A poem for my Danny

[c1ners]

I was trying to hold off until tomorrow to write to you Danny, but I just couldn't do it.

I just had to come in here and tell you that I love you, and I miss you so very much.

Tomorrow is our anniversarry. It would have been number 21.

I'm sure I'll write a book tomorrow, so today I will just say that I love you my husband. Yesterday, today, tomorrow, and forever. You will always be my forever love.

 

[c1ners]

 

[c1ners]

Happy Anniversarry my Danny.
I love you.

I'll write more later once I get my work done.
Hugs and kisses to you my husband.

 

[c1ners]

My heart is sad today Danny.
I don't understand why I'm not worthy enough for my
now husband, or why I can't satisfy him no matter how hard I try.

Even though my heart was huring Friday from missing you, I still went home from work and cooked him supper. He doesn't even know it was our anniversarry. No one does. I keep it inside of me, and I don't normally show the world my pain.

Anyhow, he had been gone all work for work. He called right before I left for work and told me he'd be home shortly. So after work I rushed home to see him. Of course he wasn't home. Instead of getting upset, I just started cooking supper. He finally got home maybe half an hour before our bowling league started. Ate supper, and we left. I barely even got a hello.

Bowling went as normal. I got totally ignored. Until I do something wrong that is, then the whole bowling alley is brought aware of how stupid I am. I pulled my back out, and it hurt really bad, but no one cared. All I wanted to do was to go home and take some tylenol and go to bed, but that didn't happen. We continued to bowl, he continued to talk. Once we got home he continued to want to have his way. I never deny him Danny. But I was in pain. I could barely even breath it hurt so bad. But it didn't matter. I didn't matter.

Saturday I rested my back. Normally I'll clean house on the weekends, but I really needed a chance to heal, so I just laid around and rested. So did he. That's normal. His weekends are his weekends. He doesn't have to do anything if he doesn't want to. Anyhow, we went out to eat Saturday night with his bestfriends and his girlfriend. Dinner was nice. We had a good time. So I thought. My back was feeling better by the time we got back home.

As I came through the back door, I bent down to scratch my ktten on the top of his head, this simple act outraged him. How dare I touch the cat and then try to touch him? He told me I was disgusting, and turned his stomach.

Why Danny? Why? I don't understand. I'm not ugly, nor am I a bad person. I'm not stupid, and I'm not lazy. Why than can I do nothing to please him? I try so hard, but nothing works. Everything bad that happens is always all my fault. And people wonder why I'm always so sad.

I don't have anything anymore Danny. I don't even have my daughters. Why can't God just let me be with you? That's all I want you know. That's all I've wanted.

 

[HopeSeeker]

Praying for you. May God grant you peace and strength.
God Bless.

 

[c1ners]

Hey Danny, I really need to talk to you. I really need to talk to someone anyhow. I'm so excited right now. And nervous too.

I was just toying with an idea, and all of a sudden it's become a plan. A plan that I really like, but one that I don't know if I can pull off or not.

It'll take a miracle of God for me to come up with the money to do this. It'll take another miracle for everything to fall into place. But yet, I really think it's what God wants me to do.

I don't know Danny. I just don't know. I'm going to have to pray really really hard on this one. But it can work. And it can save not only me and Amanda, but another family as well. We could be a testimony to all the un happy women out there. We could give other people hope, and finally start raising our children in a happy atmoshpere instead of a unhappy one.

I need to get back to work Danny, and then I need to do some research. If this is going to happen I need to get on the ball, and I need to start now.

I love you my husband. I love you with all my heart and soul.

 

[c1ners]

Do you remember what happened 25 years ago today Danny? October 3, 1981 was our very first date. I remember it like it was yesterday. I remember the song that was playing when we danced. I remember how strangely wonderful it felt to be in your arms. It was this day 25 years ago that I first fell in love with you. It was on this day that I knew I would love you for the rest of my life. And I will. I will always love you Danny, and I will never forget about you.

You were my first love, and you will be my last. For one day we'll be together again. Once we are, I will never let you go.

I love Danny.
Yesterday
Today
and tomorrow.

 

[c1ners]

Ciners today is a special day if i could reach throug the screen i would hold your hand. maybe i cant but these words can. a gift from above from one whos blood runs in your daughters veins.

The Blanket
by millerrod

A blanket may not seem like much.
In a world of diamonds and such.
The message that is hid.
For a child who flows.
With a small bit of blood that is mine.
A blanket is made.
To cover and protect.
Yet as it grows old its threads fall apart.
It will cease to protect.
As it did from the start.
Its a message i hope.
Will stay deep in your heart.
There is a blanket.
That will cover all.
With threads of gold.
That never grows old.
It covers and protects.
The heart and soul.
No matter how weary.
No matter how old.
The blanket that covers.
With its threads of gold.
Is the message i give.
Now as i have had to go.
The blanket that covers.
Came with a great price.
One man gave all.
Even his life.
He hung from a cross.
To cover and protect.
An example of Love.
The blanket that covers and protects.

 

[c1ners]

Rev 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away. Amen.

 

[BeautifulWorshipper]

These poems are beautiful.

God grant you peace.

 

[c1ners]

 

[c1ners]

I love you Danny!

It's finally starting to get a little chilly out! Do you remember in New York how we would do the duck walk when it was cold? Or all the times we would play in the snow? Making snow angels, snow men and women, having snow ball fights, sledding down the hill in front of the house, snow boarding, ice skating. We had so much fun. Always.

Life sure was different with you then it is now. It used to be fun, exciting, and happy. Now it's just sad, sad and even more sad.

I miss you Danny. Sometimes when I'm all alone at night I pretend that you're here with me. Can you hear me talk to you? Can you hear me sing to you?

I remember when you'd sing to me. I always loved that. I loved it when you would make up a silly song about me, and sing it to everyone we knew. It always made me feel so special. So loved.

I wish I could feel that way again. It's been a long long time since I felt either special or loved by the man in my life. I really don't think I ever was. But it doesn't matter because I know I was loved by you. Yes, you might have spoiled me, but isn't that the way a marriage should be? The husband spoils the wife, and the wife spoils the husband. To me, that's what love is.

One day Danny. One day.

 

[c1ners]

I love you Danny!

One day I'm going to climb these stairs, and I know without a shadow of a doubt that you will be at the top waiting on me.

 

[JPPT1974]

Praying for you and your family as you
Remember Danny in thought and in prayer!

 

[c1ners]

Good morning my wonderful husband.

Can you feel it Danny?
Can you feel my love for you?
Can you feel the hug I just gave you?

Although I can no longer see you,
nor touch you,
I can feel you.

I can feel you in my heart.
I can feel your love.
I can feel your constant presence in my life.

For that I am greatful.

I love you my Danny.

I loved you yesterday.
I love you today,
and I will love you for all the tomorrows of my life.

 

[c1ners]

I'm just going to sit here for a little while okay Danny? I don't want to speak. All I want to be is be with you.

 

[c1ners]

Prayer for today

All mighty Father God
I ask that you lift my spirts today
Help me to be strong
Be with me in everything
that I do and say

And Lord......
Please give my Danny a hug for me!
And tell him that I love him
so very much! ​

 

[c1ners]

Sometimes I feel so all alone Danny.
I miss you,
and I miss our daughter.
And right now my heart is totally breaking for my baby daughter.
I only wanted to do what was right for her Danny.
I didn't want to send her away,
but it was the only way I could save her.
I don't like her being gone,
and I don't like the fact that someone else is raising my daughter.

Me, me, me.
What a pity party I'm throwing for myself.
But I'm tired of losing.
I'm tired of keeping hope, and having everything fall apart.

I'm tired of being sad Danny.
And I'm so very tired of being all alone.
Will God ever answer my prayers?
Does he even hear me?
Does he even care?

I know that he's real,
but sometimes I don't think he loves me at all.
I try to be strong.
I try to praise him through my pain,
but it never gets better.
It just never gets better.

I'm lonely Danny,
and I miss you.
But I praise God for the time we had.
I praise God for allowing me to have the short time that I did with you.
I praise God because you taught me to love.
You taught me to care.

So I'll hold up my head,
and I'll praise him for another day.
I'll praise him for the unseen.
For the things that he is doing
that I don't even know about.

I miss my daughter,
and I'm sad that she doesn't ever want to come home.

But I know that God has a part in that also.
I may have lost my daughter,
but because I sent her away,
she found herself.
I just wish I didn't have to be so lonely,
and hurt so bad in the process.


I love you Danny.
Yesterday, today, tomorrow, and for all the days of my life.
I will always love you my husband.

 

[c1ners]

I gave you your freedom Danny.
I took that promise you gave me so many years ago,
and I packed it into a suitcase.
A suitcase made just for you.

At first the suitcase was small.
Very light
Very empty.

But once I put that promise into it
that suitcase began to grow.
It grew so big that I could no longer carry it.

For in that suitcase was not only your promise,
but all the love and memories we've ever shared,
Along with the ones yet to come.

I allowed you to break your promise Danny.
I know you're spending Christmas with Jesus this year.

But Danny, would it be too selfish of me to ask for you to sit with me awhile?
Just for awhile.
Then you can go back.
I just need you right now.

Just for awhile.
Just to help wipe the tears away.

I love you Danny.

Danny's Promise right before he died:​

I love you Ciners.
I love you with all my heart.
I have to go away now,
but I will never stop loving you.
I promise I will never leave you.
I promise You will never be alone. ​

 

[llghoney]