As long as we are trapped inside our imperfect minds, we cannot know truth. Only when we are open to another viewpoint will we find the truth.
I was raised in a wonderulf family. Music reigned supreme in our family. There was all kinds of music, classical, jazz, rock, literature and fine arts. People from other cultures came over all the time. we discussed religion, philosphy, politics, history and music far into the night. People would literally come for dinner and stay 2 years. We counted 34 people who eventually lived at our house. Many people told us our family was just like the movie "You can't take it with you," and igt was written up in our town magazine as "a wonderful place to be."
I never went to church and neither did anyone else. My mother dabbled in Hinduism and so did I. I also studied Buddhism, Taoism, much psychology and almost no Christianity. None of these religions gave me the unconditional love that all of us are looking for from birth. They were nice ideas but didn't go anywhere. I certainly couldn't inherit eternal life from any of them. When i got older, my life began to fall apart. My mother got sick, my father died and my husband was having an affair. Everything that i had previously counted on was gone. It was then that i realized that none of us can count on anything in the world. A friend approached me about Christianity and i rebuffed her just like most people on this forum are rebuffing me. I hated her for it and i didn't want her God. I thought I had all the answers because I had studied so much. After I got divorced, i met another man who became abusive. He threatened to kill me many times. I was pregnant, depressed and broke. I still thought I had all the answers even thought they weren't doing me any good. Nevertheless, i was taught to rely on myself and there was no God. Finally when my life was at stake, I ran into my bedroom and locked my door. I had no more answers. I fell sobbing on my bed and begged a God i didn't know to help me. I felt as if someone had touched my back and said "everything will be ok. I felt heat rush from my neck to my toes. When i opened my eyes, the sun streamed in from the window. I sat up and the room was filled with light. I said, "no, you're not real. You're just a theology that someone picks like a political party. The thought tha came to me was "Come to me and i will give you rest." I knew instantly who he was. I went from being a stuanch atheist to a believer within 3 minutes. I ran out and bought the bible and God has NEVER let me down since. I now have money, a wonderful believing husband and everything i have ever wanted. Only when I admitted i had no answers was i then open to the truth. I had come to the end of myself. That is where we will find God. Not through our own answers.
