Oh dear i feel so discouraged... it's like i know what to do and what the right things are, but somehow, it feels so yuuuuccckkkk!
I realised there's no potential, unless i'm willing to make a complete fool of myself... i decided not to! Now, if this was my very wise decision, based on prayer and actually getting the answer, why do i feel so utterly yuck about it... Is it the fact that this decision was made on the fact that it wouldn't work and that the mere fact that it wouldn't work frustrates me? Well, it sounds pretty accurate!!
I'm just so tired of attempting, hoping, believing, only to find that these things are futile... And i know it's in actual fact not for me...but for the cause of what Jesus did for us. I feel discouraged and wanted to clarify it to myself, by writing about it, but i just feel worse discussing it at all, so i think i'll stop here...
In other news...? This is for another blog, because this blog just leaves a negative vibe in which i don't feel like writing anymore!!
I realised there's no potential, unless i'm willing to make a complete fool of myself... i decided not to! Now, if this was my very wise decision, based on prayer and actually getting the answer, why do i feel so utterly yuck about it... Is it the fact that this decision was made on the fact that it wouldn't work and that the mere fact that it wouldn't work frustrates me? Well, it sounds pretty accurate!!
I'm just so tired of attempting, hoping, believing, only to find that these things are futile... And i know it's in actual fact not for me...but for the cause of what Jesus did for us. I feel discouraged and wanted to clarify it to myself, by writing about it, but i just feel worse discussing it at all, so i think i'll stop here...
In other news...? This is for another blog, because this blog just leaves a negative vibe in which i don't feel like writing anymore!!
