Feeling unwanted

[LivingforGod13]

I've just recently moved to a new state after living in Missouri for 12 years. I've been homeschooled all my life except for one semester I spent in public school (fall of 2008).
Last semester I started public school again at the high school my mom graduated from (weiiiiird). It was really hard for me because I didn't know anyone and everyone had already seperated into groups. I ended up making a lot of friends but lunch was a nightmare. Not only did I have the busy lunch, but all the tables I wanted to sit at were full. I felt bad intruding on a table that had already been established. By the end of the first 9 weeks, I was eating lunch in a bathroom stall everyday. The worst part is... When I told my friends that I was doing that no one cared or showed any concern for the situation at all.
This semester is different because I sit at a table that's almost completely empty... But my "friends" still kind of ignore me. I'm tempted to go back to eating lunch in a bathroom stall.
I walk the halls knowing that very few people know my name. Very very few people who know my name know who I am... I hate going to school and feeling like no one really cares to get to know me. They're content with the friends that they've had since kindergarten. Even those who I was close to during last semester no longer acknowledge me.

 

[HarborOrange]

I've just recently moved to a new state after living in Missouri for 12 years. I've been homeschooled all my life except for one semester I spent in public school (fall of 2008).
Last semester I started public school again at the high school my mom graduated from (weiiiiird). It was really hard for me because I didn't know anyone and everyone had already seperated into groups. I ended up making a lot of friends but lunch was a nightmare. Not only did I have the busy lunch, but all the tables I wanted to sit at were full. I felt bad intruding on a table that had already been established. By the end of the first 9 weeks, I was eating lunch in a bathroom stall everyday. The worst part is... When I told my friends that I was doing that no one cared or showed any concern for the situation at all.
This semester is different because I sit at a table that's almost completely empty... But my "friends" still kind of ignore me. I'm tempted to go back to eating lunch in a bathroom stall.
I walk the halls knowing that very few people know my name. Very very few people who know my name know who I am... I hate going to school and feeling like no one really cares to get to know me. They're content with the friends that they've had since kindergarten. Even those who I was close to during last semester no longer acknowledge me.

So basically, you're in the opposite situation that I'm in. I was like that last year, went to a rather large private school, I started freshman year, and went there until sophomore year ended. It was like a prison for me. Everyone there had gone to middle school with each other, except for me. I had moved to Colorado, where I live now, in 8th grade, and had only made one friend, who is still going to a totally different high school. He's still my closest friend, besides my little brother.
I was so alone in my old school. And I mean so so alone... I ended up just sitting at some table, wherever I could find room. Lunch was always awful because I felt so alone... I didn't resort to eating in the bathroom stall though haha, I couldn't do that... It's really sad that you're feeling that down that you eat in there, I'm not gonna lie, it's probably nice just being away from the kids though. I'd of done that, but I figured I might as well just eat alone, since I was always alone anyway.
Considering I went to a heavily indoctrinated Lutheran school, and I changed from being a Christian to a Messianic in my freshman and sophomore years, I felt even more out of place. Every once in awhile, usually once a week, I'd be called a Jew, or people'd make fun of me for it.
I'd try to talk to people, and then it'd always come out that I didn't have any friends, and they'd instinctively say "Ah, I'm your friend!" then they'd wander off down the halls, and not acknowledge my existence for the rest of the day, or week. I always had to force them to talk to me. And since I was the only kid in my school that enjoyed stuff besides sports, I didn't fit in with anyone, since it was basically a school filled with jocks.
In the presence of others, people are most alone. I mean, like you go sit in the bathroom, because you don't feel so alone there, I'd frequently sit in the back of the room, because the further I could get from people, the better I felt... So I totally know where you're coming from. This year (my Junior year.) I went back to homeschooling, I go to a school two days a week though, where I can meet people and get extracurricular activities and stuff. And it's so much better. I've met kids that like me, that are actually friends, that talk to me on their own accord, they don't just ignore me, and hardly anyone there is a poser.

If I have any advice for you, it's to stick to who you are, if people don't like you for who you are, it's their loss. Of course, I don't know you at all, but I'm assuming you're a good girl, and probably worth knowing... Don't change just to "fit in" it's only high school anyways... But, don't assume you're worthless, because you're not. G-d has an immense purpose in your life, one greater than anyone knows. We all have meaning, so you are, by no means, meaningless.
And also, what I've learned, is that the people that are seen as down and out, who are outcasts in the school... The nerds, the loners, they're usually some of the nicest people you'll ever meet.
Get to know them if you haven't already, they'll most likely appreciate some company. The people who are seen as "popular" are all just faking, and most of them will get out of high school, not knowing what to do with their lives, they'll end up being rather unsuccessful. Nerds usually progress and get more likeable and successful as time goes on. I mean, I know it seems looked down upon to talk to kids who are seen as nerds, but who cares what other people think? It's more worth it to have a good, decent, and trustworthy friend than be surrounded by people who are not themselves...

And, if things don't improve, just know that it's just high school, it's the point in life when almost everyone is their most immature, it will get better. There is nothing that is forever except for G-d himself, and what he deems to last forever. Keep your head up and just look at every day as a new day, with new opportunities, and new people to meet. If your friends aren't there for you, they aren't friends, which means there's nothing wrong with hanging out with new people, getting to know new people... Of course, this is sorta hard if you're shy. I was pretty shy, and still am, but if you build up enough strength to go talk to some people, you won't regret it.

I know I'm not the best advice-giver... But, hopefully that helped somewhat. And hey, if all else fails, look for different schools, but avoid private Christian schools. They're awful, worse than publice schools... I know this because I went to one. My friend that I mentioned earlier loves his public school, and he and I think alike, so I'd like it too. But the kids in private Chrisitian schools mostly seem to be hypocrites, and it's a bummer... But after all this time, I still think homeschooling's the way to go. If it doesn't work for you, remember, there are always other schools and options out there for you.

G-d bless, I hope everything works out for you.
Oh, and sorry for it being so long lol.

My advice to you, i

 

[singpeace]

I've just recently moved to a new state after living in Missouri for 12 years. I've been homeschooled all my life except for one semester I spent in public school (fall of 2008).
Last semester I started public school again at the high school my mom graduated from (weiiiiird). It was really hard for me because I didn't know anyone and everyone had already seperated into groups. I ended up making a lot of friends but lunch was a nightmare. Not only did I have the busy lunch, but all the tables I wanted to sit at were full. I felt bad intruding on a table that had already been established. By the end of the first 9 weeks, I was eating lunch in a bathroom stall everyday. The worst part is... When I told my friends that I was doing that no one cared or showed any concern for the situation at all.
This semester is different because I sit at a table that's almost completely empty... But my "friends" still kind of ignore me. I'm tempted to go back to eating lunch in a bathroom stall.
I walk the halls knowing that very few people know my name. Very very few people who know my name know who I am... I hate going to school and feeling like no one really cares to get to know me. They're content with the friends that they've had since kindergarten. Even those who I was close to during last semester no longer acknowledge me.

Drenched,

I'm sorry you are having to go through that. I understand just how painful and lonely it is, and I had the same experience back in the day.

The fact that you came here tells God you are a wise young woman seeking him.

Father, I am making a case at your throne of Righteousness. I call upon You on behalf of my sister, Drenched. She needs a friend that will do her no wrong. Send the perfect friend to Drenched. Protect her. Let her know you are standing near to her. In Jesus name, I pray.

 

[LivingforGod13]

So basically, you're in the opposite situation that I'm in. I was like that last year, went to a rather large private school, I started freshman year, and went there until sophomore year ended. It was like a prison for me. Everyone there had gone to middle school with each other, except for me. I had moved to Colorado, where I live now, in 8th grade, and had only made one friend, who is still going to a totally different high school. He's still my closest friend, besides my little brother.
I was so alone in my old school. And I mean so so alone... I ended up just sitting at some table, wherever I could find room. Lunch was always awful because I felt so alone... I didn't resort to eating in the bathroom stall though haha, I couldn't do that... It's really sad that you're feeling that down that you eat in there, I'm not gonna lie, it's probably nice just being away from the kids though. I'd of done that, but I figured I might as well just eat alone, since I was always alone anyway.
Considering I went to a heavily indoctrinated Lutheran school, and I changed from being a Christian to a Messianic in my freshman and sophomore years, I felt even more out of place. Every once in awhile, usually once a week, I'd be called a Jew, or people'd make fun of me for it.
I'd try to talk to people, and then it'd always come out that I didn't have any friends, and they'd instinctively say "Ah, I'm your friend!" then they'd wander off down the halls, and not acknowledge my existence for the rest of the day, or week. I always had to force them to talk to me. And since I was the only kid in my school that enjoyed stuff besides sports, I didn't fit in with anyone, since it was basically a school filled with jocks.
In the presence of others, people are most alone. I mean, like you go sit in the bathroom, because you don't feel so alone there, I'd frequently sit in the back of the room, because the further I could get from people, the better I felt... So I totally know where you're coming from. This year (my Junior year.) I went back to homeschooling, I go to a school two days a week though, where I can meet people and get extracurricular activities and stuff. And it's so much better. I've met kids that like me, that are actually friends, that talk to me on their own accord, they don't just ignore me, and hardly anyone there is a poser.

If I have any advice for you, it's to stick to who you are, if people don't like you for who you are, it's their loss. Of course, I don't know you at all, but I'm assuming you're a good girl, and probably worth knowing... Don't change just to "fit in" it's only high school anyways... But, don't assume you're worthless, because you're not. G-d has an immense purpose in your life, one greater than anyone knows. We all have meaning, so you are, by no means, meaningless.
And also, what I've learned, is that the people that are seen as down and out, who are outcasts in the school... The nerds, the loners, they're usually some of the nicest people you'll ever meet.
Get to know them if you haven't already, they'll most likely appreciate some company. The people who are seen as "popular" are all just faking, and most of them will get out of high school, not knowing what to do with their lives, they'll end up being rather unsuccessful. Nerds usually progress and get more likeable and successful as time goes on. I mean, I know it seems looked down upon to talk to kids who are seen as nerds, but who cares what other people think? It's more worth it to have a good, decent, and trustworthy friend than be surrounded by people who are not themselves...

And, if things don't improve, just know that it's just high school, it's the point in life when almost everyone is their most immature, it will get better. There is nothing that is forever except for G-d himself, and what he deems to last forever. Keep your head up and just look at every day as a new day, with new opportunities, and new people to meet. If your friends aren't there for you, they aren't friends, which means there's nothing wrong with hanging out with new people, getting to know new people... Of course, this is sorta hard if you're shy. I was pretty shy, and still am, but if you build up enough strength to go talk to some people, you won't regret it.

I know I'm not the best advice-giver... But, hopefully that helped somewhat. And hey, if all else fails, look for different schools, but avoid private Christian schools. They're awful, worse than publice schools... I know this because I went to one. My friend that I mentioned earlier loves his public school, and he and I think alike, so I'd like it too. But the kids in private Chrisitian schools mostly seem to be hypocrites, and it's a bummer... But after all this time, I still think homeschooling's the way to go. If it doesn't work for you, remember, there are always other schools and options out there for you.

G-d bless, I hope everything works out for you.
Oh, and sorry for it being so long lol.

My advice to you, i

Thanks so much for advice it really helped a lot.

 

[HarborOrange]

Lol sure thing, glad it helped a bit.

And sorry about that "My advice to you, i." thing at the very end, I don't know what that was, lol, it think I had a brainfart or something and forgot to finish typing... I dunno haha.

 

[castle]

lol brainfart

My reply Living for God is through a Rep

 

[Comatose]

I agree with the people above.

I was homeschooled until 4th grade, and kinda went through what you did only on a smaller scale. So I see what you feel. I would say just be yourself and someone will see that you are a kind decent person and say Hi! It's going to work out for you! Just trust in the Lord!

May I also recommend you listen to the song "Dear X, You Don't Own Me" it's about someone who struggles with the pain in the world. Shows you that God is there for you! Keep praying sister!

Comatose