I am a Christian Antinatalist. I do not want to be married for several reasons but one is that I do not want to have children. I feel that the world is not a safe place and I do not want to bring children into the world. I think children are beautiful but because of what I have experienced in life it shows me that life is not a safe place and not compassionate. I feel peace knowing my children will never hurt, because they will never be born. I have experienced alot of pain in my life and I don't feel life is good. I long for heaven and I long for being safe and healed in God's heaven. Antinatlism is just the philosophy that it is better not to have children because life is unsafe. Has anyone decided not to have children for similar reasons? What are your opinions of Christian Antinatalism?
I think you should do whatever you want, with regards to marrying or not marrying, or not having children. The New Testament never says anything one way or the other, except to avoid sexual immorality. So, if you are celibate, then be celibate.
Just so you know, it is very easy to not have children, even if you are married. There are new birth control methods that are 100% and they last for decades. So, I hope you will not connect marriage to some kind of resulting necessity to have children. Of course, you would need to tell any potential spouse of your decision not to have children. That is only fair.
However, I do question your motives. The world has always been unsafe. In fact, we are probably safer in the West than at any time in history. Yet, people have always had children. If that is your only motive, I would search a bit deeper.
You also say that "my children will never hurt." Well, you don't have any children. There is no such thing as a theoretical child. Either you have children, and you love and protect them, or you don't have children, so please don't speculate the not-children are better off.
You speak about being hurt in life and longing for heaven. While longing for heaven is not a bad thing, God told us to choose life.
"This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live" Deut. 30:19
I'm sorry you have been suffering, because of what has been done to you, and I would urge you to get some pastoral help. I hear strains of serious depression in the background. There is help for that.
And I was just talking with someone today about this whole issue of forgiving people who have wronged us, and how hard it is. And that sometimes it does not happen over night. I hope you have made peace with these people. You should never allow yourself to be abused again by these people. I think you need to be safe! But, God tells us in so many places that we need to forgive others, as he forgives us. The Lord's Prayer in Matt 6:12 says this, and so does this verse.
"Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother or sister has something against you, leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to them; then come and offer your gift."Matt 5:23-24
That is one of the "hard" sayings of Jesus. So, this is something you really need to pray about, and ask God to help you. If you are bitter, it will continue to hurt you more and more. And God can help you! It may take 30 years or more (as it did for me!) but God helped me totally reconcile with a parent who abused me. So, never give up asking God to help you forgive.
My concern, again, is not about whether you have children or not. That is totally your choice. But, I hear hurt and bitterness, so I would like to pray.
"Heavenly Father, help Bluerose seek healing for the damage that has hurt her. Show her how to forgive people who have made her life miserable and not worth living. Touch her, give her a new peace, and reasons to live. I pray that each day, she would seek you, keeping the record of wrongs short. Thank you for your mercy and grace, in Jesus name I pray, Amen."