I read my last post and for a moment there, i had to ask myself what happened there!!???
We did end-up getting together by the 25th of Jan (three days after the teary-eyed blog), but reading it sheds light on the inner turmoil i experienced throughout the relationship... We got engaged on 3 March, had a wedding arranged within 2 weeks for the 8th of August and on the 15th of April it was all over...
It bothered me, reading that blog... What happened to cause such devastation and what changed for us to be together only 3 days later!!! At the same time it explains soo, sooo much... Throughout i was wrestling with those emotions, so whatever caused them, just never got resolved, up to the end where he terminated everything which just confirmed all the yucky emotions that i had... Emotions?
Maybe it did start off as emotions, but in actual fact, it's beliefs!!!! Things that couldn't change inside of me, no matter how hard i tried and no matter what the emotion of the day, moment or second was.
I need to know what happened that day...
Thank God it's over... Judging by 22 Jan, it could have been over then already.
Hmm..., maybe i needed to go through all of this to understand the situation better? That in life, it doesn't matter how much you love somebody, it can never carry two in a marriage.
We did end-up getting together by the 25th of Jan (three days after the teary-eyed blog), but reading it sheds light on the inner turmoil i experienced throughout the relationship... We got engaged on 3 March, had a wedding arranged within 2 weeks for the 8th of August and on the 15th of April it was all over...
It bothered me, reading that blog... What happened to cause such devastation and what changed for us to be together only 3 days later!!! At the same time it explains soo, sooo much... Throughout i was wrestling with those emotions, so whatever caused them, just never got resolved, up to the end where he terminated everything which just confirmed all the yucky emotions that i had... Emotions?
Maybe it did start off as emotions, but in actual fact, it's beliefs!!!! Things that couldn't change inside of me, no matter how hard i tried and no matter what the emotion of the day, moment or second was.
I need to know what happened that day...
Thank God it's over... Judging by 22 Jan, it could have been over then already.
Hmm..., maybe i needed to go through all of this to understand the situation better? That in life, it doesn't matter how much you love somebody, it can never carry two in a marriage.
