18 yo former jw

[Tyler112]

Hello Everyone I’m Tyler. About a year and a half ago I began questioning the beliefs of JWs and I now fully understand Jesus to be my savior. However ever since truly believing in the lord of the Bible and not the watchtower, I have noticed that I constantly feel like I am letting god down. Wether it be dwelling on impure thoughts too long, or looking at a girl at school longer than I should, or even saying thing I should not. I feel that now it is harder than ever to stay pure.

I have been praying about it and I feel as if god has helped to be much more conscious of when I’m doing wrong, but I still feel as if I have the issue of still doing it and feeing horrible after, sometimes I feel totally filthy before god and have a place in hell, and other times I am filled with spirit and belief. How can I reject these evil attacks from satan?

 

[anna ~ grace]

Hello Everyone I’m Tyler. About a year and a half ago I began questioning the beliefs of JWs and I now fully understand Jesus to be my savior. However ever since truly believing in the lord of the Bible and not the watchtower, I have noticed that I constantly feel like I am letting god down. Wether it be dwelling on impure thoughts too long, or looking at a girl at school longer than I should, or even saying thing I should not. I feel that now it is harder than ever to stay pure.

I have been praying about it and I feel as if god has helped to be much more conscious of when I’m doing wrong, but I still feel as if I have the issue of still doing it and feeing horrible after, sometimes I feel totally filthy before god and have a place in hell, and other times I am filled with spirit and belief. How can I reject these evil attacks from satan?

My friend, as you begin to truly know and follow Christ, the Enemy will attack you.

Continue to pray, for strength, protection, constancy, and love of Christ. You have done something very brave, and good! God be with you, friend!

 

[Tyler112]

My friend, as you begin to truly know and follow Christ, the Enemy will attack you.

Continue to pray, for strength, protection, constancy, and love of Christ. You have done something very brave, and good! God be with you, friend!

Thankyou !

 

[anna ~ grace]

Thankyou !

You're mega welcome! It takes a lot of courage to do what you did.

Do you have a church to fellowship at?

 

[Presbyterian Continuist]

Hello Everyone I’m Tyler. About a year and a half ago I began questioning the beliefs of JWs and I now fully understand Jesus to be my savior. However ever since truly believing in the lord of the Bible and not the watchtower, I have noticed that I constantly feel like I am letting god down. Wether it be dwelling on impure thoughts too long, or looking at a girl at school longer than I should, or even saying thing I should not. I feel that now it is harder than ever to stay pure.

I have been praying about it and I feel as if god has helped to be much more conscious of when I’m doing wrong, but I still feel as if I have the issue of still doing it and feeing horrible after, sometimes I feel totally filthy before god and have a place in hell, and other times I am filled with spirit and belief. How can I reject these evil attacks from satan?

It is difficult to be "deprogrammed" for a Law-based religious system to the true gospel where it says, "By grace you are saved, through faith, not of yourself, but it is the gift of God." This means that you are saved because you are trusting in Christ who died on the cross for you and took the penalty for your sinfulness on Himself. This means that although you cannot keep the Law perfectly, you are not held guilty, nor are you subject to punishment. God is not angry with you when you strike out in some aspect of the moral law. All His anger went on Christ when He died on the cross 2000 years ago. You are going to be tempted and you are going to fail. Live with it, and use 1 John 1:9 every time you fail, even if you have to use it seventy times seven in one day!

This does not mean that you can live any way you please, but the new heart in you is making you feel the way you do. You are mourning over your own sin. This is good, because it will motivate you to do your best to live a holy life and to keep yourself under subject to what you know is right before God. We all hate it when we strike out and succumb to temptation. Paul had this difficulty and he cried out, "Who shall deliver me from the body of this death?" Then he realised what Jesus did for him on the cross, and he said, "I thank God through Jesus Christ, because the Spirit of life in Christ has set me free from the law of sin and death". It is not that we are suddenly perfect, but our imperfections are covered by the blood of Christ shed for us on the cross. It is the guilt and penalty of the law that we are set free from.

By the way, are you baptised in the Holy Spirit? If not, would you like to be?

 

[FutureAndAHope]

Hello Everyone I’m Tyler. About a year and a half ago I began questioning the beliefs of JWs and I now fully understand Jesus to be my savior. However ever since truly believing in the lord of the Bible and not the watchtower, I have noticed that I constantly feel like I am letting god down. Wether it be dwelling on impure thoughts too long, or looking at a girl at school longer than I should, or even saying thing I should not. I feel that now it is harder than ever to stay pure.

I have been praying about it and I feel as if god has helped to be much more conscious of when I’m doing wrong, but I still feel as if I have the issue of still doing it and feeing horrible after, sometimes I feel totally filthy before god and have a place in hell, and other times I am filled with spirit and belief. How can I reject these evil attacks from satan?

The bible tells us that:

Gal 5:5-6 For through the Spirit, by faith, we ourselves eagerly wait for the hope of righteousness. For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision counts for anything, but only faith working through love.

and

Mark 14:38 Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.

These verses tell us that a) we are not saved by our works, but we get more like God, grow in righteousness, as we allow the Holy Spirit to work in us, this occurs through, b) spending time in prayer and study of the word (the bible).

Why we become more righteous (like God) by spending time with God is that His Holy Spirit strengthens us. As we pray we are infused with God's strength.

Don't feel condemned, and like you need to move away from God, allow yourself to be drawn closer to Him, for in doing so you will gain the power over your sin, for we "through the Spirit, ...wait for the hope of righteousness".

 

[crossnote]

Philippians 1:6 (KJV) Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:

Welcome to God's family!

 

[Soyeong]

Hello Everyone I’m Tyler. About a year and a half ago I began questioning the beliefs of JWs and I now fully understand Jesus to be my savior. However ever since truly believing in the lord of the Bible and not the watchtower, I have noticed that I constantly feel like I am letting god down. Wether it be dwelling on impure thoughts too long, or looking at a girl at school longer than I should, or even saying thing I should not. I feel that now it is harder than ever to stay pure.

I have been praying about it and I feel as if god has helped to be much more conscious of when I’m doing wrong, but I still feel as if I have the issue of still doing it and feeing horrible after, sometimes I feel totally filthy before god and have a place in hell, and other times I am filled with spirit and belief. How can I reject these evil attacks from satan?

Hello,

In Matthew 23:23, Jesus said that faith is one of the weightier matters of the Law and in 1 John 5:3, to love God is to obey His commandments, which are not burdensome, so obedience to God has always been about expressing our faith and our love for God and has never been about trying to be good enough for anything. In Jeremiah 6:16-19, the Law is described as the good way where we will find rest for our souls. The rest comes from having faith in God to guide us, but if we focus on trying to be good enough, then we will rob our souls of the rest that it was intended to give. It's not about how good we are, but about how good God is and about trusting Him to make us more like Christ.

 

[Tyler112]

You're mega welcome! It takes a lot of courage to do what you did.

Do you have a church to fellowship at?

No unfortunately I can’t find any real churches where I live. Every thing is about feeling good and nothing about the return of Christ or any form of prophecy. Most churches here are for Money to be totally honest.

 

[(° ͡ ͜ ͡ʖ ͡ °) (ᵔᴥᵔʋ)]

Hello Everyone I’m Tyler. About a year and a half ago I began questioning the beliefs of JWs and I now fully understand Jesus to be my savior. However ever since truly believing in the lord of the Bible and not the watchtower, I have noticed that I constantly feel like I am letting god down. Wether it be dwelling on impure thoughts too long, or looking at a girl at school longer than I should, or even saying thing I should not. I feel that now it is harder than ever to stay pure.

I have been praying about it and I feel as if god has helped to be much more conscious of when I’m doing wrong, but I still feel as if I have the issue of still doing it and feeing horrible after, sometimes I feel totally filthy before god and have a place in hell, and other times I am filled with spirit and belief. How can I reject these evil attacks from satan?

God is omniscient. He knew and all the sins and impure thoughts you were ever going to make before He created you. But He created you anyway because He loves you. God cannot be disappointed because the definition of disappointment is the difference between expectation and reality. God does not expect, He knows. And when you fail, God knows you were going to fail. But He also knows that you will fail twenty more times before you get it. But you are one failure closer to being where God wants you to be.The Holy Spirit will convict you of your sin to let you know what you are doing is wrong. But it is never degrading. It is encouraging, like a heart to heart talk with a loving father. That voice that you are hearing, the one that is telling you that you "have a place in hell", that is not from God. The road of sanctification and holiness is a tough one, but we all must walk it.

 

[Tyler112]

It is difficult to be "deprogrammed" for a Law-based religious system to the true gospel where it says, "By grace you are saved, through faith, not of yourself, but it is the gift of God." This means that you are saved because you are trusting in Christ who died on the cross for you and took the penalty for your sinfulness on Himself. This means that although you cannot keep the Law perfectly, you are not held guilty, nor are you subject to punishment. God is not angry with you when you strike out in some aspect of the moral law. All His anger went on Christ when He died on the cross 2000 years ago. You are going to be tempted and you are going to fail. Live with it, and use 1 John 1:9 every time you fail, even if you have to use it seventy times seven in one day!

This does not mean that you can live any way you please, but the new heart in you is making you feel the way you do. You are mourning over your own sin. This is good, because it will motivate you to do your best to live a holy life and to keep yourself under subject to what you know is right before God. We all hate it when we strike out and succumb to temptation. Paul had this difficulty and he cried out, "Who shall deliver me from the body of this death?" Then he realised what Jesus did for him on the cross, and he said, "I thank God through Jesus Christ, because the Spirit of life in Christ has set me free from the law of sin and death". It is not that we are suddenly perfect, but our imperfections are covered by the blood of Christ shed for us on the cross. It is the guilt and penalty of the law that we are set free from.

By the way, are you baptised in the Holy Spirit? If not, would you like to be?

Thank you and yes I would love to be baptized . It really took me a long time to break free from that organization, but the worst part is the ones in my familt are in the cult will not listen to anything I have to say. I’ve been trying for months to talk about it. I’ve tried being subtle to plant seeds, I’ve tried open debate. It all ends the same, all I can do is pray for them

 

[Presbyterian Continuist]

Thank you and yes I would love to be baptized . It really took me a long time to break free from that organization, but the worst part is the ones in my family are in the cult will not listen to anything I have to say. I’ve been trying for months to talk about it. I’ve tried being subtle to plant seeds, I’ve tried open debate. It all ends the same, all I can do is pray for them

1. Believe it is God's will for you. Guidance: "Be filled with the Spirit, singing to yourself in psalms, hymns and spiritual songs.
2. Ask God for it.
3. Receive it by faith
And it you have it, because if you ask God for something, He will not give you something else.

 

[Tyler112]

The bible tells us that:

Gal 5:5-6 For through the Spirit, by faith, we ourselves eagerly wait for the hope of righteousness. For in Christ Jesus neither circumcision nor uncircumcision counts for anything, but only faith working through love.

and

Mark 14:38 Watch and pray that you may not enter into temptation. The spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak.

These verses tell us that a) we are not saved by our works, but we get more like God, grow in righteousness, as we allow the Holy Spirit to work in us, this occurs through, b) spending time in prayer and study of the word (the bible).

Why we become more righteous (like God) by spending time with God is that His Holy Spirit strengthens us. As we pray we are infused with God's strength.

Don't feel condemned, and like you need to move away from God, allow yourself to be drawn closer to Him, for in doing so you will gain the power over your sin, for we "through the Spirit, ...wait for the hope of righteousness".

Thank you! The sad part is is that a lot of the verses from mark are removed from the JW bible along with hundreds of others and I recently had to get a KJV bible and it has been eye opening

 

[Monk Brendan]

Hello Everyone I’m Tyler. About a year and a half ago I began questioning the beliefs of JWs and I now fully understand Jesus to be my savior. However ever since truly believing in the lord of the Bible and not the watchtower, I have noticed that I constantly feel like I am letting god down. Wether it be dwelling on impure thoughts too long, or looking at a girl at school longer than I should, or even saying thing I should not. I feel that now it is harder than ever to stay pure.

I have been praying about it and I feel as if god has helped to be much more conscious of when I’m doing wrong, but I still feel as if I have the issue of still doing it and feeing horrible after, sometimes I feel totally filthy before god and have a place in hell, and other times I am filled with spirit and belief. How can I reject these evil attacks from satan?

You can't let God down because you can't surprise Him.

 

[Tyler112]

1. Believe it is God's will for you. Guidance: "Be filled with the Spirit, singing to yourself in psalms, hymns and spiritual songs.
2. Ask God for it.
3. Receive it by faith
And it you have it, because if you ask God for something, He will not give you something else.

Do you know any good groups? Of encouraging music that glorifies god. Ever since becoming a acutual Christian I’ve began to realize how so many of my favorite songs had demonic lyrics and I was never able to see that

 

[Jeshu]

When you begin to live by grace instead of works then at first the accuser in your guilty conscience fires you with your sins ad short comings. The more you try to have faith in God's grace the more the accuser tries to make you focus on your sins so that you don't look at Christ and the devil can get you to do more sin yet.

The best way to deal with this is to thank Jesus for grace each time the accuser brings up your sins or short comings and pray for renewal. Honest satan hates it when you do that.

In the mean time God's grace will fill your heart to thankful overflowing. See you see how sinful you are but you also see how good God is washing those sins away with Christ's blood. This will instil more love for Jesus in your heart. Now love for Jesus doesn't seek to sin but seeks to be redeemed from it.

So resist the accuser in your guilty conscience, know that you will remain a sinner but God can deliver you from sin - time and again - and that is what it is about - Jesus saving your life day by day.

So happy to hear you found Jesus to help you with this. Jesus s an awesome saviour ho comes and lives in our hearts when we do God's will. The Living Word that is who Jesus is within your heart, He is an awesome Saviour be of very good courage.

 

[Tyler112]

When you begin to live by grace instead of works then at first the accuser in your guilty conscience fires you with your sins ad short comings. The more you try to have faith in God's grace the more the accuser tries to make you focus on your sins so that you don't look at Christ and the devil can get you to do more sin yet.

The best way to deal with this is to thank Jesus for grace each time the accuser brings up your sins or short comings and pray for renewal. Honest satan hates it when you do that.

In the mean time God's grace will fill your heart to thankful overflowing. See you see how sinful you are but you also see how good God is washing those sins away with Christ's blood. This will instil more love for Jesus in your heart. Now love for Jesus doesn't seek to sin but seeks to be redeemed from it.

So resist the accuser in your guilty conscience, know that you will remain a sinner but God can deliver you from sin - time and again - and that is what it is about - Jesus saving your life day by day.

So happy to hear you found Jesus to help you with this. Jesus s an awesome saviour ho comes and lives in our hearts when we do God's will. The Living Word that is who Jesus is within your heart, He is an awesome Saviour be of very good courage.

Thank you brother. I can say that ever since turning from jw, I finally understand what spiritual attack is. I have never felt convicted when I would think lustfull thoughts or look at inappropriate contentography. On the day that I received Christ it is the first thing I noticed

 

[Jeshu]

Thank you brother. I can say that ever since turning from jw, I finally understand what spiritual attack is. I have never felt convicted when I would think lustfull thoughts or look at inappropriate contentography. On the day that I received Christ it is the first thing I noticed

Yes the love for God teaches us about right and wrong. That is a really good process. As long as we let The holy Spirit speak through the word and not world taught values or morality. This is why satan tries to push a loving gracious God out of the way and demand you adhere to rules again and keep yourself pure of sin in your own ability.

However if you focus on sin then sin will get worse, if on the other hand you let your sins drive you to Christ then He will redeem you from them and sanctify you on your way.

That is how faith in Jesus Christ works.

 

[Apologetic_Warrior]

Hello Everyone I’m Tyler. About a year and a half ago I began questioning the beliefs of JWs and I now fully understand Jesus to be my savior. However ever since truly believing in the lord of the Bible and not the watchtower, I have noticed that I constantly feel like I am letting god down. Wether it be dwelling on impure thoughts too long, or looking at a girl at school longer than I should, or even saying thing I should not. I feel that now it is harder than ever to stay pure.

I have been praying about it and I feel as if god has helped to be much more conscious of when I’m doing wrong, but I still feel as if I have the issue of still doing it and feeing horrible after, sometimes I feel totally filthy before god and have a place in hell, and other times I am filled with spirit and belief. How can I reject these evil attacks from satan?

Read Scripture, memorize Scripture, meditate on Scripture, pray, pray, all in faith and not by sight. I believe there is a time and place in walking in the Spirit to mentally, verbally, rebuke satan. What really irritates the enemy, is reminding him that JESUS IS LORD. Put on the whole armor of God, resist the devil, and he will flee. Exercise Spiritual freedom, focus more on God and less on yourself. Aim to be more Christ centered in your thinking and the things of this world will grow strangely dim. Most of all try not to beat yourself up spiritually, it is by grace we saved through faith and not of ourselves. Christ is all of our righteousness, we cannot add to or take away from the works of Christ. Pray and trust in God to deliver you. God bless you Tyler for sharing your testimony, I have known many JW's throughout my life and know not of one who turned away from the watchtower. Many times my heart has been heavy for them, full of grief and sorrow, because most of them are some of the finest people one could meet, so far as people are concerned, but everything is not as it appears, quite often it is the case I've learned.

 

[Tyler112]

Read Scripture, memorize Scripture, meditate on Scripture, pray, pray, all in faith and not by sight. I believe there is a time and place in walking in the Spirit to mentally, verbally, rebuke satan. What really irritates the enemy, is reminding him that JESUS IS LORD. Put on the whole armor of God, resist the devil, and he will flee. Exercise Spiritual freedom, focus more on God and less on yourself. Aim to be more Christ centered in your thinking and the things of this world will grow strangely dim. Most of all try not to beat yourself up spiritually, it is by grace we saved through faith and not of ourselves. Christ is all of our righteousness, we cannot add to or take away from the works of Christ. Pray and trust in God to deliver you. God bless you Tyler for sharing your testimony, I have known many JW's throughout my life and know not of one who turned away from the watchtower. Many times my heart has been heavy for them, full of grief and sorrow, because most of them are some of the finest people one could meet, so far as people are concerned, but everything is not as it appears, quite often it is the case I've learned.

Thank you I will definitely try being in the spirit more. But I totally agree the teaching of that organization are truly demonic. I pray that brothers and sisters trapped may flee