- Nov 10, 2016
- 58
- 62
- 26
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Eastern Orthodox
- Marital Status
- Private
I am currently in college and dorming. I was bullied the very first day for how I look physically, it is my genetics I have no control over how my facial shape is unless I get plastic surgery which I won't do. Other things that happened was being called a future school shooter, or terrorist because I am partially middle eastern. I have no control over my ethnicity or racial build up either. I know all of this sounds ironic and ridiculous in a college setting, but this is real and it can happen to anyone although yes I would agree it wouldn't be too common in a college environment maybe I am just unlucky this time.
I just ignored the bullies and moved on, I try to become the bigger man. But that didn't work and bullying has just gotten worse. I believe that there are false terrible rumors circulating about me behind my back, I have lost potential friends. Those who were friendly with me before, all of a sudden have such hatred towards me and will stare me down whenever they can. Out of disappointment I decided it is not worth to regain their friendship if they are that narrow minded about someone. Right now the bullying has reached a point where I cannot tolerate this at all anymore. Random people who I do not know tell me to kill myself, I get called sub-human scum, and sometimes people physically shove me whenever they see me. I am trying to figure out what it is that is making people do this, I cannot sleep at night and I'm having nightmares from these events.
Although I have joined a Church near my school, and found a couple friends it does help bring back my self confidence. I don't know how to explain to them my situation as I have already lost a friend since he believes if one is experiencing bullying then they deserve it. I can partially understand where he is coming from but that isn't true 100% of the time, sometimes the one receiving the bullying is the victim.
All I want is for this hatred to stop, when there are people wanting me dead and to attack me this is too much for me to handle.
On another note the bullying I am experiencing is strictly happening on housing, I have rarely experienced bullying in my classes.
I just ignored the bullies and moved on, I try to become the bigger man. But that didn't work and bullying has just gotten worse. I believe that there are false terrible rumors circulating about me behind my back, I have lost potential friends. Those who were friendly with me before, all of a sudden have such hatred towards me and will stare me down whenever they can. Out of disappointment I decided it is not worth to regain their friendship if they are that narrow minded about someone. Right now the bullying has reached a point where I cannot tolerate this at all anymore. Random people who I do not know tell me to kill myself, I get called sub-human scum, and sometimes people physically shove me whenever they see me. I am trying to figure out what it is that is making people do this, I cannot sleep at night and I'm having nightmares from these events.
Although I have joined a Church near my school, and found a couple friends it does help bring back my self confidence. I don't know how to explain to them my situation as I have already lost a friend since he believes if one is experiencing bullying then they deserve it. I can partially understand where he is coming from but that isn't true 100% of the time, sometimes the one receiving the bullying is the victim.
All I want is for this hatred to stop, when there are people wanting me dead and to attack me this is too much for me to handle.
On another note the bullying I am experiencing is strictly happening on housing, I have rarely experienced bullying in my classes.