So ever since becoming a Christian back in 2013 I've been haunted by thoughts along the lines of Jesus is Satan and the Holy spirit is Satan. Im told that these delusions are from the schizophrenic side of me by my psychiatrist and so far no medication has been able to get rid of these schizophrenic delusions. I lied and told my psychiatrist that these delusions have gone away because I don't think she can do anything about it. They haven't. Its like the devil is trying to attack me its like I'm being tormented by demons. Why!? Why won't Jesus heal me of this mental illness? There has to be a reason.
I mean... I know deep down in my heart that it isn't true. Jesus nor any other parts of God are demonic but why must I think these things every time I pray? Every time I try to get close to God. I keep reading John 6:37-40 over and over again looking for the "none are lost except for the crazy and insane Shane." But of course it isn't there. The only thing that's there is "despite this sin Shane is STILL one of my sheep and is still always and eternally saved." I mean... I'm honestly done believing that I'm committing the unforgivable sin. I'm just done worrying about that. Why? Because Jesus said that NO believer will be lost zip Nada zero. So I'm confident in my salvation.E specially when I saw myself be born again. I KNOW I'm born again and loved by Jesus despite my blasphemy. But... I just want it to stop. Why? Because I LOVE God. I don't want to think that God is Satan! I don't want to blaspheme God anymore! I keep praying for God to heal me but he just won't. I'm supposed to endure this torment. So I guess why I'm telling you all this is I'm wondering what can be done about it. Am I supposed to just ignore it and live with it? Or should I tell my psychiatrist the truth and see if she can help with it. But if it really is demons attacking me what can my psychiatrist do about it? I need Jesus! But Jesus does nothing but enjoy my suffering and torment! That's the only reason why he won't heal me until I die!
The last words of your post echo demonic possession "won't heal ... until I die."
The secular world is inebriated with the occult and even the church is drunk on devil bashing. False religious promises suggest exorcism is the answer even as Hollywood churns out movies about it. The real problem is something else entirely.
Without examining your history and personal activities in detail, one can only guess at the reasons for your affliction. Generally there are two spiritual reasons; sin and flirtation with the occult. A physical reason may require a doctor's examination and treatment. If I were you I'd seek a doctor first rather than a religious con artist.
The following discussion addresses spiritual reasons - reasons that may NOT apply to your case.
Popular churches myth suggests a Christian can't be possessed. They also use the buzz word 'grace' to license their members to sin. Neither will yield spiritual liberty because both are wrong.
SIN on the part of a human is the primary cause and attraction of what the Bible calls "the power of sin". Call it possession or call it destructive habit or call it licentiousness, but whatever you call it the result is the same. Where sin abounds the power of sin descends like vultures dining on road kill.
Occult practice, especially among churches, is on the rise and ignorant Christians participate in dark matters without realizing what they're doing. Generally labeled New Age movement, ideology and icons and misdirected teaching as well as demonic music is insinuating itself into the church. For instance, one of the greatest purveyors of demonic show productions and music is an organization called Hillsong. One of the most insidious organizations that pretends to instruct leaders and members is IHOP - International House of Prayer. Check them out. Don't just protest my assertions.
REPENTANCE and humility before God are the only spiritual grounds to begin clean living before God. Following this one must adhere to the principles of decency. These things are generally laughed at even in established churches.....churches that are all riddled with financial debt and debauchery among the members.
My final visit to one Baptist church near my home was witness to a long sermon on grace. At the end of the sermon the preacher said, "go out and sin this week that grace may abound." Only a satanically inspired man could have uttered those words.
THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A LICENSE TO SIN.
Not now. Not ever. Grace is meant to forgive past sins and allow a person to live the future according to the Law - thus pleasing to God. When Jesus encountered a woman caught in adultery He forgave her. His final words were to "go and sin no more". Jesus didn't tell her she could go out and open a brothel, but the church today would say that.
It is time to repent of sin. The hour is late and much evil is coming upon the world. Make peace with God while you can........
and stop blaming God for your own sin wickedness and maladies. Find a doctor and get treatment.
that's me, hollering from the choir loft...
