Where is God? I feel like I am walking in darkness

[headphones777]

I feel so weighed down. I went to confession yesterday and told the priest all of my sins, but I still cannot hear him. Even when I cry out to the Lord, he does not answer. I am sick both mentally spiritually and physically, yes I have schizophrenia and other physical health problems, problems that are seemingly impossible to resolve. I am despondent because I never wanted my life to come to this. I do not understand why God created me if he knew my life would become like this and the terrible state of my soul currently. I have become a mere shadow of myself. I wish God would help me and heal me and restore me but whenever I pray all I feel is his silence. I do not know why exist. I have prayed for healing so many times yet I received nothing. My soul is so darkened and my heart is probably hardened. I am the closest thing to an insane schizophrenic you can find on this earth. The last 10 years have just been sin, and a nightmare. I am afraid this depression will get the better of me and will do something stupid and sinful. What in the Lord's name am I supposed to do, when confession does not heal me and God does not answer my prayer? I feel like my heart has become infected with evil and I fear going to Hell. The Holy Spirit does not come back to me, and I do not know what to do to get him back. I think I have lost the Holy Spirit. I can't live in this darkness and suffering, I at least need to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but I do not have the reassurance..

 

[d taylor]

I feel so weighed down. I went to confession yesterday and told the priest all of my sins, but I still cannot hear him. Even when I cry out to the Lord, he does not answer. I am sick both mentally spiritually and physically, yes I have schizophrenia and other physical health problems, problems that are seemingly impossible to resolve. I am despondent because I never wanted my life to come to this. I do not understand why God created me if he knew my life would become like this and the terrible state of my soul currently. I have become a mere shadow of myself. I wish God would help me and heal me and restore me but whenever I pray all I feel is his silence. I do not know why exist. I have prayed for healing so many times yet I received nothing. My soul is so darkened and my heart is probably hardened. I am the closest thing to an insane schizophrenic you can find on this earth. The last 10 years have just been sin, and a nightmare. I am afraid this depression will get the better of me and will do something stupid and sinful. What in the Lord's name am I supposed to do, when confession does not heal me and God does not answer my prayer? I feel like my heart has become infected with evil and I fear going to Hell.

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If you have believed in Jesus for God's free gift of Eternal Life, then you should not have any fear of going to hell. Because a person who has believed in Jesus for Eternal Life will never be in danger of going to hell.

“Most assuredly, I say to you, he who hears My word and believes in Him who sent Me has everlasting life, and shall not come into judgment, but has passed from death into life.

 

[headphones777]

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If you have believed in Jesus for God's free gift of Eternal Life, then you should not have any fear of going to hell. Because a person who has believed in Jesus for Eternal Life will never be in danger of going to hell.

“Most assuredly, I say to you, he who hears My word and believes in Him who sent Me has everlasting life, and shall not come into judgment, but has passed from death into life.

Is salvation and belief a one time thing? I do know how to recite the Creed...
I believed but my faith was weak I guess and spent a lot of times committing sexual sin.

 

[d taylor]

Is salvation and believe a one time thing?

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Well if you think of eternal life in salvation terms, it can be confusing because there are different types of salvation's in The Bible.

But the salvation that involves believing in Jesus for God's free gift of Eternal Life is a one time act of belief a person places in Jesus for Eternal Life. At the very moment of belief in Jesus the person becomes a permanent born again child of God.

 

[headphones777]

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Well if you think of eternal life in salvation terms, it can be confusing because there are different types of salvation's in The Bible.

But the salvation that involves believing in Jesus for God's free gift of Eternal Life is a one time act of belief a person places in Jesus for Eternal Life. At the very moment of belief in Jesus the person becomes a permanent born again child of God.

Do you think confirmation in the catholic church is the same thing as believing in Jesus?

 

[ThatDumbChicken]

I at least need to know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel, but I do not have the reassurance..

I heard this said once "Don't forget in the darkness, what you learned in the light". He is your Lord. He is your savior. Don't let your emotions drive you away from what you know as Truth. Get some sleep. Get some exercise. Get a cup of coffee and a nice meal. Rest in Him.

 

[d taylor]

Do you think confirmation in the catholic church is the same thing as believing in Jesus?

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No, believing in Jesus, is just the same as believing in a promise a that you may be asked to believe. The only difference is that you are believing a promise from God who can not lie.

An example is in school you were taught George Washington was Americas first president and i am guessing you believed this. You did not have to be confirmed in school to believe this, you just simply believed what the teacher stated or what the history book stated.

So God states believe in Jesus for Eternal Life do you believe this?

Nothing about having to be confirmed or confirming gives eternal life in the below verses.

And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life.
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For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
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For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.
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“He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.
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He who believes in the Son has everlasting life; and he who does not believe the Son shall not see life, but the wrath of God abides on him.”
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“Most assuredly, I say to you, he who hears My word and believes in Him who sent Me has everlasting life, and shall not come into judgment, but has passed from death into life.
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Do not labor for the food which perishes, but for the food which endures to everlasting life, which the Son of Man will give you, because God the Father has set His seal on Him.”
Then they said to Him, “What shall we do, that we may work the works of God?”
Jesus answered and said to them, “This is the work of God, that you believe in Him whom He sent.”
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Most assuredly, I say to you, he who believe in Me has everlasting life.
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Jesus said to her, “I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die. Do you believe this?”
She said to Him, “Yes, Lord, I believe that You are the Christ, the Son of God, who is to come into the world.”
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but these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that believing you may have life in His name.

 

[Unqualified]

Have you repented of your sin? And you think you are going back? Don’t be in a hurry. God is not on our timetable.
Give him some sinless time to learn to trust you. Paul prayed three times for healing. His grace is sufficient for us. Now deal with it he has given us tools. 2Cor 10:3-5 and a realationship with Him. You have to pray and know he hears you. Your daddy. The lover of your soul. Counselor…. He loves you. Preaching in church should be building you up. If Paul could overcome blindness…. Maybe you can overcome something fearful.

 

[headphones777]

Have you repented of your sin? And you think you are going back? Don’t be in a hurry. God is not on our timetable.
Give him some sinless time to learn to trust you. Paul prayed three times for healing. His grace is sufficient for us. Now deal with it he has given us tools. 2Cor 10:3-5 and a realationship with Him. You have to pray and know he hears you. Your daddy. The lover of your soul. Counselor…. He loves you. Preaching in church should be building you up. If Paul could overcome blindness…. Maybe you can overcome something fearful.

I tried repenting but at this point repentance has lost its meaning.. for me repentance is going to Confession...

 

[caffeinated.hermit]

So... I struggle with some pretty intense psychological issues, too. Something that has helped me is to stop equating my periods of darkness or sadness with how close I am to God. I've also started doing Christian meditation techniques. Arrow prayers, deep breathing, and spending time in places that make me feel better, like in nature. There's actually an organization geared towards Christian meditation.

WCCM | The World Community for Christian Meditation

WCCM is a global contemplative family in the Christian tradition committed to serving the unity of all. Founded by John Main and Laurence Freeman.

wccm.org

I think it's run by Benedictines, but it's open to anyone. Something else that's helped me... less sugar and fewer processed foods. The panic attacks and racing thoughts have been reduced a lot since I'm eating better. You are still loved. Just remember that. Christ still loves you.