You have a lot in common with a very dear friend of mine, ohjeeze.
One night, very late, Jeff called me to tell me that the aliens had come for him, but that he was scared to go this time. I asked him what he was talking about, and he said that he had had many encounters with space aliens and that this time he didn't want to go with them. "I don't have to go if I don't want to, do I?" he asked in a very frightened voice. I told him no, he didn't have to go and to tell them to go away. He did, but then told me that they went into the closet, but didn't go completely away.
I hung up and called Jeff's mother, who rushed over there to see what was going on. He was having a psychotic episode. They rushed him by ambulance to the hospital where he got on medication, and within two weeks he was very normal again, and even went back to work.
He called me trying to cover up his embarassment by saying, "Did you think I was having a psychotic episode? I was just expressing my interest in UFO's!"
I beg you, ohjeeze, if you are not just putting us on; if you really believe what is on your website, get to your local hospital emergency room today and tell the doctors what has been going on with you. You deserve treatment and a good life free of these freaky things that have been happening to you.