*Cries*
The biggest mistake I've ever made in my life was pursuing a friendship with a guy I had a bit of a crush on. Since that innocent "oh he's kinda cute" I've developed a close friendship with him, and getting to know him better and spending more time with him, I'm in love with him. And it hurts so much. Because he's so close, yet untouchable. And yes, I've been blessed with a great friendship, but I've taken on the burden, when the time comes, of seeing him date other girls, get into serious relationships... Last time he had a girlfriend I couldn't be in the same room with the two of them. And when I give him a lift somewhere, when I buy him dinner because he's out of cash, when I get him the exact right gift that I've been trying to come up with for weeks- I live for those moments, for his gratitude, and I hope against hope that he would wonder what he'd ever do without me...
I'm absolutely hopeless, I know!! But I guess I just wanted to add my point on the whole 'having a crush on a friend thing'. I've gotta pray that when this is over, I never go there again....
Crushes on strangers, or people you hardly know, is funner. Then it's the little things, like catching their eye at church, or saying hi to them, that gives you butterflies....