Heaven is bound to bee vaguely described, isn't it?, because it's something that's beyond our personal experience, even though we may get glimpses of it.
But given that it's vague, if you believe it's focusing on doing something you hate, why not change how you think of it? Thoughts are things and have a very real effect on the way we feel.
Because what the bible does describe of it, isn't very joy inspiring.
To be honest, I had more joy in the Lord before I actually read through the bible and studied it. When I just relied on what pastors told me. You know, Pastors tend to skip the harder stuff to absorb in scripture. Oh I was able to accept ECT and hell quite readily, God's wrath quite readily. Those are not entirely difficult concepts to absorb and most pastors will talk about them. They treat it as a hard topic, and while I may not like it, I understand it. God is within His rights to judge however harshly He wants for sin. The only difficult subjects regarding ECT specifically, are Romans 9, where some people are basically designated, created for the purpose alone, of being subjected to God's wrath, so that He can display it. ECT is easier to absorb when people have the free will to accept Christ and avoid it. But Romans 9 appears to support Calvinism, which predestines some for wrath, and there are other supporting verses to that concept, such as John 6:44, and God hardening Pharaoh's heart in Exodus. Then it becomes a harder concept... and the book of Joshua which I mentioned before where God instructed the Israelites to commit genocide, even of small children. That's hard to stomach.
But it is biblical and teaches that God is absolutely sovereign, even if it means the wholesale slaughter of children. It is what He commanded.
Matthew 22:30 might as well be a murder weapon on me, before I knew that one.. you know, I held out hope, that if I didn't find someone in this life, I could ask God and He'd provide in the next.
Doesn't seem to be the case.
The more knowledge I have of the bible, the more or less resigned I feel to it all, not joyful. Resigned. "He does whatever He wants, we just have to live with it"
The one thing that is supposed to offer hope being vague like that.. is the coup de grace.
Especially when the one definite "you will do this" activity is something that I despise doing and always feel like I'm just doing it out of obligation like there might as well be a gun to the back of my head.
I never even liked singing happy birthday.... to myself.