OTOH, there are those who feel the need to tell me I was never a Christian. Why? I know I am not one now. So what I was then really has little bearing on anything. So why tell this "misguided soul?" To feel better about oneself? To re-convert me?
For me, merely as a lament.
I question the sincerity of the "re-convert" position. To call my previous life a lie isn't going to warm the cockles of my heart. To say I mislabeled myself implies self delusion. That ain't gonna help either. It suggests that I didn't know what it meant to be a Christian. It suggests that I didn't mean it when I asked Jesus into my heart. It suggests, ironically, that grace doesn't work--that Christ would take my ill-spoken but sincere words and make them good. But rather if the formula isn't right, God will blow you off. (This is no god worthy of worship.)
I also grew up in a family of Christian parents, and I got baptised when I was 14. I was well versed in my arguments too, attended church regularly, and started serving.
But now I don't call that life Christian. I can only call my current life Christian. The difference in me and my understanding is obvious.
Yes, I call "previous life" a lie, but not your previous life--I mean mine. My previous religion life was not my Christian life.
I call "mislabelling" a self-delusion, but not in labelling your life, but mine. In self-delusion I mislabelled my previous religious life as "Christian".
I suggest "didn't know Christianity", not to you, but to myself. I really didn't know what Christianity was, even though I was, as you had been, in church circles.
I meant it when I asked Jesus into my life, but it didn't mean he responded instantly.
It doesn't suggest grace doesn't work, rather there is a timetable for grace to work. I felt that fully, as God waited a full 8 years between my baptism and my true convesion.
If I am lost--if there is a god to be lost from--then convince me. Teach me the truth. Extol the logic or mysticism or whatever it is that gets you thru the night. But don't denigrate what took up 44 years of my 46. Don't call me a liar. I know what I believed (fully nicene). I know that I really believed it.
I know you did, Tinker. I really do. The problem for me was, I knew I did too, when in fact I didn't.
If I wasn't a Christian, no one is. If I was deceived, so might you be. If I lost my salvation, then look to yours.
I, too, used to think that if I wasn't a Christian, no one is. But I admit that I have been deceived all my life, and never understood or experienced salvation. But no longer. Now my heart yearns to extol my Lord my God.