joyinhim said:
This is also for holo
Sometimes I get the feeling you see me as some kind of guy who doesn't care about right or wrong or doesn't take Jesus very seriously. I don't know why, or what I've said, that apparently makes you assume I sin a lot or whatever. And maybe I'm simply wrong about you.
But anyway.
If I do something wrong, I am forgiven.
If I do something right, it's in His power.
If I have some good quality, it's from Him.
I bow to Him because He's greater than me.
I worship Him because I've seen some of his holiness.
I turn to Him because He's wiser than me.
I reach for His love because, in myself, I'm unable to love and forgive people like I should.
I love Him because He loved me first.
Anything at all that might be good about me, is his work. Even my will to do good comes from him.
God
hasn't judged me, and therefore you
can't. And even if some should have the audicity to to that, there's no reason in the world for me to accept that judgment.
I walk in grace and grace only. I need it every day, and I need it just as much now as when I first turned to Jesus. It's not a matter of repentance and "stopping sinning," it's about walking in grace. Practicing grace.
No, that does not mean everything is ok (but I have found out that a lot of "sins" are nothing but human commandments and norms), but it means I'm free, righteous, clean, holy 24/7.
You seem to have made assumptions about me, and that's ok. It's the internet and all. But if you'll allow me to make a few assumptions about you and your way of thinking, it seems to me that you grade people by how much or little they sin, and their love for Jesus by zeal to live by commandments.
I've been a drug addicted, anxiety-ridden messed up hopeless piece of dirt, bound by hate and fear. Christianity never saved me. Commandments never helped me. Jesus did. Law only condemned me, and I'm afraid it can never do anything but that to anyone. People will sit in their churches, where they very well know harlots and junkies dare not come in, and they'll point their fingers at me and my beer and tell me I live in sin because I'm out on the street or having a spontaneous service in the middle of the night with a drunken gypsy and high speed freak.
People treat christianity as a religion, with all it's rules and norms, and the bible as some sort of code we have to dechipher (except, it's blissfully clear what it says to everybody, as we can see all the time on this board where it's frequently used to "win" arguments).
Nah. I shun christianity. I want Jesus. I want to know him better. I want to treat him like a person.
I don't analyze my friends. I don't need to study in cell groups to figure out what another friend likes. I don't struggle to live up to my friends' expectations. They expect me to be me, and they love me because I am me.
And Jesus loves us even more.
Let us not reduce our walk with Jesus to observing commandments or repenting in the correct way. There's no life in that.
Yes, I stumble and fall. I always did. But you know what? Now it's because I'm walking, not because I fall asleep in the chair.
(sorry for the rant, I'm in a hurry and all)
(oh, and no offence meant to anyone)