Today i took my 1995 school year book to work, to show friend what PJ and i looked like 13 years ago... And just now, i was slowly paging through it again (jip, work is slow this time of the year and it seemed like the best thing to do, with the least cost to company...hahaha!)
Now this was the year where i really started noticing the male-species and i underlined the names of all the guys' names that i liked... about 8 of them. (A shorter line for the ones that seemed nice, but more in a friend-like manner!)
Now, PJ did have a full line underneath his name, and when i first had a glance at this (in his presence, with him pointing it out) i was surprised to realise that i must have like him back then! Eventually i thought that one amongst 7 other lines, means that he was just one mroe guy i liked...
But now, paging through this book again and more attentively... it's then that i looked at PJ's face again and noticed a rubbed-out pencil mark... Hu? His head was encircled... and with an arrow i pointed to the word that i wrote: "Cute!"
What!!!?? I thought he was cute 13 years ago already and completely forgot about this!!!!??
Now generally this would not have been such a big deal, if i was remotely the same as back then... But in 13 years i was convinced that i have changed and that my taste in men should have changed or my opinion of what view as cute? Something!!!
I've dated just about every kind of guy one can find and would have thought that in my world views somewhere along the line, my taste in men would have changed... Something, but it would seem as though it's exactly the same!!!
And the mere fact that i couldn't even remember how i felt about him in school when we did date a few months ago... This is all so wow!
Sometimes, when we think we've changed, we only realised that we've changed to stay the same...???
I miss him...
Only one more day of work to go... and then i'm outta here... hiking in the mountains... woohoo!!!
Now this was the year where i really started noticing the male-species and i underlined the names of all the guys' names that i liked... about 8 of them. (A shorter line for the ones that seemed nice, but more in a friend-like manner!)
Now, PJ did have a full line underneath his name, and when i first had a glance at this (in his presence, with him pointing it out) i was surprised to realise that i must have like him back then! Eventually i thought that one amongst 7 other lines, means that he was just one mroe guy i liked...
But now, paging through this book again and more attentively... it's then that i looked at PJ's face again and noticed a rubbed-out pencil mark... Hu? His head was encircled... and with an arrow i pointed to the word that i wrote: "Cute!"
What!!!?? I thought he was cute 13 years ago already and completely forgot about this!!!!??
Now generally this would not have been such a big deal, if i was remotely the same as back then... But in 13 years i was convinced that i have changed and that my taste in men should have changed or my opinion of what view as cute? Something!!!
I've dated just about every kind of guy one can find and would have thought that in my world views somewhere along the line, my taste in men would have changed... Something, but it would seem as though it's exactly the same!!!
And the mere fact that i couldn't even remember how i felt about him in school when we did date a few months ago... This is all so wow!
Sometimes, when we think we've changed, we only realised that we've changed to stay the same...???
I miss him...
Only one more day of work to go... and then i'm outta here... hiking in the mountains... woohoo!!!
