- Sep 19, 2022
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Hey everyone!
It has been a little while since I last posted on here. I recently went through one of the most horrific trials of my life - my wife separated from me, and we were debating a divorce. I was on my knees almost every day praying for guidance and comfort. Thankfully, my wife and I are back together working through things, and she is pregnant! We are expecting a baby boy this next March. I won't go into further detail regarding all of that, but something has been on my mind bothering me...
This entire situation flipped my life so much that I almost "crave" God. There seems to be this lingering thought of "Death" though. It always bothered me how much some Christians are "excited" to die and go to the most beautiful heaven. But is it wrong to NOT WANT to die? I am only 28 years old and feel like my life has just started! Now with a little boy on the way, it's made me contemplate certain values. The thought of, "because I am alive, means I will die" scares me deeply.
Is this a normal feeling or thought? I feel like I have so many questions and even question myself - why do some people accept and flock to the faith without thinking and others, like me, question things so much it almost hinders my relationship with God?
It has been a little while since I last posted on here. I recently went through one of the most horrific trials of my life - my wife separated from me, and we were debating a divorce. I was on my knees almost every day praying for guidance and comfort. Thankfully, my wife and I are back together working through things, and she is pregnant! We are expecting a baby boy this next March. I won't go into further detail regarding all of that, but something has been on my mind bothering me...
This entire situation flipped my life so much that I almost "crave" God. There seems to be this lingering thought of "Death" though. It always bothered me how much some Christians are "excited" to die and go to the most beautiful heaven. But is it wrong to NOT WANT to die? I am only 28 years old and feel like my life has just started! Now with a little boy on the way, it's made me contemplate certain values. The thought of, "because I am alive, means I will die" scares me deeply.
Is this a normal feeling or thought? I feel like I have so many questions and even question myself - why do some people accept and flock to the faith without thinking and others, like me, question things so much it almost hinders my relationship with God?