Almost 4 years and I still can't let go

[honeyny22]

In July of 2007, I lost my son, I was 4 months pregnant. For the next two years, I was in a deep depression that I believe was a direct result of this and now almost 4 years after, I still can't move on. I am almost scared to get pregnant again, I'm scared I'm going to lose another child.

 

[aviolet]

did you ever see a counselor who specialized in grief therapy, or more specifically baby loss? because sometimes we hold things in which can prolong the healing process. not having anyone who understands (those closest to us sometimes are the hardest to confide in) can be difficult when you feel you need to remember your little one openly. I'm so sorry for your loss, and I hope you don't let the fear of losing another keep you from trying again, if it's meant to be it will be

 

[Just4Jesus]

In July of 2007, I lost my son, I was 4 months pregnant. For the next two years, I was in a deep depression that I believe was a direct result of this and now almost 4 years after, I still can't move on. I am almost scared to get pregnant again, I'm scared I'm going to lose another child.

 

[mdancin4theLord]

I know this is August and you wrote back in May but would still like to address your feelings.

First of all I don't understand how your feeling because this never happened to me. I can only imagine how devestated I would be. But we as Christians have the Holy Spirit in us. Praise God. It's at these times when we just give everything to Him...because we don't understand the whys. As hard as it is, we should thank God for EVERYTHING even trials like this. His ways are perfect. He wanted your little one, why? We don't know. He probably wanted him for something better than we can ever imagine. My mother lost my brother after he was born at nine months. My grandpa was the doctor who delievered him. His little lungs collapsed (this was over fifty years ago) and she had a hard time dealing with that so did grandpa.... until a friend came to visit her in the hospital. That friend had just lost her three year old in a horrific accident. They were moving and she thought her son was out of the way of the moving van. He was not and it crushed him backing out of the driveway. She picked him up ran into his nursery and locked the door. They could not get her out and she was in there for hours.
She did go on to have six other children. My mother went on to have me....and my two sisters. Think of what God wants for you......has in store for you.
You have to give it to God and then go on with your life. You will see your little son when you die....Praise God for that. God gave you this life to worship him and to be part of a community that loves HIM. He NEVER meant that we would not have heartbreak or tragedy in our lives...He never meant for us to do this Christian walk alone. Rest in him...and praise him for what He has given you.
There are groups that you can go too that could help you heal...and talk to other women who have shared heartbreak like you have.
I had an abortion over thirty five years ago and it about destroyed my life. God forgave me and I went on.........I pray you do too. Just don't keep things bottled up inside...pray pray pray.....and worship God give Him the glory He deserves.

God Bless you