Voice in my head

[Baby Cottontail]

I do not conceive God in this way. I was describing an instance or a particular occasion that I experienced as a child. I know God is gentle but i don't know i guess the devil is good at lying and has somehow made me question this very obvious voice of my own stupid brain or the devil himself. Never was involved in any occult activity although i was hexed once from a person at school because they didnt like me. all recently though.

i was probably 9 when i first had them. never said to harm me. or anything like that. just maybe harm others. often times when alone i feel an unrest because of this thing, a watching

Okay, then from what you've described, it sounds more like mental illness. Now, I do think that all mental illness has a spiritual component to it as well, and yes, I think that you were tricked into thinking that it could be God'd voice. What you've described is something Satan would want -- to have your tormented and thinking that the origin was God -- and to harm other people.

But if you are feeling unrest when you are alone, and you feel like you are being watched -- that's more of a mental illness thing. It sounds a lot like paranoid schizophrenia to me.

While you can confront these voices in Jesus' name, I don't think that's going to be enough to give you complete peace -- especially if it is a mental illness rather than just being a demonic attack. It sounds like it's been an ongoing issue for you since you were a child, and there seems to be no spiritual origin with it. (at least from what you've described).

This isn't to say that the suggesting of confronting the voices won't help. I think it is an excellent suggestion to tell them to go away in Jesus' name. I just think that you probably need some professional counsel as well, which might include some medication to help you manage symptoms.

For your wellbeing, I really recommend that you see a psychiatrist about this -- if there is a Christian one in your area, that would be even better.

I know someone who is a strong Christian who had schizophrenia when he was younger. He was able to completely overcome it in Christ, but he had to seek mental help, and learn how to deal with the mental illness first. By God's grace, he is now completely cured of it. It's going to take time and some hard work, and medication. You may not ever be fully cured of it, but you may be as well. There is definitely hope. (I say this to show you that some people can completely be cured of it, but don't necessarily expect that. My friend might be an exception rather than the norm.)

 

[mkdrive2]

The voices might be because of schizophrenia. Please go to a psychiatrist for councel.