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DruryGirl
Guest
Hi, everyone. I need to talk. Badly.
My story is so long and involved that I really can't
(and don't want to) tell it all here. But basically, I
have OCD. My obsession: vows. My compulsion:
making "protective" vows.
Typical scenario: I want to do something. I feel
this horrible pressure, like I might "vow away" the
right to do the thing, or that God might somehow
snatch it from me (usually by getting me to "vow
away" the thing). So I promise to do the thing to
stop myself from losing it. (For anyone who has
OCD on this forum, you know that urge. Yes, I'm
admitting it, I deliberately say these protective
vows. They're my fault. But you know that urge
like you just gotta do the compulsion to protect
yourself....)
This is just one example, just one vague example.
This would be the perfect topic for counseling or
something.
I'm not saying a lot now because if I said it all I'd
just type on and on and on and on. I really need
to talk to someone.
So I'm issuing a general call for people to offer up
their stories, advice, and encouragement, please!
On the thread or on the PM, I gratefully accept
all.
Does anyone else...
--worry about possibly making future vows,
specific or otherwise? (e.g. you're listening to
a kind of music you like and fear that you could
somehow make a vow not to listen to that kind
of music, thus losing it forever)
--make "protective" vows (praying no "in
advance" for a certain potential vow, or making
an opposite vow to "protect" the right to do
whatever it is you don't want to vow)
I'm getting confused by my own words. This is
so frustrating. Maybe someone will understand?
Whatever you say to me, please say it in a way
that is kind and gentle. I am very sensitive and
fragile and unstable over this topic.
Thanks for listening.
My story is so long and involved that I really can't
(and don't want to) tell it all here. But basically, I
have OCD. My obsession: vows. My compulsion:
making "protective" vows.
Typical scenario: I want to do something. I feel
this horrible pressure, like I might "vow away" the
right to do the thing, or that God might somehow
snatch it from me (usually by getting me to "vow
away" the thing). So I promise to do the thing to
stop myself from losing it. (For anyone who has
OCD on this forum, you know that urge. Yes, I'm
admitting it, I deliberately say these protective
vows. They're my fault. But you know that urge
like you just gotta do the compulsion to protect
yourself....)
This is just one example, just one vague example.
This would be the perfect topic for counseling or
something.
I'm not saying a lot now because if I said it all I'd
just type on and on and on and on. I really need
to talk to someone.
So I'm issuing a general call for people to offer up
their stories, advice, and encouragement, please!
On the thread or on the PM, I gratefully accept
all.
Does anyone else...
--worry about possibly making future vows,
specific or otherwise? (e.g. you're listening to
a kind of music you like and fear that you could
somehow make a vow not to listen to that kind
of music, thus losing it forever)
--make "protective" vows (praying no "in
advance" for a certain potential vow, or making
an opposite vow to "protect" the right to do
whatever it is you don't want to vow)
I'm getting confused by my own words. This is
so frustrating. Maybe someone will understand?
Whatever you say to me, please say it in a way
that is kind and gentle. I am very sensitive and
fragile and unstable over this topic.
Thanks for listening.