Please pray for my marriage and for me to get rid of anger.
I NEED to know that the Lord doesn't approve of his words or actions toward me. He is so successful that it feels like the Lord approves of him but he's not kind to me.
My husband has been calling me names for almost all of our marriage years. Started calling me dumb when I didn't want to take cough medicine earlier than the 6 hours it said on the bottle ..and it got worse.
I tried not to respond in kind and was able the first 2 -2.5 years to refrain but now I AM SO angry I call him names back like liar and hypocrite and others. Not proud... I remain calm but when he says something that hits me emotionally inside I lose it now. I don't even want to.spend time with him cause he gets so impatient, like if I sniffle or move too much or get distracted while watching tv with him ....and intimacy is very difficult.
Please pray that I will not respond back and that my love for him will be restored.
At times I've gotten so angry that I will hit the counter or wall or bang my feet on the floor in fustration for example. When I do he becomes physically threatening by pushing me or walking up to me with his chest and pushes me back with his chest.
One time last year I threw a knife in the sink while arguing and he grabbed me by my clothing and pushed back. I had a small bruise that faded quickly and my necklace broke. He now says I threw it at him but it's not true. He says he doesn't hit me so I tell him he roughs me up a bit.
I thought things were getting better but when he's working a lot or doesn't sleep well or is not well, he's super impatient.
He remembers things wrong and doesn't remember the good, like me being super patient and crying often, not responding back, ... he would get upset for little things like the way I put the butter in the frying pan.
He got upset when I asked if I could do a load of laundry today. He was working and said I could have done it when he had taken his bath earlier this afternoon and then when we were arguing I banged the floor with my foot and he pushed me back a few times ..even now when I said he started it he accuses me of twisting things???? !!!
.yesterday he was proud of me at how kind I am to everyone ...today I am evil, hypocrite conniving etc.....
I didn't understand how others didn't pick it up. In the beginning of our marriage when this was happening I wondered why any prayer warrior of the church didn't pick up what was happening.
I know about 2 months ago I was ready to jump out of the car near the highway and go home cause I was so upset but when I arrived at church a lady said that she prayed for me that morning cause I was very much on her heart. It was nice. But no one knows how he's treated me and I would be concerned that no one would believe me.
BUT what about him!? No matter what I do he says I am lazy and sloppy and insults me and my intelligence. Says I come from a loser family.
I need supernatural help to not call him names back. I was not like this before our marriage but he said it was always there but now it was just coming out. I said that proverbs says not to be friends with an angry man etc... but he doesn't agree.
I sometimes question my salvation because I am not able all the time to just keep my mouth shut and just not respond back.
I NEED to know that the Lord doesn't approve of his words or actions toward me. He is so successful that it feels like the Lord approves of him but he's not kind to me.
My husband has been calling me names for almost all of our marriage years. Started calling me dumb when I didn't want to take cough medicine earlier than the 6 hours it said on the bottle ..and it got worse.
I tried not to respond in kind and was able the first 2 -2.5 years to refrain but now I AM SO angry I call him names back like liar and hypocrite and others. Not proud... I remain calm but when he says something that hits me emotionally inside I lose it now. I don't even want to.spend time with him cause he gets so impatient, like if I sniffle or move too much or get distracted while watching tv with him ....and intimacy is very difficult.
Please pray that I will not respond back and that my love for him will be restored.
At times I've gotten so angry that I will hit the counter or wall or bang my feet on the floor in fustration for example. When I do he becomes physically threatening by pushing me or walking up to me with his chest and pushes me back with his chest.
One time last year I threw a knife in the sink while arguing and he grabbed me by my clothing and pushed back. I had a small bruise that faded quickly and my necklace broke. He now says I threw it at him but it's not true. He says he doesn't hit me so I tell him he roughs me up a bit.
I thought things were getting better but when he's working a lot or doesn't sleep well or is not well, he's super impatient.
He remembers things wrong and doesn't remember the good, like me being super patient and crying often, not responding back, ... he would get upset for little things like the way I put the butter in the frying pan.
He got upset when I asked if I could do a load of laundry today. He was working and said I could have done it when he had taken his bath earlier this afternoon and then when we were arguing I banged the floor with my foot and he pushed me back a few times ..even now when I said he started it he accuses me of twisting things???? !!!
.yesterday he was proud of me at how kind I am to everyone ...today I am evil, hypocrite conniving etc.....
I didn't understand how others didn't pick it up. In the beginning of our marriage when this was happening I wondered why any prayer warrior of the church didn't pick up what was happening.
I know about 2 months ago I was ready to jump out of the car near the highway and go home cause I was so upset but when I arrived at church a lady said that she prayed for me that morning cause I was very much on her heart. It was nice. But no one knows how he's treated me and I would be concerned that no one would believe me.
BUT what about him!? No matter what I do he says I am lazy and sloppy and insults me and my intelligence. Says I come from a loser family.
I need supernatural help to not call him names back. I was not like this before our marriage but he said it was always there but now it was just coming out. I said that proverbs says not to be friends with an angry man etc... but he doesn't agree.
I sometimes question my salvation because I am not able all the time to just keep my mouth shut and just not respond back.
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