Greetings!
I have never joined a christian forum before. Interestingly I just started turning myself to god weeks ago. I think around 3 weeks ago?
Long story short, I have avoided god since I was 12 years old after my sister stopped taking me. From then, I suffered a lot, abusive friendships, fights with my mother, and the tear ups of family.
My sister and I never got along for years, until now. She tried to get me to go to the church 2 years ago, and for some reason I resisted.
As time went on, things went from bad to worse and lost my job last march from company downsizing. My depression got worse that year and I slept most of the time. (I have clinical depression.)
However, there was a small voice always preventing me from harming myself as I had a ton of sharp objects in my room. (I do a lot of crafts for my online business.)
I got another job in October and thought I was finally blessed as I started praying to god to get a job. Sadly, the moment I got a high paying job, my pride went through the roof and mysteriously I got wrongfully terminated. I was unhappy at the job anyway...but I did notice the moment I felt a tinge of pride, my job got worse and I became more drained.
After that, I was searching for jobs but no luck so I did freelance and worked on my online business. I noticed, I started getting an urgency to join a christian group. I saw one guy who I would see daily at a coffee shop...and every time I saw him, I felt compelled to ask him to join.
One day, out of nowhere, I just started watching christian videos on youtube about the gospel and that's when I started reading the Bible on my iPad. The first three days I had intense headaches from my forehead but I prayed to god to remove the pain and eventually the pain left days later as I can now read and worship god pain free!
In addition, I had a sudden idea to work on a project that dedicates to the word of god but I won't talk about it now as it's not done yet.
And here I am today! Wiser than before and more aware of the world around me. I'm glad god finally got me to join him again.
I have never joined a christian forum before. Interestingly I just started turning myself to god weeks ago. I think around 3 weeks ago?
Long story short, I have avoided god since I was 12 years old after my sister stopped taking me. From then, I suffered a lot, abusive friendships, fights with my mother, and the tear ups of family.
My sister and I never got along for years, until now. She tried to get me to go to the church 2 years ago, and for some reason I resisted.
As time went on, things went from bad to worse and lost my job last march from company downsizing. My depression got worse that year and I slept most of the time. (I have clinical depression.)
However, there was a small voice always preventing me from harming myself as I had a ton of sharp objects in my room. (I do a lot of crafts for my online business.)
I got another job in October and thought I was finally blessed as I started praying to god to get a job. Sadly, the moment I got a high paying job, my pride went through the roof and mysteriously I got wrongfully terminated. I was unhappy at the job anyway...but I did notice the moment I felt a tinge of pride, my job got worse and I became more drained.
After that, I was searching for jobs but no luck so I did freelance and worked on my online business. I noticed, I started getting an urgency to join a christian group. I saw one guy who I would see daily at a coffee shop...and every time I saw him, I felt compelled to ask him to join.
One day, out of nowhere, I just started watching christian videos on youtube about the gospel and that's when I started reading the Bible on my iPad. The first three days I had intense headaches from my forehead but I prayed to god to remove the pain and eventually the pain left days later as I can now read and worship god pain free!
In addition, I had a sudden idea to work on a project that dedicates to the word of god but I won't talk about it now as it's not done yet.
And here I am today! Wiser than before and more aware of the world around me. I'm glad god finally got me to join him again.