Hello everyone, I am so glad to have found this forum.
This is going to be a long post, please bear with me and hear me out. It takes me a lot of courage to be completely honest and write it all down. I’ve never done this before.
I have been having pretty bad anxiety ever since I can remember. Even as a kid. Usually only when I‘m alone in the late afternoon and at night time.
I do remember (now after years of reflecting) how it all started and I just wanna give you a quick insight.
Growing up I wasn’t allowed to watch much TV so whenever I was at someone else’s place (family members, friends) I took my chance and watched all the TV. This led to me unknowingly watching stuff, kids shouldn’t.
Talk shows about people claiming their house and or themselves were haunted by evil spirits. TV shows about ghosts, spirits etc etc.
And yep, that’s how it all started. Ever since I‘ve developed an extreme fear/panic/phobia of the paranormal.
For a while (late teenager years, after I was in therapy for general anxiety) i was mostly fine. I could even watch scary movies and be totally ok.
Until I met my now husband (he’s american, i‘m from europe).
I got in contact with all those haunted TV shows on US television and let me tell you I‘m a mess.
We got married and I moved to the US. My husband is in the military and gone a lot and my anxiety has just gotten worse over the years. I am 30 years old now and we have a 2 y/o daughter. I‘m terrified to move (we have to move next year) because i‘m scared to move into a house that’s haunted. I‘m terrified to give these crazy bad anxieties to my child. I‘m afraid of putting her in her own room and her being scared of something at night (bc toddlers and their imagination) and then not being able to soothe her bc i‘d be terrified myself.
My anxiety is so bad at this point, I even consider moving back to europe.
I’ve never had any „paranormal experiences“. Just very very very bad anxiety about it.
We are Christians. I’ve never told anyone at church about this bc i am so so deeply embarrassed. I loved our church family. Unfortunately our church closed down a while ago and we haven’t found a new one yet. i‘m having a hard time opening up to people and can’t imagine doing so soon.
I don’t know what to do. My fears about ghosts, evil spirits are so bad i can’t handle it anymore.
Thank you for reading all this!
This is going to be a long post, please bear with me and hear me out. It takes me a lot of courage to be completely honest and write it all down. I’ve never done this before.
I have been having pretty bad anxiety ever since I can remember. Even as a kid. Usually only when I‘m alone in the late afternoon and at night time.
I do remember (now after years of reflecting) how it all started and I just wanna give you a quick insight.
Growing up I wasn’t allowed to watch much TV so whenever I was at someone else’s place (family members, friends) I took my chance and watched all the TV. This led to me unknowingly watching stuff, kids shouldn’t.
Talk shows about people claiming their house and or themselves were haunted by evil spirits. TV shows about ghosts, spirits etc etc.
And yep, that’s how it all started. Ever since I‘ve developed an extreme fear/panic/phobia of the paranormal.
For a while (late teenager years, after I was in therapy for general anxiety) i was mostly fine. I could even watch scary movies and be totally ok.
Until I met my now husband (he’s american, i‘m from europe).
I got in contact with all those haunted TV shows on US television and let me tell you I‘m a mess.
We got married and I moved to the US. My husband is in the military and gone a lot and my anxiety has just gotten worse over the years. I am 30 years old now and we have a 2 y/o daughter. I‘m terrified to move (we have to move next year) because i‘m scared to move into a house that’s haunted. I‘m terrified to give these crazy bad anxieties to my child. I‘m afraid of putting her in her own room and her being scared of something at night (bc toddlers and their imagination) and then not being able to soothe her bc i‘d be terrified myself.
My anxiety is so bad at this point, I even consider moving back to europe.
I’ve never had any „paranormal experiences“. Just very very very bad anxiety about it.
We are Christians. I’ve never told anyone at church about this bc i am so so deeply embarrassed. I loved our church family. Unfortunately our church closed down a while ago and we haven’t found a new one yet. i‘m having a hard time opening up to people and can’t imagine doing so soon.
I don’t know what to do. My fears about ghosts, evil spirits are so bad i can’t handle it anymore.
Thank you for reading all this!