive mother who emotionally and mentally abused me, while at times she also physically abused me. Shoving food down my throat etc. The woman I married turns out tried making false accusations to police and called 911 on me one week into marriage.

Over time I grew afraid and now she filed for divorce and got it March 2005. I am now living in a foreign country and after trying to intern on a Christian television show and after being expected to work 18 hours per day 7 days per week (literally), I am literally fed up with Christianity. I gave up my reasonably paying job at a mainstream TV station to go work with Christians only to be paid $400 per month and to be worked to death as slave labor. Now I have no job and my old job won't hire me back because I left.

I can't seem to find anyone who cares about anyone else but themselves. No one believed the abuse I went through as a kid, and now I'm 32, really quite angry now, and tired of the hypocrisy that is in the body of believers.

I am at a point where I'd prefer the company of non-christian friends because at least they aren't going to speak in plattitudes and they're going to be real with me as to where they are at.

I am at a point where I would rather be married to a non-christian because then I'd at least be equally yoked in every area apart from spiritually.

I am really venting right now and I am really frustrated. I'm tired of the mental games my mother plays, I'm tired of getting no real support from christians, while getting more support and understanding from my non-christian friends. I'm also tired of Christians deferring stuff to a 'counsellor' instead of doing what God has called us to do and that is to help carry one another's burdens. Counsellors only care about getting paid, and I haven't found any counsellor who is anywhere near as good as my old friends in a missions agency who actually point everything back to God.

Why is it that we as christians pretend the world to be one way when we're really lying to ourselves? Why can't we be real, and honest with where we're at? Why is it that my christian roommate compromises all the time and watches unhealthy movies and plays unhealthy video games? Why do so many Christians look like the world? Why is there no integrity in the body of Christ anymore? Why is it that I can get more love and support from non-christians than I do from Christians, especially on hard issues?

 

[Jimmy West]

For the last 25 years I have been a christian (christ follower) and in my lifetime I grew up in a christian home, but with a mother who had borderline personality disorder (undiagnosed, but apparently low functioning). And a couple of years ago I got married to someone in a foreign country who eventually I found out had BPD and was high functioning.

I grew up with an abusive mother who emotionally and mentally abused me, while at times she also physically abused me. Shoving food down my throat etc. The woman I married turns out tried making false accusations to police and called 911 on me one week into marriage.

Over time I grew afraid and now she filed for divorce and got it March 2005. I am now living in a foreign country and after trying to intern on a Christian television show and after being expected to work 18 hours per day 7 days per week (literally), I am literally fed up with Christianity. I gave up my reasonably paying job at a mainstream TV station to go work with Christians only to be paid $400 per month and to be worked to death as slave labor. Now I have no job and my old job won't hire me back because I left.

I can't seem to find anyone who cares about anyone else but themselves. No one believed the abuse I went through as a kid, and now I'm 32, really quite angry now, and tired of the hypocrisy that is in the body of believers.

I am at a point where I'd prefer the company of non-christian friends because at least they aren't going to speak in plattitudes and they're going to be real with me as to where they are at.

I am at a point where I would rather be married to a non-christian because then I'd at least be equally yoked in every area apart from spiritually.

I am really venting right now and I am really frustrated. I'm tired of the mental games my mother plays, I'm tired of getting no real support from christians, while getting more support and understanding from my non-christian friends. I'm also tired of Christians deferring stuff to a 'counsellor' instead of doing what God has called us to do and that is to help carry one another's burdens. Counsellors only care about getting paid, and I haven't found any counsellor who is anywhere near as good as my old friends in a missions agency who actually point everything back to God.

Why is it that we as christians pretend the world to be one way when we're really lying to ourselves? Why can't we be real, and honest with where we're at? Why is it that my christian roommate compromises all the time and watches unhealthy movies and plays unhealthy video games? Why do so many Christians look like the world? Why is there no integrity in the body of Christ anymore? Why is it that I can get more love and support from non-christians than I do from Christians, especially on hard issues?

I can help. I really can.

There are all kinds of Christians and just because a person calls himself a Christian, doesn't mean that he is a good person. Most Christians are carnal in nature and therefore live by their instincts or their flesh. The problem is that many of them never started growing spiritually. When you grow and mature spiritually, your carnality is replaced by The Holy Spirit and instead of doing what your flesh says to do, you are hearing the Holy spirit telling you what to do. When you mature spiritually, you take on the characted of god as you become one-in-spirit with him. At that point, He will be able to bless you so that you will become a blessing. If you want to improve your life and receive everything that God has for you, work on your spiritual growth.
Here are some steps you can take to reach spiritual maturity:

1. Give your entire being to him for his Holy use.

2. Make a verbal commitment to place his needs above yours. Make his needs, desires and priorities, your needs, desires and priorities.

3. Ask him to fill you with his spirit, so that you can hear his voice.

4. At least once a day, sit and talk to him quietly. Tell him what you would like to do for him and The Kingdom. Put no limitations on yourself or him.

5. Every time you think of him, tell him that you love him.

6. Ask him for special spiritual gifts, like tongues, healing, teaching etc.

7. Make it a priority to always be a blessing to him, every hour of every day, in all ways. Always be on the lookout for new ways to bless him. Things that bless him are; telling others about his goodness and love, singing beautiful worship songs to him, telling him that you love him, coming up with ideas on how to serve and improve The Kingdom ( The more unique and unusual, the more he likes it.), just sitting and hanging out with him and talking to him is something he loves (Talk to him like he is sitting right next to you), praying for others, forgiving and praying for your enemies.

8. Don’t be arrogant or proud of your scriptural knowledge. It does not make a person righteous and knowledge does not impress or please God. When you talk about God, point to him, not yourself. In other words, it’s not about what you know, it’s about how you use your knowledge to glorify God.

9. If you talk it, walk it and if you preach it, live it, always and without exception.

10. Be joyful always; in your service to him, and even in the deepest part of your trial.

 

[markthomas]

You need to get rid of Christianity, and all the pre conceptions you have about what Christianity is, and replace that mumbo jumbo with JESUS CHRIST.
America is so loaded up on Christianity that they forget all about what matters - Jesus does. Its ironic that people leave Jesus Christ for Christianity.
When you talk, you act as though you are turning your back on Christianity - not Jesus Christ, our Lord and Savior. Who are you serving? Christianity or Jesus Christ?

 

[Alpine]

I won't speak towards where you are in your walk with God, but I can speak about working for a Christian ministry. I worked for a national christian radio network a year and a half.


Media ministry is a very weird place to work. I worked for a VERY legalistic mean guy who people in this area revered and held up as a man of God.But I knew him to be someone completly different. Myself and a small circle of people knew him to be essentially a fraud in the sense that there was no love for people in his bones. He treated his employees worse then stray dogs. It was BAD. The worse thing is when you're being corrected for an error or a mistake, not only do you get a correction via being yelled at and getting a stare of evil. You get a spiritual correction too! He was the most intimidating man I've ever known.

A week after I left the station, I was falsly accused of stealing a radio. ( I learned that it actually disappeared long before I began working their) This caused incredible stress in my life. Nothing feels worse then being falsy accused, especially by people who are supposed to be loving Christians.

It took me a long time to get over that. I am very suspicious of Christian media just because of my experience.

I did find a church and support via my pastor and a man who became a spiritual father to me at the time. That helped me through my tough time greatly. Sounds that's what you need.

 

[torchedfuel]

I pray that the Lord can bring comfort to you. I can't understand some of the things we have to go through in life. But I guess we never will. But dont try to look to people for comfort because somehow there is always some kind of disappointment in it (especially when times are at its toughest). Look toward your heavenly father more than ever and let Him reveal to you. The enemy will use non- Christians to devert you. Cause he doesnt want you to Love Jesus. The enemy wont pull you away quick he will do it slow until you are so much detatched which makes it harder to find your way back. He will also use Christians to devert you also and make Christianity look like its no good. This is gonna have to be a time that it is You and Jesus until Jesus brings someone in your life that you can trust and truely fellowship with ( I pray that He does). May God bless you abundantly and give you the love and security you need.

 

[llghoney]

I pray that the Lord can bring comfort to you. I can't understand some of the things we have to go through in life. But I guess we never will. But dont try to look to people for comfort because somehow there is always some kind of disappointment in it (especially when times are at its toughest). Look toward your heavenly father more than ever and let Him reveal to you. The enemy will use non- Christians to devert you. Cause he doesnt want you to Love Jesus. The enemy wont pull you away quick he will do it slow until you are so much detatched which makes it harder to find your way back. He will also use Christians to devert you also and make Christianity look like its no good. This is gonna have to be a time that it is You and Jesus until Jesus brings someone in your life that you can trust and truely fellowship with ( I pray that He does). May God bless you abundantly and give you the love and security you need.

I agree ! I have been in your shoes. So do not feel like you are the only one who has ever gone through these emotions & reality of the world. it is hard very hard. Like you said you question is there ANYBODY out there that stands for what they believe & not give in to the world. Sometimes it takes drastic things happening in our lives to get us to trust in God 100% to not question others but to pray for them. Jesus did not "hang" around all christains. He witnessed to the lost. We are called to do that as well. I pray that you will turn to God & put your trust in him. I am having to do this in my life as well. Take care!

 

[Anti Existance]

How on earth could you engage into a relationship and even marriage with someone who was mentally unstable to begin with? Could it be that the choices you made in your life became your own downfall? You made a choice to be with psycho woman, you made a choice to quit a well paying job for slavery. And you have absolutely no idea what God expects from you.

God wants you to love and help other people.

You made the unfortunate choice to be with someone like your mother and then you blame it on christianity? I don't see the link, but i do see that you have been making this link inside your head so allow me to correct you.

Christians should NOT look at other christians, but to the Christ himself, only listen to Jesus teachings , the apostels, the followers of Jesus know as Christians know absolutely NOTHING of God exept that Jesus taught them. He is your shepard, and has warned you about wolves who dress in sheepclothes. Even among our fellow Christians this happens God knows our hearts and sees those people who's hearts are filled with stench, darkness and hatred. Those who act unconsiously are not in the knowledge of the Lord. The world is a dark place full of hatred and we are here to bring Love , even a small act of love (helping out a person who's car is stranded) unconditionally will rejoice the Lord far more then you working for some Christian t.v show, does God really want you to wreck your life for him? Is that love? Is that even christian? No no no

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[thepianist]

For the last 25 years I have been a christian (christ follower) and in my lifetime I grew up in a christian home, but with a mother who had borderline personality disorder (undiagnosed, but apparently low functioning). And a couple of years ago I got married to someone in a foreign country who eventually I found out had BPD and was high functioning.

I grew up with an abusive mother who emotionally and mentally abused me, while at times she also physically abused me. Shoving food down my throat etc. The woman I married turns out tried making false accusations to police and called 911 on me one week into marriage.

Over time I grew afraid and now she filed for divorce and got it March 2005. I am now living in a foreign country and after trying to intern on a Christian television show and after being expected to work 18 hours per day 7 days per week (literally), I am literally fed up with Christianity. I gave up my reasonably paying job at a mainstream TV station to go work with Christians only to be paid $400 per month and to be worked to death as slave labor. Now I have no job and my old job won't hire me back because I left.

I can't seem to find anyone who cares about anyone else but themselves. No one believed the abuse I went through as a kid, and now I'm 32, really quite angry now, and tired of the hypocrisy that is in the body of believers.

I am at a point where I'd prefer the company of non-christian friends because at least they aren't going to speak in plattitudes and they're going to be real with me as to where they are at.

I am at a point where I would rather be married to a non-christian because then I'd at least be equally yoked in every area apart from spiritually.

I am really venting right now and I am really frustrated. I'm tired of the mental games my mother plays, I'm tired of getting no real support from christians, while getting more support and understanding from my non-christian friends. I'm also tired of Christians deferring stuff to a 'counsellor' instead of doing what God has called us to do and that is to help carry one another's burdens. Counsellors only care about getting paid, and I haven't found any counsellor who is anywhere near as good as my old friends in a missions agency who actually point everything back to God.

Why is it that we as christians pretend the world to be one way when we're really lying to ourselves? Why can't we be real, and honest with where we're at? Why is it that my christian roommate compromises all the time and watches unhealthy movies and plays unhealthy video games? Why do so many Christians look like the world? Why is there no integrity in the body of Christ anymore? Why is it that I can get more love and support from non-christians than I do from Christians, especially on hard issues?

You are exactly right about the Christian world of today! I kinda think it has to do with the Lord's soon return. People get farther and farther away from God and the truth - all the time. Keep you chin up, and keep yourself right with the Lord (that's what really counts). Whether you want them or not, you will be in my prayers, my friend.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

I'm a non-christian now because of christians. So many of them seem to only care about the rapture and the bible. When you want help from them they only quoto the bible and I find that rather annoying. I hope the best for you, please cheer up. I do believe the abuse you went through for I been so abuse my whole life. I do still believe in Jesus and GOD just not religion. If you need a friend to talk to, i will talk to you.


God bless you.

 

[madison1101]

I am sorry you experienced such abuse in your childhood, and then married a person with BPD as well. I understand how you could have married without knowing, as people with BPD can be very sweet, till they are married.

Therapists, a good licensed therapist, will not be after your money as much as helping you grow. They will need to collect their fee, as they have bills to pay, but they are not after your money. They must ascribe themselves to a code of ethics.

Being raised by someone with BPD can be very traumatic. I understand that full well. Have you read, "Stop Walking on Eggshells" by Randi Kreger. It is a good book for people who are in relationships with people with BPD.

Now, to address your problem with Christianity and Christians. Christians are sinners saved by grace. Your expectations of them are too high. I expect people to fail me all the time, and then when they don't I feel blessed.

As for Christianity, it is a man-made religion. It is not the same as having a personal relationship with Jesus Christ. When you are in a personal relationship with Him, you are able to see Him healing you as you learn to depend on Him and trust Him. Trust is something you will have difficulty with, but Christ can heal you if you let Him.

I suggest you start by reading in the Psalms. David felt a lot of pain in his life,and many of the Psalms are his cries for help. Cry out to God with David and ask Him to help you.

 

[icxn]

... Why is it that we as christians pretend the world to be one way when we're really lying to ourselves? Why can't we be real, and honest with where we're at? Why is it that my christian roommate compromises all the time and watches unhealthy movies and plays unhealthy video games? Why do so many Christians look like the world? Why is there no integrity in the body of Christ anymore? Why is it that I can get more love and support from non-christians than I do from Christians, especially on hard issues?

Because Western Christianity disregarded/downplayed the importance of asceticism with their man made theology such as Once Saved Always Saved and Faith Alone, which promote moral/spiritual laziness.

icxn

 

[Galadriel]

For the last 25 years I have been a christian (christ follower) and in my lifetime I grew up in a christian home, but with a mother who had borderline personality disorder (undiagnosed, but apparently low functioning). And a couple of years ago I got married to someone in a foreign country who eventually I found out had BPD and was high functioning.

I grew up with an abusive mother who emotionally and mentally abused me, while at times she also physically abused me. Shoving food down my throat etc. The woman I married turns out tried making false accusations to police and called 911 on me one week into marriage.

Over time I grew afraid and now she filed for divorce and got it March 2005. I am now living in a foreign country and after trying to intern on a Christian television show and after being expected to work 18 hours per day 7 days per week (literally), I am literally fed up with Christianity. I gave up my reasonably paying job at a mainstream TV station to go work with Christians only to be paid $400 per month and to be worked to death as slave labor. Now I have no job and my old job won't hire me back because I left.

I can't seem to find anyone who cares about anyone else but themselves. No one believed the abuse I went through as a kid, and now I'm 32, really quite angry now, and tired of the hypocrisy that is in the body of believers.

I am at a point where I'd prefer the company of non-christian friends because at least they aren't going to speak in plattitudes and they're going to be real with me as to where they are at.

I am at a point where I would rather be married to a non-christian because then I'd at least be equally yoked in every area apart from spiritually.

I am really venting right now and I am really frustrated. I'm tired of the mental games my mother plays, I'm tired of getting no real support from christians, while getting more support and understanding from my non-christian friends. I'm also tired of Christians deferring stuff to a 'counsellor' instead of doing what God has called us to do and that is to help carry one another's burdens. Counsellors only care about getting paid, and I haven't found any counsellor who is anywhere near as good as my old friends in a missions agency who actually point everything back to God.

Why is it that we as christians pretend the world to be one way when we're really lying to ourselves? Why can't we be real, and honest with where we're at? Why is it that my christian roommate compromises all the time and watches unhealthy movies and plays unhealthy video games? Why do so many Christians look like the world? Why is there no integrity in the body of Christ anymore? Why is it that I can get more love and support from non-christians than I do from Christians, especially on hard issues?

I can understand somewhat where you are coming from. It sounds like you have had to deal with a lot of abuse/shadyness from people in your life who claimed to be Christians. I am very sorry this happened to you, and I can see why you as a result would feel very frustrated and angry at Christians and Christianity. There are way too many people who claim they are Christians, then turn around and act the opposite of how one should act. I know at one point I just thought I couldn't "do" Christianity, because it just was so nuts like that. But Christianity isn't really about that, its about Jesus. Remember, people are people who sin, who act very un-Christian sometimes, who let you down. Don't put the actions of faulty people as your basis for not wanting to be Christian. God will never let you down like people will. I think this is where your troubles are. You have been hurt by your mom, your previous wife, and your boss, and other Christians. Remember too that people as Christians are still people who mess up bigtime, who do things wrong, who sin. The difference is that they are (supposed to be) learning and molding themselves more like Christ.

 

[PorcelainHeart]

I learn this about alot of christians.


1. Alot of them are all talk and no action.
2. They tell you how to live your life, without improving theirs
3. They think faith alone gets you with Jesus
4. None of them truly know what the bible means and how GOD is. (We just think we do)
5. There are very few true christians, the true christians aren't preaching to others about GOD they are doing good deeds by helping animals and people.
6. Religion, the bible, and the church are made man. God isn't man made.

now let me explain
Most people claim the bible is 100% fact, but we need to remember it was written by men who sin. So alot of it could be changed. I believe some is true

 

[Mr.Cheese]

Your faith is between you and Jesus, not you and anybody else. You're not on this earth to impress anyone. You have a purpose that you must hammer out every day you wake up. We're called to be lights shining in the darkness. I think the church has forgotten what love is and what relationships with other people are. Instead it has a relationship with programs and budget meetings. I don't blame you for being frustrated. The question is how can you accomplish the mission to shine in a dark world?

 

[torchedfuel]

I'm a non-christian now because of christians. So many of them seem to only care about the rapture and the bible. When you want help from them they only quoto the bible and I find that rather annoying. I hope the best for you, please cheer up. I do believe the abuse you went through for I been so abuse my whole life. I do still believe in Jesus and GOD just not religion. If you need a friend to talk to, i will talk to you.

Dont let people or "Christians" determine your destiny. Love Jesus and He will show you the way. The enemy will put people and even Christians in your life in a negative way to deter you away from Christianity . And it sounds like the enemy is doing just that. Don't let Him . You have victory over him . I pray that the Lord will show you the way.

 

[Hispath]

Since excepting Christ just over a year ago, I'm now 40. I've lived my life prior to that according to what society and our culture thought was the right way to live. Money, sex, helping ourselves, more than helping others.

I've found in order to change this long term pattern of behavior and thinking, I really need to focus hard on what is really important, God! If I waiver to the left or to the right, I fall right back into my old way of doing and thinking.

Not easy at all, but the end result of staying focused is a relationship with Jesus Christ that is amazing! Everything else, peoples opinions, etc. doesn't matter after that. Following His path, things will fall into place.

Jim

 

[HoosierCanuck]

How on earth could you engage into a relationship and even marriage with someone who was mentally unstable to begin with? Could it be that the choices you made in your life became your own downfall? You made a choice to be with psycho woman, you made a choice to quit a well paying job for slavery. And you have absolutely no idea what God expects from you.

It is quite possible that he was fooled into believing this woman was stable. I once thought I was marrying someone who was spiritually grounded, etc... but I went through a year and a half of pure hell (the only thing missing was physical abuse).

As for media, I feel your pain. I work part time in secular radio but the station I work for and several others are owned by a man who claims to be a devout Christian. The first time I laid eyes on this guy I knew he was a sham. He grossly underpays his employees and the only time anyone hears from him is when a mistake is made. He is in an office 2 hours from here and as far as I know does nothing other than crack the whip occasionally and laugh himself silly driving his Caddy to the bank.

I know how you feel about being tired of the way 'Christians' act. I agree with another post-er who said we've left Jesus to take part in 'Christianity'....a culture we have created and immersed ourselves in to try to differentiate us from the rest of the 'sinful world.' We're kidding ourselves, really. I'm going through some tough garbage myself due to things I've done in life and I'm questioning a lot of choices I've made. It's a hard thing to go through. I hope and pray you find a better job and will soon be on your way to establishing a better life for yourself. It takes a lot of time and effort but it can be done. I pray that God gives you discernment (I'm still looking for that myself).

 

[christianfilmcrew]

Hey everyone thanks for your support, encouragement, affirmation and loving reframing of the situation. I haven't had a chance to read the latest posts, but there are some new developments which are both good and quite ugly, but ultimately full of new life for me.

I'll fill ya in later today.

 

[BOJAX]

For the last 25 years I have been a christian (christ follower) and in my lifetime I grew up in a christian home, but with a mother who had borderline personality disorder (undiagnosed, but apparently low functioning). And a couple of years ago I got married to someone in a foreign country who eventually I found out had BPD and was high functioning.

I grew up with an abusive mother who emotionally and mentally abused me, while at times she also physically abused me. Shoving food down my throat etc. The woman I married turns out tried making false accusations to police and called 911 on me one week into marriage.

Over time I grew afraid and now she filed for divorce and got it March 2005. I am now living in a foreign country and after trying to intern on a Christian television show and after being expected to work 18 hours per day 7 days per week (literally), I am literally fed up with Christianity. I gave up my reasonably paying job at a mainstream TV station to go work with Christians only to be paid $400 per month and to be worked to death as slave labor. Now I have no job and my old job won't hire me back because I left.

I can't seem to find anyone who cares about anyone else but themselves. No one believed the abuse I went through as a kid, and now I'm 32, really quite angry now, and tired of the hypocrisy that is in the body of believers.

I am at a point where I'd prefer the company of non-christian friends because at least they aren't going to speak in plattitudes and they're going to be real with me as to where they are at.

I am at a point where I would rather be married to a non-christian because then I'd at least be equally yoked in every area apart from spiritually.

I am really venting right now and I am really frustrated. I'm tired of the mental games my mother plays, I'm tired of getting no real support from christians, while getting more support and understanding from my non-christian friends. I'm also tired of Christians deferring stuff to a 'counsellor' instead of doing what God has called us to do and that is to help carry one another's burdens. Counsellors only care about getting paid, and I haven't found any counsellor who is anywhere near as good as my old friends in a missions agency who actually point everything back to God.

Why is it that we as christians pretend the world to be one way when we're really lying to ourselves? Why can't we be real, and honest with where we're at? Why is it that my christian roommate compromises all the time and watches unhealthy movies and plays unhealthy video games? Why do so many Christians look like the world? Why is there no integrity in the body of Christ anymore? Why is it that I can get more love and support from non-christians than I do from Christians, especially on hard issues?

it's almost like looking into a mirror
I can relate to a lot of what you have said

regards to your mother: I guess the best advice I can give to you is to feast on the word of god. Realize that he died for you. Visualize if you have to Christ dying on the cross to save you. He loves you. Realize this and nothing negative that your mother or anyone says will matter. It doesn't stand a chance against the love of god. Besides, he sees your endurance and how you kept your faith. even by coming here and talking about it you are concerned about your faith slipping.

regards to your ex-wife: you-are-better-off

regards to your job: i am not sure which country you are speaking of. is it the US? Pray and ask god how he may use you in the meantime. Perhaps you can counsel people who are going through the same pain and you could be the christian friend they need. Giving back like that even in the midst of tribulations works wonders. See if you can get the small paying job back or something else in the meantime to at least live on. 400$ a month may seem real lousy but for some people thats 400 they'll never see.

regards to christians: oh man do I ever relate. It does seem more comfortable to be with non christians because they are not accountable for the things they do. Which makes it seem like they are more inclined to care about you. It is not wrong to have non christian friends (even jesus had some) but when you need the spiritual connection it would help to have some christian fellowship. I say trust in Jesus first. Maybe some day down the line he will bring a believer into your life. I really would not know what else to tell you about that since I have been a victim of dodgy christians myself.

Praying for you
and here if you need me
(truthfully)

 

[vpbrett]

Can you handle a little tough love?
I defer belief of anything you say, because I'm not getting a chance to hear what your friends and family say. You sound like you've got a bad case of personality disorder along with an unhealthy tendancy to shift the blame for your own faults onto the shoulders of anyone with the misfortune to get close to you. There's no way you can be completely faultless in the break-up of so many relationships. The fact that your old job doesn't want you back should tell you something if you're only willing to listen to it. I know I wouldn't want to rehire someone with such a negative attitude.
Is that devoid enough of cliches and platituces for you?
Maybe you're the one needs to learn to forgive.
Victor