- Apr 21, 2019
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I am wondering whether perhaps your resistance is coming from a fear of some kind which is holding you back? Perhaps a fear of rejection? Perhaps the fear of committing yourself to God not knowing where this may take you? Or maybe the fear of opening yourself up totally. Confessing our sins is not an easy task and coming to terms with things in our lives can make us feel vulnerable and uncertain. You can be absolutely sure that God loves you and wants to bless you, not to harm you. He wants to heal you, not hurt you. You do not need to be afraid because His perfect love casts out all fear. He will never reject you if you come to Him. You could run away from Him a thousand times, come back and He would still welcome you with His tenderness and care.
I understand. But there is an inability for me to return from the heart... There is a desire from the head but my heart has no desire to return. It feels completely resistant. I feel a rage against the Lord from my heart.
I have submitted myself and asked him to take this from me but he has not. I'm not sure that there is anything I can do at this point. I legitimately cannot repent from the heart as hard and consistently as I try.
I do not know what else I can do not am I sure I can be restored. Only the Lord can soften my heart.
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