So this has been an interesting trip down memory lane. I would normally leave it at that, but I don't have a church, and CF is the only thing that comes close. I even met my ex-wife here. This time, after twelve years spent here off and on, and so many experiences, it just feels like such a waste to be silent. The interesting thing about CF is that, it's been around so long, it's practically a time capsule, so at the very least I'm just rambling on so that I have something to remember. That being said this isn't directed at anyone in particular, so feel free to pay no attention.
Without spelling out my entire life's story, I'm one of those "radical" conversion people, but, I was left asking "why?" on a lot of things, and for a few years afterward, it seemed like God was silent, having left me for several years to explore different branches of theologies and churches, searching for answers and a home church. Not having found any single one that was a possible fit, things began happening to me through my interactions at CF, and in conjunction with things happening in my real life. In the process, many difficult questions were answered which were never provided by any of the "experts."
Now, years later, after having gone through a pretty serious "storm" in life, I find myself back home in Detroit, literally just a couple of miles from where I was born, located in the basement of my new residence trying to stay warm, having lost a job I didn't want to keep, but with a good job lined up downtown. Then, as I'm strolling down memory lane, reading the posts that were relevant to my life's circumstances for the last couple of years, I find this:
Now, I for one am not a huge fan of Eminem, and I'm not asking people to take my hand (lol), so it's not a perfect reflection of what I was going through just a moment ago but it's pretty darned close. This is the kind of thing that would normally strike me as kind of weird, but it happens so often here, I'm used to it. What I've come to realize is that, as it pertains to Christianity, it doesn't matter what your theology is or what it is you want and don't want to be true. There is a reality expressed by this faith, or at least, by what it used to be. Whether or not we agree or disagree is irrelevant, and the reality persists.
Unfortunately for CF, it does seem to have seen better days. I've seen this place change, but I'm still here exploring and asking questions, posting things that are "on my mind" and what not, like I always have. This place has undergone change of ownership, and the community has most definitely changed. If that community wants to survive, at least as facilitated by this site, perhaps a little reflection is in order. I can only hope this isn't a reflection of Christiandom as a whole, because it does not appear that you are doing well.