I've read all the NT and I still can't figure out what love is. I read about it but it's just words on a page, I don't get it. Jesus died for me and I can't figure out what that means. He loves me but what is love? I'm supposed to feel loved but what does that mean, how do I do that? I went through a lesson about God's love for us and how he fully knows us and wants good things for us and never forgets us. But I still feel confused.
What if I don't have saving faith even after I've prayed and asked for it? What more can I do?
1 Corinthians 13 spells it out pretty much.
The steps to conversion to Christ are as follows:
1. Accept that you are a condemned sinner without hope.
2. Believe that Jesus died on the cross to take away your sins and that He rose again to give you eternal life.
3. Accept Jesus as your Saviour and Lord.
4. Throw out of your life any of the works of the flesh that Paul describes in Galatians 5, and Start walking in the Spirit according to the fruit of the Spirit described in the same chapter.
5. Get baptised in the Name of Jesus.
Peter said in Acts 2, "Repent and be baptised in the Name of Jesus, and you shall receive the baptism with the Holy Spirit".
This is the promise to you. Believe the promise before you have any feelings. You may not feel saved, and you don't have to be. All you need to do is go through the steps of faith and then decide to believe the promise. Your prayer will now be, "I have gone through the steps of faith, and I believe the promise. Thank you Lord for saving me! I now receive the promised Holy Spirit into my life. I am now Your child and Jesus is my brother!"
To support your faith and assist you to grow, you will need to talk to God about everything in your life that you want Him to know (the good, bad and ugly), that is called confession. Read the Bible, starting with the Book of John. Find a church that supports the gospel and assists new Christians establish themselves and grow in the faith.