Oh my gosh Danny I can't breath. It's so hot. Just like that night 19 years ago. It's so hot. That room was so small. Katrina's play pen wouldn't even fit in it. And it was so hot. I had to put her on the tiny bed, and I had to share the other tiny bed with you. It was so hot, and she was so restless. It was about this time when she woke up crying. I went to her, and I took off her cloths. I walked the floor with her, singing your song.
"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.
You make me happy when skies are grey.
You'll never know dear, how much I love you.
Please don't take my sunshine away.
No please don't take my sunshine away."
She finally fell back to sleep, but she was still very hot, and very restless. I tried to lay down with her, but she was too restless. I was afraid that she was going to fall off that little bed, but she wouldn't let me next to her.So I made a pallet on the floor, and that's where I fell asleep. But then you woke up. You were so panicked. More so than I've ever seen you. All you wanted was for me to be next to you. You took me into the bathroom, and we made love.
I remember falling asleep in your arms, but somehow I must have went back to Katrina, for the next thing I remember was you giving me a kiss good bye. You had already gotten up, and gotten ready for school. You let me sleep. I got up and was about to get Katrina up, but you said no. You told me to go back to sleep. I wanted to take you to work, but you wouldn't let me. I wanted to see your surgery site, but you had already taken care of it. You left for school on your own, and I went back to sleep.
The nightmares have started Danny. Please be with me. I can't do this on my own. I can't handle tomorrow on my own. Help me get through it. Help me handle the nightmare that haunts me in the middle of the day.
I love you Danny. I love you so very much.