- Sep 21, 2017
- 9
- 8
- 25
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- In Relationship
Hey there I'm about 5 minutes new to this place and I just need help with something. I'm courting currently with my girlfriend and we have been talking a lot about marriage recently. We have been together for two years and have been working hard and succeeding for the most part on purity, living for Him and keeping him at the center of our relationship and the center of our own lives, too. we are both just 18 years old and understand we are so innocent and lack lots of knowledge about, well, basically anything about marriage. From a percentage standpoint, we know that 99.999999999% of what we will learn about ourselves and marriage and about God is left without discovery just yet.
Anyways, with all this said and all this stuff happening, I have an issue: I worry about everything. I have this voice in my head that I hear when it's quiet in my head or when I pray sometimes (usually close to the only time it's quiet) that says I need to break up with my girlfriend. It's a sinister whispering voice that says this all the time and especially when I'm expecting it, it says it, cuts me off whenever I'm trying to pray to God.
"Dear Lord thank you so much for-"
"Break up with her, break up with her!"
Its like I trigger it myself... I have worked past the fact that it may be God for the most part, but sometimes I worry that I'm lying to myself because i want this so bad. And that it is Him and I'm just living this big lie. But at the same time i speak to the elders in my life about marrying this girl and oftentimes i feel his presence so strong, like that feeling that he's smiling and happy about this.
What can I do to abolish this voice from my head... so I can stop worrying about the possibility that it is God and I'm pushing him away? It frustrates and confuses me so much.
I ask for prayer, advice, proper discernment, and tips to get the devil out of my head and to have me stop worrying and creating insecurities. I love this girl so much, and this one thing has been affecting me for too long.
Anyways, with all this said and all this stuff happening, I have an issue: I worry about everything. I have this voice in my head that I hear when it's quiet in my head or when I pray sometimes (usually close to the only time it's quiet) that says I need to break up with my girlfriend. It's a sinister whispering voice that says this all the time and especially when I'm expecting it, it says it, cuts me off whenever I'm trying to pray to God.
"Dear Lord thank you so much for-"
"Break up with her, break up with her!"
Its like I trigger it myself... I have worked past the fact that it may be God for the most part, but sometimes I worry that I'm lying to myself because i want this so bad. And that it is Him and I'm just living this big lie. But at the same time i speak to the elders in my life about marrying this girl and oftentimes i feel his presence so strong, like that feeling that he's smiling and happy about this.
What can I do to abolish this voice from my head... so I can stop worrying about the possibility that it is God and I'm pushing him away? It frustrates and confuses me so much.
I ask for prayer, advice, proper discernment, and tips to get the devil out of my head and to have me stop worrying and creating insecurities. I love this girl so much, and this one thing has been affecting me for too long.