I feel so sad 
I have just had another blazing row with Sissy and now I feel so sad and stupid.
I keep telling myself that I will NOT argue with her again, and then we have a little disagreement and she starts swearing at me, and then I just blow my top!!. If she didn't swear and cuss at me, then I'd be able to keep calm-ish, but when all of the nasty words start coming out of her mouth I just can't stop myself!!!
I am slow to anger, but even slower to calm down again afterwards. Sissy did try and say sorry just after the argument, but I was still far too angry and 'mugged her off' whatever that means, shunned her apology, I presume.
I do forgive, but it takes me time, I can't just switch off the hurt that I feel, I wish that I could.
The arguments are all about her selfishness. Her money is hers, and everyone else's money seems to be hers, too. She will buy stuff for herself, and then complains that she has no money, then she expects everyone to bail her out and she doesn't like paying the money that she borrows back!!! I don't know when she got so selfish. She will have had three holidays in the last year and we haven't had a holiday in twenty years (she's not our family, she just lives with us).
I just don't like being in her company anymore, she is moody, aggressive, selfish and lazy, and I will be so glad when she goes to university in September. Maybe then she will believe me when I've told her, all those times, that this world will not tolerate those that have no respect for others and their belongings!!!! (as I've never been to university, though, I know nothing about them, apparently! Silly girl!!!!!) It will be a very hard lesson for her to learn. I've tried to make the blow less severe, by getting her to be more independent here, but she's having none of it. She will make her bed, and then she will have to lie on it, won't she?!?!
I have just had another blazing row with Sissy and now I feel so sad and stupid.
I keep telling myself that I will NOT argue with her again, and then we have a little disagreement and she starts swearing at me, and then I just blow my top!!. If she didn't swear and cuss at me, then I'd be able to keep calm-ish, but when all of the nasty words start coming out of her mouth I just can't stop myself!!!
I am slow to anger, but even slower to calm down again afterwards. Sissy did try and say sorry just after the argument, but I was still far too angry and 'mugged her off' whatever that means
, shunned her apology, I presume. I do forgive, but it takes me time, I can't just switch off the hurt that I feel, I wish that I could.
The arguments are all about her selfishness. Her money is hers, and everyone else's money seems to be hers, too. She will buy stuff for herself, and then complains that she has no money, then she expects everyone to bail her out and she doesn't like paying the money that she borrows back!!! I don't know when she got so selfish. She will have had three holidays in the last year and we haven't had a holiday in twenty years (she's not our family, she just lives with us).
I just don't like being in her company anymore, she is moody, aggressive, selfish and lazy, and I will be so glad when she goes to university in September. Maybe then she will believe me when I've told her, all those times, that this world will not tolerate those that have no respect for others and their belongings!!!! (as I've never been to university, though, I know nothing about them, apparently! Silly girl!!!!!) It will be a very hard lesson for her to learn. I've tried to make the blow less severe, by getting her to be more independent here, but she's having none of it. She will make her bed, and then she will have to lie on it, won't she?!?!
