My ex and I were high school sweet hearts. We met at church actually. We broke up because we both had a lot of growing up to do but he continued to love me and I never forgot about him.
Ten years later, we reconnected and got back together. The only problem was that he had strayed from faith over the years. He claimed to believe in God but didn't believe in Jesus Christ. We're both black and he's obsessed with this idea that Jesus Christ and the Bible itself were devised to control black people and keep them enslaved.
In the year that we were back together, I tried my best to show him that he was wrong and to minister to him. I even got him to read the bible and go to church with me. But ultimately, he just wouldn't accept Jesus Christ. He even said to me: "I would do anything for you except that" (in reference to accepting Jesus Christ as his savior). In the end, I got the feeling that he may have only been reading the bible and going to church with me just to keep me around and not because he was actually thinking about converting.
Normally, it's quite clear when something or someone is bad for me. But apart from his lack of faith, he is a really great guy. He's not an alcoholic, drug addict, gambler or physical abuser. He is always willing to talk things out if ever we get into arguments. He proposed to me, wanted kids and wanted to grow old with me. He even agreed to let me raise our kids Christian. The only real issues were his faith and the fact that he wasn't financially stable.
But it was becoming glaringly obvious how being with an nonbeliever was dangerous for me. For example, he would sometimes lead me into certain ways of thinking that were completely contradictory to what I've read in the bible. He even convinced me to have premarital sex(which I feel extremely guilty about) because he said "God only cares that we're in love".
So a few days ago, I finally ended it. Did I do the right thing? Because my heart really hurts and I miss him terribly.
Ten years later, we reconnected and got back together. The only problem was that he had strayed from faith over the years. He claimed to believe in God but didn't believe in Jesus Christ. We're both black and he's obsessed with this idea that Jesus Christ and the Bible itself were devised to control black people and keep them enslaved.
In the year that we were back together, I tried my best to show him that he was wrong and to minister to him. I even got him to read the bible and go to church with me. But ultimately, he just wouldn't accept Jesus Christ. He even said to me: "I would do anything for you except that" (in reference to accepting Jesus Christ as his savior). In the end, I got the feeling that he may have only been reading the bible and going to church with me just to keep me around and not because he was actually thinking about converting.
Normally, it's quite clear when something or someone is bad for me. But apart from his lack of faith, he is a really great guy. He's not an alcoholic, drug addict, gambler or physical abuser. He is always willing to talk things out if ever we get into arguments. He proposed to me, wanted kids and wanted to grow old with me. He even agreed to let me raise our kids Christian. The only real issues were his faith and the fact that he wasn't financially stable.
But it was becoming glaringly obvious how being with an nonbeliever was dangerous for me. For example, he would sometimes lead me into certain ways of thinking that were completely contradictory to what I've read in the bible. He even convinced me to have premarital sex(which I feel extremely guilty about) because he said "God only cares that we're in love".
So a few days ago, I finally ended it. Did I do the right thing? Because my heart really hurts and I miss him terribly.
