OJ - I've tried to access your homepage, to read what you wrote, but it won't come up. It tells me that it can't "link" your page. I will keep trying. But, for now, your last post helps alot. I think you are intelligent, articulate, and sincere. And I don't think you are some "loon". I am concerned for you because you give us information that gives us more clues as to why you think the way you do. It always helps to have an understanding of the other person.
Let me ask you a question. If someone you loved began showing signs of sadness, deep loneliness, crying all the time, and a great lack of interest in anything, what would you think? What would you tell them to do? Because you loved them, you would be concerned because you would know that something was wrong. Maybe you don't exactly what, but maybe you do. Do they sound depressed? Could it get worse? Maybe seeing a doctor would help, and medication could help them function in their regular way. I've know people with depression, and medication is not just helpful - it's the difference between life and death sometimes.
If you met someone and they were deep into the occult, would you talk with them about your Savior? Would you try to show them that their thinking was off base? You wouldn't think they were a loon just because they didn't think like you, but because you love the Lord, you would try and help them.
And that's how we feel about you. We want to help you, just as you would do for us, if you felt we were off base. I have some questions, and am not trying to get off track. But since I have not yet been able to read your homepage, I think it would help immensely to understand where you are coming from. Important questions that I would really like answers to, if you would?
1. How old were you in 1993, when you first met/trusted these alient spirits? Were you scared at first?
2. Do you live with your parents, or are you on your own - married? Kids?
3. How long were you on medication for schizophrenia? Do you take it still?
4. Do you have any pets, and what do you enjoy in your free time?
You say that you always thought you were normal, but others didn't. Maybe you are normal, and others lack your understanding? I think if we all had to wear our every thought on our shirt sleeve for everyone to see, we'd all be considered "loons". But be patient with me, OJ, and help me understand? Thanks!