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Some would say I was born under an unlucky star. Yes, God has laid some nice things upon my plate. But every. Single. One. Of them was then used to choke and gag me. I did everything I could for my parents, certainly more than my 2 brothers ever did, yet they told me to go away. I did everything I could for my employer, certainly more than many I worked with, yet they stabbed me in the back over and over again. God gave me skills A then set me to job Z. He gave me resources B and demands for Y. He gave me desires C and provided things X. I don’t get at all why God would put a screwdriver in my right hand, and in my left a job that requires a hammer. But He has, over and over again, for 57 years. He tells me to be generous, and by and large people tell me they don’t want it. He says at minimum we should invest our talents in the bank, but never says what to do when the bank refuses deposit. He tells us to spread His word to the people, yet I try to speak a word of it and people and situations appear out of thin air to take over. The family thinks I’m a nice guy and ‘D’ is a butt hole, yet if they walk up while D and I are talking, D gets a hug and I don’t. I’m lucky if I even get acknowledged. Anywhere. Casper the freakin ghost. That’s the worst part about it, it’s not like they’re all hostile towards me, but that’s mostly because people have to believe something exists before they can be hostile towarsd it.
I’ve hit many breaking points along the years, but 3 years ago I hit a serious one. And I turned on God. Jesus I’m fine with, He’s trying to fix things in this world, but Jehovah … As far as I’m concerned He’s responsible for it all. He puts Adam in a situation where he had no choice but to fail, then when he did God says screw this I’m outta here. I didn’t have any part in that decision, you didn’t either, but here we are paying for it. Christ had to suffer and die because Jehovah walked away. And while God says He loves us, He also spends a lot of time saying we’re all lower than dirt, scum sucking peons. If my wife said that about me, I wouldn’t believe her when she says she loves me. Jesus loves me, He interceeds on occasion. But again, they are all occasions brought about by the fact that Jehovah abandoned us. And they are the exception, not the rule.
Yes I know they’re the same entity. But I sure like One manifestation a whole lot more than the Other.
And I don’t know how I’m going to change that.
I’ve hit many breaking points along the years, but 3 years ago I hit a serious one. And I turned on God. Jesus I’m fine with, He’s trying to fix things in this world, but Jehovah … As far as I’m concerned He’s responsible for it all. He puts Adam in a situation where he had no choice but to fail, then when he did God says screw this I’m outta here. I didn’t have any part in that decision, you didn’t either, but here we are paying for it. Christ had to suffer and die because Jehovah walked away. And while God says He loves us, He also spends a lot of time saying we’re all lower than dirt, scum sucking peons. If my wife said that about me, I wouldn’t believe her when she says she loves me. Jesus loves me, He interceeds on occasion. But again, they are all occasions brought about by the fact that Jehovah abandoned us. And they are the exception, not the rule.
Yes I know they’re the same entity. But I sure like One manifestation a whole lot more than the Other.
And I don’t know how I’m going to change that.