- Dec 18, 2017
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I have dealt with a lot of things in my life. Violent bullying, discrimination, sexism, racism, and most of all... mental illness. My father is severely mentally disabled and is almost a monster because of it. He is definitely going to hell. Not because of what I think of him, but because of the sins he has committed all his life. I have so many stories of his lunacy. I'll only tell them in PMs though because most of them are VERY disturbing and violent. However, I will tell you his ultimate sin right here. He... poisoned by genes... with his illness. I can't birth any children without the high risk of them turning out just like him!!! I'm crying already while typing this. I can't have a biological child unless I want them to suffer with demonic voices in their head... all because of my dad. I pray to God that maybe there is chance my dad's illness isn't in my blood but I know that's a lot to ask of God... I'm sorry if I sound like I'm condemning all people with this illness. I'm not trying to. I know that there are very good people out there who don't deserve to go to hell because of their disability. It's just... my dad is just too far gone to forgive. He had a choice to get help but refused the doctors and God himself. Unforgivable. Again, I apologize. If this post makes anyone mad or really upset I will delete it. I just needed to get this off my chest...