So I'm 33 male and I'm feeling hopeless, I've been on auto destructive road for some time, I'have problems with anxiety, depression watching prn(I stopped for few years but in the middle ofthis Corona nonsense i fell again)
I resigned from my last job, four months ago, decided to drive uber for this summer and after that see what to do, I m living in a rented place, I have some money that I earned but it's going away with time.
I don't know how to cook, I'm eating a lot of ordered food.
I only had two girlfriends mainly because of my struggle with inappropriate content, and my feeling of not being good enough, so I dodn't even try. Because I always thought if I'm not happy not even close with myself how can I look for a girlfriend. First I should be decent enough man for my standards.
The irony I believe is that I'm
I guess normal looking
I'm 6.0 height in pretty good athletic shape(mostly genes, someone else with my way of life would be twenty kg fatter)
I was always great at sports...
I got pretty good result on some iq test that I solved when I was having anxiety and panic attacks problem, the doctor said I was above average.
So I guess smart enough
And I have job skills in telecomunications/electro stuff, also on PC. So I'm not on zero level
Also I lost my connection to God, I stopped praying and going to church, also wlused to go to confession every week or two but now I can't remember when I went
Usually I knew a way to get back to God, but now I'm paralyzed with anxiety, it's getting worse and worse and I don't know what to do
I resigned from my last job, four months ago, decided to drive uber for this summer and after that see what to do, I m living in a rented place, I have some money that I earned but it's going away with time.
I don't know how to cook, I'm eating a lot of ordered food.
I only had two girlfriends mainly because of my struggle with inappropriate content, and my feeling of not being good enough, so I dodn't even try. Because I always thought if I'm not happy not even close with myself how can I look for a girlfriend. First I should be decent enough man for my standards.
The irony I believe is that I'm
I guess normal looking
I'm 6.0 height in pretty good athletic shape(mostly genes, someone else with my way of life would be twenty kg fatter)
I was always great at sports...
I got pretty good result on some iq test that I solved when I was having anxiety and panic attacks problem, the doctor said I was above average.
So I guess smart enough
And I have job skills in telecomunications/electro stuff, also on PC. So I'm not on zero level
Also I lost my connection to God, I stopped praying and going to church, also wlused to go to confession every week or two but now I can't remember when I went
Usually I knew a way to get back to God, but now I'm paralyzed with anxiety, it's getting worse and worse and I don't know what to do
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