" Teach Me O Lord to follow your decrees, then I will keep them to the end. Give me understanding, and I will keep your law and obey it with all my heart. Direct me in the path of your commands, for there I find delight. Turn my heart toward your statutes and not toward selfish gain. Turn my eyes away from worthless things; preserve my life according to your word. I'll fill your promise to your servant, so that you may be feared. Take away the disgrace I dread, for your laws are good. How I long for your precepts! Preserve my life in your righteousness."
Psalm 119:33-40
These verses are my prayer for this evening as I share what God has placed on my heart. Let the words I speak not bring me glory, but the Father. Have Your way with me oh Lord.
Today I had school. I am in a program at my local community college called the Workforce Development program. We receive different types of training and take different classes and workshops and tests to prepare us, and provide credentials for finding the right career that suits us. I have taken aptitude tests which of the results of indicate I would be great for a career in childcare or teaching. I have begun taking a practice Praxis test so that I can become a certified parapro, the necessary credential for a teaching assistant. My career coach is confident that this is a great fit for me and this is what I should do. Being a teacher's aid may be a very suitable choice for me right now. But in the long run...
God has other plans.
I pulled into the campus parking lot this afternoon, returning from my lunch break, and a song I liked was on the radio. I'm not sure of the title but the lyrics went like this " to tell you my story is to tell of him of the grace that is greater than all my sins. Of when justice is served and when mercy wins of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in. To tell you my story is to tell of him. this is my story this is my song praising My Savior all the day long." I sat in my car and I listen to the entirety of this song. When I was finished and I got out and started walking towards the main entrance I suddenly began to look over all the cars in that parking lot. Only suddenly I didn't see cars, I saw what they represented. People. All those people. I had something that they needed to hear. I knew something that they needed to know. I suddenly felt an overwhelming responsibility towards them. I felt grief, I felt pain. I heard inside me,
"Tell them."
For a moment I stopped walking, my eyes cast over all those cars. I must have looked as if I'd seen a ghost. Overwhelmed I continued on my course into the building then into the library.
God first told me of his plans for me a little over a year ago when at church one morning I prayed and asked him what it was I was supposed to do and I heard "preach". I have been discussing this with friends lately and the more I think about it the crazier it sounds while at the same time feeling more and more right. I feel God start to nudge me in that direction more and more. Today in the parking lot at Rappahannock Community College as I gazed over all those cars, it was more like a push. I have to admit, I was a little on edge.
I started working on my typing skills, mulling things over in my mind all the while. Listening to those lies telling me that what God was asking me to do was too difficult. You're not equipped. It will take too long to get where you need to be. I started to notice that the typing course was giving me sentences like this to type " if you believe you can, you will".
Luke 1:37 puts it like this, "For nothing is impossible with God."
Satan will come and try to tell us what is easier, try to get is to give up on God's will for our lives. Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. As Paul states in Acts 14:22, " ' we must go through many hardships to enter the kingdom of God' ". Its not all going to be easy. Look at David, he had a powerful anointing over his life but it was not without challenges. Despite them however, David persevered and brought glory to God.
Its easy to give up and do what the world expects of you. Or to pursue things based on others opinions. But there is more to life than just living for ourselves. Even before I became a Christian I always had a feeling deep down that there was something more. Life had more to offer me and I to offer it. I knew that I had a purpose. And at times the ticking of a clock seemed to mock me, waiting for me to figure it out whafever it was I was missing. I know now what that something is. It is living for God. It is offering my testimony, ministering to others, lifting God up and bringing Him glory. " to tell you my story is to tell of him. ... this is my story this is my song praising My Savior all the day long."
I don't want to feel that empty space anymore. I don't want to hear the nagging of the clock. I want to "rise, for my light has come." I am ready to bring God glory.
"Take my life and let it be all for You."
Psalm 119:33-40
These verses are my prayer for this evening as I share what God has placed on my heart. Let the words I speak not bring me glory, but the Father. Have Your way with me oh Lord.
Today I had school. I am in a program at my local community college called the Workforce Development program. We receive different types of training and take different classes and workshops and tests to prepare us, and provide credentials for finding the right career that suits us. I have taken aptitude tests which of the results of indicate I would be great for a career in childcare or teaching. I have begun taking a practice Praxis test so that I can become a certified parapro, the necessary credential for a teaching assistant. My career coach is confident that this is a great fit for me and this is what I should do. Being a teacher's aid may be a very suitable choice for me right now. But in the long run...
God has other plans.
I pulled into the campus parking lot this afternoon, returning from my lunch break, and a song I liked was on the radio. I'm not sure of the title but the lyrics went like this " to tell you my story is to tell of him of the grace that is greater than all my sins. Of when justice is served and when mercy wins of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in. To tell you my story is to tell of him. this is my story this is my song praising My Savior all the day long." I sat in my car and I listen to the entirety of this song. When I was finished and I got out and started walking towards the main entrance I suddenly began to look over all the cars in that parking lot. Only suddenly I didn't see cars, I saw what they represented. People. All those people. I had something that they needed to hear. I knew something that they needed to know. I suddenly felt an overwhelming responsibility towards them. I felt grief, I felt pain. I heard inside me,
"Tell them."
For a moment I stopped walking, my eyes cast over all those cars. I must have looked as if I'd seen a ghost. Overwhelmed I continued on my course into the building then into the library.
God first told me of his plans for me a little over a year ago when at church one morning I prayed and asked him what it was I was supposed to do and I heard "preach". I have been discussing this with friends lately and the more I think about it the crazier it sounds while at the same time feeling more and more right. I feel God start to nudge me in that direction more and more. Today in the parking lot at Rappahannock Community College as I gazed over all those cars, it was more like a push. I have to admit, I was a little on edge.
I started working on my typing skills, mulling things over in my mind all the while. Listening to those lies telling me that what God was asking me to do was too difficult. You're not equipped. It will take too long to get where you need to be. I started to notice that the typing course was giving me sentences like this to type " if you believe you can, you will".
Luke 1:37 puts it like this, "For nothing is impossible with God."
Satan will come and try to tell us what is easier, try to get is to give up on God's will for our lives. Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. As Paul states in Acts 14:22, " ' we must go through many hardships to enter the kingdom of God' ". Its not all going to be easy. Look at David, he had a powerful anointing over his life but it was not without challenges. Despite them however, David persevered and brought glory to God.
Its easy to give up and do what the world expects of you. Or to pursue things based on others opinions. But there is more to life than just living for ourselves. Even before I became a Christian I always had a feeling deep down that there was something more. Life had more to offer me and I to offer it. I knew that I had a purpose. And at times the ticking of a clock seemed to mock me, waiting for me to figure it out whafever it was I was missing. I know now what that something is. It is living for God. It is offering my testimony, ministering to others, lifting God up and bringing Him glory. " to tell you my story is to tell of him. ... this is my story this is my song praising My Savior all the day long."
I don't want to feel that empty space anymore. I don't want to hear the nagging of the clock. I want to "rise, for my light has come." I am ready to bring God glory.
"Take my life and let it be all for You."
