I should be journaling. Then I would get all the benefits of talking and not implicate anyone or include anyone else in my sordid emotional maintenance. That’s a very good idea. That’s what I’m doing here. But too many ears to be affected as I figure it out. I do appreciate the feed back from these two nice women.
@Rescued One and
@godisagardener . They have made me feel welcome and valuable here. The golden eagles is a comfortable supportive place to express myself.
I guess I’m just an old fart being conservative and opinionated. There are so many opinions in the body of Christ, on every subject. To me the Body needs building and strengthening. That’s what is to be done for it. Don’t leave any
concerned Christian behind or any sincere unsaved person.
I took time to make a message on Tuesday. I did it. There were only two people there. They seemed to listen and when I was done…. I could see the unbelief in the guys eyes, the joy and it’s time to eat. He was a Buddhist.
Another alienated guy from the gospel and me. It seems like such a trail of destruction I’ve left behind. Many alienated people I have known. That’s why I feel so unqualified to do this witnessing. No fruit and no friends there.
when I was in charge people would talk, make friends and move on about 2004. Now nobody wants to have anything to do with me. Just food and move on.
When I do talk they get alienated And don’t even look at me. Yeah, plantin’ seeds. All in my imagination. But I’m so tired of turning persons over to death bed conversions. But I have more in me.
It makes me feel like I’m not complete. Can’t get my heart across, but I know Jesus is real. So many coming and going with no change of heart. Good people too. And so many that hate God and Christians.