What's on your mind?

[Tone]

I doubt it. But we've spoken a lot recently. The mind replays things.

Ha ha, yeah, there wasn't anything romantic going on.

If anything, the stark difference between us explained some things. You didn't seem to have a dark streak in you...not like on the level I'm used to.

I'm sure irl you do though.

The whole experience just stood out to me that's all.

On a cool irl note, the Jamaican beauty reached out to me yesterday and continued into today, and seems open to having me help with the ministry project!

 

[bèlla]

If anything, the stark difference between us explained some things. You didn't seem to have a dark streak in you...not like on the level I'm used to.

What do you mean?

On a cool irl note, the Jamaican beauty reached out to me yesterday and continued into today, and seems open to having me help with the ministry project!

Nice. What will you be working on?

 

[Tone]

What do you mean?

You're a real good girl, ha ha.

Nice. What will you be working on?

To be honest, I probably won't go back to her realm of influence. I've been shown some things about it that won't be healthy to pursue.

 

[bèlla]

You're a real good girl, ha ha.

Yeah I am. A lot of the things I like would bore most. It isn’t edgy or dark. But we all have a shadow. When you cross the line it changes you. So I hold myself in check.

To be honest, I probably won't go back to her realm of influence. I've been shown some things about it that won't be healthy to pursue.

Temptation or something else?

 

[sampa]

I can hear the fireworks going off outside. Today is my last day for online dating before I take a break.. except for one elite site that I want to be able to maintain my free membership so I will check in here and there.

Looking through profiles that had viewed me I came across a guy that I thought I had a lot in common with. So I reached out to him, even though he is almost 3 hour drive. Was busy today but he reached back, and I found out it wasn't my first time reaching out to him but I had back in January. Since today is the last day of my subscription, he decided to offer his phone number. But then I noticed in his profile something about kids and wanting somebody who has experience with kids. Everything else he told me about his life, and he lives a public life, was refreshing with his transparency. Unfortunately with me responding back so late, I'm sure he's busy with fireworks and his kids. I checked out his social media and he looks like he's lived a very polished life. At least his 4 kids (mostly teens) look very polished. I know he's looking for a classy professional woman, and I think I'm close but I don't know if I'm enough. I can be quite a clutch and a bit of a humble person. Anyways no expectations, we'll see if we at least get to talk by phone.

Looking forward to having a little retreat time next weekend. Probably a quiet time overlooking a beautiful River from a high perch. And looking forward to seeing one of my good friends from church at her lake house tomorrow.

 

[Tone]

When you cross the line it changes you. So I hold myself in check

Yeah, these last women went to some places that I suspect you haven't, which is a good thing.

Temptation or something else?

Something else.

 

[bèlla]

Yeah, these last women went to some places that I suspect you haven't, which is a good thing.

Probably not. The Internet provided opportunities to meet people I wouldn’t cross paths with otherwise. I’m not afraid to strike up a conversation or ask questions. I’ve heard a lot over the years. But I wouldn’t want the experiences.

 

[Tone]

Probably not. The Internet provided opportunities to meet people I wouldn’t cross paths with otherwise. I’m not afraid to strike up a conversation or ask questions. I’ve heard a lot over the years. But I wouldn’t want the experiences.

Yeah, you said something before, to the effect of staying in your lane.

Maybe this is what He's showing me to do.

 

[bèlla]

Yeah, you said something before, to the effect of staying in your lane.

Maybe this is what He's showing me to do.

Possibly. You avoid distractions and getting derailed. Agendas come in many guises. You’ve gotta stay alert.

 

[SarahsKnight]

Yeah I am. A lot of the things I like would bore most. It isn’t edgy or dark.

Well, Bella is definitely a straight-talker. ^-^

 

[bèlla]

Well, Bella is definitely a straight-talker. ^-^

My aunt had a saying she reinforced growing up. You don’t have to have the experience to understand the consequences. She told me to study people and learn from their mistakes. And I did.

I like to say I’m not the girl next door but I’m starting to question that assessment. We have a lot in common. I’m just wiser and driven. But the innocence remains. You see it in my eyes.

That doesn’t mean I’m clueless.

 

[bèlla]

I watched several videos on the academia aesthetic. It grew in popularity during the pandemic. Those with a passion for education, knowledge, productivity, and self-improvement fall in this camp. Needless to say I was curious.

Classic, Dark, Light and Romantic Academia are the most popular styles. But there were others I hadn’t heard of and a few I’d avoid. The look is trending on social media and is easy to spot. Topics like these are ice breakers and opportunities for a word with strangers.

Yes, I’ll compliment someone’s attire, ask what inspired the look, and go from there. He has many tools under His belt!

Additional styles include:

Art, Writer, Scholarly, Theater, Pastel, Vintage, Vibrant, Science, and Ballet.

Darker themes will appear in Gothic, Chaos, Light/Dark Witchy, and Grey Academia (social justice). Given the numerous off-shoots and well defined looks this may be around for a bit.

As with most things there’s downsides too. The culture can promote an excessive focus on learning and romanticize intelligence, moodiness, and occult practices. The emphasis on literature and classic subjects isn’t bad per se. But most of the population doesn’t go down that rabbit hole beyond school.

To say it expands one intellectually is an understatement. There’s a difference between reading Proust and fan fiction or an NYT best seller. Feeding the mind to that degree can encourage separation. You end up with pockets and a lot of people left behind.

Combining it with an aesthetic moves it beyond bookishness. They’re promoting a lifestyle. I’m curious to see where this goes. I have a hunch.

 

[ReesePiece23]

Just added three drops of blackcurrant Tango to a lateral flow test...

It tested positive for COVID.

Right... So, about these positive results.

 

[SarahsKnight]

Miss @bèlla , I had finally gotten down to playing the newest Resident Evil game, called Village, the other night at my homeboy's house, and got as far as maybe a third of the way through the game before having to call it a night, whereupon as the male protagonist Ethan Winters I am presently being chased around a large castle home by a family of vampire women (it's not nearly as sexy as it might sound ), an absurdly tall mother with twelve-inch nails and three nearly-identical, smaller-statured ladies whom she refers to as her daughters.

.... I just discovered looking up some various information about the game, that one of the vampire daughters is named Bella.

So you have quite an interesting video game character named after you. I don't know whether you will feel flattered or insulted by that knowledge; I just felt compelled to share.

(On a more solemn note, I did also learn in my Internet searches just now that the voice actress for one of the vampire characters actually just died about a week ago, rather young at 39, from cancer. Her name was Jeanette. And she left behind a fiance in the so-doing. That is a pity. )

 

[bèlla]

an absurdly tall mother with twelve-inch nails and three nearly-identical, smaller-statured ladies whom she refers to as her daughters.

Surely you weren’t overcome by creatures of the night given your bravery and gallantry. Perhaps your cosmic twin is writing in your stead.

So you have quite an interesting video game character named after you. I don't know whether you will feel flattered or insulted by that knowledge; I just felt compelled to share.

She looks like quite the femme fatale. No offense taken.

(On a more solemn note, I did also learn in my Internet searches just now that the voice actress for one of the vampire characters actually just died about a week ago, rather young at 39, from cancer. Her name was Jeanette. And she left behind a fiance in the so-doing. That is a pity. )

That’s unfortunate. I’m glad she found the one who stirred her heart. It’s a small comfort for both to hold onto.

 

[bèlla]

Thanks to princesscore, you can wake up and don a gown and no one judges you.

Why bother wearing jeans when you can look like this?

I love the Internet!

 

[SarahsKnight]

Surely you weren’t overcome by creatures of the night given your bravery and gallantry.

Physically, no, as I have not died by their hand yet in combat even though it's my first time through the game.

Mentally, however, yes, just a bit. I must admit to having been a bit intimidated by their first appearance when I stumbled onto their turf and started innocently poking around the place.

But thank you for believing that this knight has the gallantry to ultimately stand up to this quartet of blood-sucking villainesses.


So far, two of the daughters are defeated, primarily by their own ill-advised tendencies to keep confronting me in rooms with windows I can easily shoot out and thus allow in the one and only element that renders them vulnerable: cold air (yeah, apparently much like the Twilight movies, the Resident Evil universe just sort of makes up its own rules for vampires). But, i imagine the eight-foot-tall head vampire, curiously named Lady Dimitri or something to that effect, will prove much more resilient and cunning in combat whenever I get to a final confrontation with her.

 

[SarahsKnight]

Thanks to princesscore, you can wake up and don a gown and no one judges you.

Why bother wearing jeans when you can look like this?

Cuteness and elegance both. What is not to like? ^-^

(Also not being eternal and possessing an innate desire to drink blood really helps, at least for me personally. )

 

[bèlla]

Mentally, however, yes, just a bit. I must admit to having been a bit intimidated by their first appearance when I stumbled onto their turf and started innocently poking around the place.

They’re known to disarm their victims through a certain gaze and ravenous beauty. So says Mr. Stoker.

But thank you for believing that this knight has the gallantry to ultimately stand up to this quartet of blood-sucking villainesses.

I have confidence you’ll prevail and vanquish them all.

But, i imagine the eight-foot-tall head vampire, curiously named Lady Dimitri or something to that effect, will prove much more resilient and cunning in combat whenever I get to a final confrontation with her.

Dmitri doesn’t sound very womanly. I fear there may be a switcher-roo. Proceed with caution.

 

[bèlla]

Cuteness and elegance both. What is not to like? ^-^

Exactly! I knew you’d understand.

(Also not being eternal and possessing an innate desire to drink blood really helps, at least for me personally. )

A messy business!