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[felinity]

I feel like it's even harder than usual around Halloween - cute little kids dressed up in their costumes, and then in the days after, people start sending around the pictures. It all seems like a reminder of what I don't have.

With my luck, tomorrow will be child dedication Sunday at church.

 

[lovesdolphins]

Why do I even bother... why?

Ever get the feeling that you just need to run away and hide? Everywhere I turn there is either someone who is pregnant, just got pregnant, just had a baby, thinks they are pregnant... ugh.

Can't there be some sort of TTC island that you can be put on until you finally conceive so you don't have to face all the things that break your heart?

I couldn't even pick out a baby shower card the other day without breaking down in Target... I was crying so hard

HUGS!!!!!

I'm soo sorry girl - I hate baby showers, I pretty much refuse to go to them anymore - normally I'll get a gift card and give it to the mom-to-be at some other time than the shower.

 

[Sign Of The Fish Burger]

HUGS!!!!!

I'm soo sorry girl - I hate baby showers, I pretty much refuse to go to them anymore - normally I'll get a gift card and give it to the mom-to-be at some other time than the shower.

Oh so have I. I didn't even go to my own SIL's shower. This gift is being sent half way across the country

 

[jenrenee]

an island for ttc'ers - i like that idea! it would be so much easier not to see everyone around me have what I want so badly!

 

[jenrenee]

Ugh - I'm having such a bad day... I've told myself I've quit trying. I quit using OPK's quit everything - except I still know when AF is due... and so I just can't stop thinking about it!! My best friend is due for a c-section on Friday. I'll be going up there Saturday to see her - and to visit my sister with her 1 month old baby. I love seeing them... but it's so hard at the same time!! I really don't think I'm able to have children - I just have this feeling that the doctors haven't found that out yet, but that they will if I keep searching. I've started to look into adoption but don't know even where to start. I'm getting so frustrated - and so down about it again - and I thought I was gonna quit trying!! I guess that's just not possible for me. Not when everyone, and I mean everyone around me is either pg or just had their baby. I just don't know how to deal with it anymore...

 

[Maharg]

Ugh - I'm having such a bad day... I've told myself I've quit trying. I quit using OPK's quit everything - except I still know when AF is due... and so I just can't stop thinking about it!! My best friend is due for a c-section on Friday. I'll be going up there Saturday to see her - and to visit my sister with her 1 month old baby. I love seeing them... but it's so hard at the same time!! I really don't think I'm able to have children - I just have this feeling that the doctors haven't found that out yet, but that they will if I keep searching. I've started to look into adoption but don't know even where to start. I'm getting so frustrated - and so down about it again - and I thought I was gonna quit trying!! I guess that's just not possible for me. Not when everyone, and I mean everyone around me is either pg or just had their baby. I just don't know how to deal with it anymore...

Hi there - I've been praying for you.



maharg

 

[jenrenee]

Hi there - I've been praying for you.



maharg

Thanks so much!! I'm so glad I can come here to vent - and everyone understands how I feel! If I do that at home, they just think I'm overreacting... How is everything going for you?? Have I even asked - do you know a due date yet?

 

[Sign Of The Fish Burger]

s for you Jennifer

 

[-~Truth_N_Trust~-]

jenrenne, SOTFB, felinity and lovesdolphins...
you're in my prayers...

 

[jenrenee]

s for you Jennifer

jenrenne, SOTFB, felinity and lovesdolphins...
you're in my prayers...

Thank you!

I talked to DH a little about adoption last night and he said he doesn't want to adopt. He still thinks we just need to wait and it will happen. I wish I still felt as confident as he does...

 

[Maharg]

Thanks so much!! I'm so glad I can come here to vent - and everyone understands how I feel! If I do that at home, they just think I'm overreacting... How is everything going for you?? Have I even asked - do you know a due date yet?

Hi there

Things are going well thank you. Due date is 8th May which is what I'd predicted . I'm very impatient in waiting.

Praying for you all.



Maharg

 

[lovesdolphins]

I'm a bad TTC buddy - I didn't give y'all the update from my appointment on Monday (shame on me, I need to whip myself with a red twizzler)... teehee

Anyway - the timing was right for him to get my progesterone tested, so we did that.

We talked to the Doc for a bit, and he thinks that I may have PCOS, and I'm getting tested for it in a few days. It has to be done fasting, and he wants to do other blood work on CD 3-5 so I'll just do it all at once.

He's really nice - I likes him a lot, and so does hubby.

DH was really happy that we ended up going.

 

[jenrenee]

Hi there

Things are going well thank you. Due date is 8th May which is what I'd predicted . I'm very impatient in waiting.

Praying for you all.



Maharg

six more months left! I would be very impatient too!! Hopefully it goes fast for you!

I'm a bad TTC buddy - I didn't give y'all the update from my appointment on Monday (shame on me, I need to whip myself with a red twizzler)... teehee

Anyway - the timing was right for him to get my progesterone tested, so we did that.

We talked to the Doc for a bit, and he thinks that I may have PCOS, and I'm getting tested for it in a few days. It has to be done fasting, and he wants to do other blood work on CD 3-5 so I'll just do it all at once.

He's really nice - I likes him a lot, and so does hubby.

DH was really happy that we ended up going.

That is a big thing - to like your doctor. I haven't had much luck but finally found someone I like too... so glad to hear you are getting some tests done. It makes you feel better, doesn't it? To know you are doing something in the right direction? Praying it all goes well for you!

 

[jenrenee]

I wanted to share my blog entry with you all... it made me realize that although I would give anything to have a baby, there are other important things in my life... I even thought yesterday that if I had to choose between losing my dad and finally finding out I was pregnant, I wouldn't hesitate to give up my chance of having a baby.

Here I am - not praying as I should be - not doing a lot of stuff as I should - not even trusting in God as I should be - and He still doesn't let me down. He gave us a miracle yesterday. My dad has epilepsy and he had a seizure and flipped his truck, hitting a parked semi trailer and a pivot center. He wasn't wearing a seatbelt. I got the call at work and rushed over to the hospital. He is okay. He looks awful - but he just has lots and lots of bruising and cuts - stitches in his nose from a deep laceration and a small crack in his nose. Sore back and jaw - but HE IS OKAY! Praise the Lord!!! He is really watching over my dad. It was unreal - I got the call, I heard the words but just knew that nothing could happen to my dad. You just don't believe that it could happen. Anyway, while at the hospital, I noticed my grandparents vehicle already in the parking lot. Come to find out my grandpa was there too complaining of chest pains. Now they are sending him on to Lincoln because they say he is on the verge of having a heart attack. Wow - all I can say is, I know this is all awful... but we are so lucky.. about my dad - and that my grandpa knew enough to go in... I've been wanting children for so long - I remember thinking yesterday... God, if you spare my dad, I would give up my chance of having children. I just didn't want to lose my dad. They actually released him yesterday - which really surprised me. And it's times like this when you realize - hey, you need to let people know that you love them. I made sure and told him and my mom that. I plan to tell them that every time I see them. I thought I almost lost my dad yesterday - and have never felt as awful as I did. Shaking so bad I couldn't even dial a phone number. So do this: go tell all your loved ones TODAY that you love them! And Praise God for miracles!!

 

[Maharg]

I wanted to share my blog entry with you all... it made me realize that although I would give anything to have a baby, there are other important things in my life... I even thought yesterday that if I had to choose between losing my dad and finally finding out I was pregnant, I wouldn't hesitate to give up my chance of having a baby.

Here I am - not praying as I should be - not doing a lot of stuff as I should - not even trusting in God as I should be - and He still doesn't let me down. He gave us a miracle yesterday. My dad has epilepsy and he had a seizure and flipped his truck, hitting a parked semi trailer and a pivot center. He wasn't wearing a seatbelt. I got the call at work and rushed over to the hospital. He is okay. He looks awful - but he just has lots and lots of bruising and cuts - stitches in his nose from a deep laceration and a small crack in his nose. Sore back and jaw - but HE IS OKAY! Praise the Lord!!! He is really watching over my dad. It was unreal - I got the call, I heard the words but just knew that nothing could happen to my dad. You just don't believe that it could happen. Anyway, while at the hospital, I noticed my grandparents vehicle already in the parking lot. Come to find out my grandpa was there too complaining of chest pains. Now they are sending him on to Lincoln because they say he is on the verge of having a heart attack. Wow - all I can say is, I know this is all awful... but we are so lucky.. about my dad - and that my grandpa knew enough to go in... I've been wanting children for so long - I remember thinking yesterday... God, if you spare my dad, I would give up my chance of having children. I just didn't want to lose my dad. They actually released him yesterday - which really surprised me. And it's times like this when you realize - hey, you need to let people know that you love them. I made sure and told him and my mom that. I plan to tell them that every time I see them. I thought I almost lost my dad yesterday - and have never felt as awful as I did. Shaking so bad I couldn't even dial a phone number. So do this: go tell all your loved ones TODAY that you love them! And Praise God for miracles!!

PRAISE GOD for this wonderful miracle. I went to see my Dad today as he's just had his 60th birthday!

It sounds a little as though a weight or a pressure has been released for you jenrenee. I may be way off, but that is what I sense. I'm so glad your dad is ok.

 

[lovesdolphins]

Well, my progesterone was 0.8 - when it should be 10 or higher to show that I ovulated. I'm cranky.

I'm getting all of the other bloodwork done tomorrow AM.

 

[annaapple]

Hope it gives you more answers, which lead to solutions.

JenRenee - I am so happy for you that your dad and grandfather are ok and that God used this terrible situation to show that He IS still there for you.

 

[jenrenee]

PRAISE GOD for this wonderful miracle. I went to see my Dad today as he's just had his 60th birthday!

It sounds a little as though a weight or a pressure has been released for you jenrenee. I may be way off, but that is what I sense. I'm so glad your dad is ok.

Thank you!! I think you're right... this made me see that although having a baby is really, really important to me, it's not all there is. And my dad is doing so much better - and grandpa was sent home as they think he is okay too. So lots of good news today! And happy birthday to your dad!

Well, my progesterone was 0.8 - when it should be 10 or higher to show that I ovulated. I'm cranky.

I'm getting all of the other bloodwork done tomorrow AM.

Does this mean that it could be low progesterone at the root of everything? I've heard that it can cause early m/c too.. If so, isn't there something really simple you can do for that? I hope so - that would mean you could finally do something and hopefully become pg very soon!

 

[jenrenee]

Hope it gives you more answers, which lead to solutions.

JenRenee - I am so happy for you that your dad and grandfather are ok and that God used this terrible situation to show that He IS still there for you.

Thank you! That is well put - that is exactly what He did

 

[lovesdolphins]

Does this mean that it could be low progesterone at the root of everything? I've heard that it can cause early m/c too.. If so, isn't there something really simple you can do for that? I hope so - that would mean you could finally do something and hopefully become pg very soon!

I think the root is even deeper than the low progesterone. I think that I have PCOS. If that is the case, the doc will put me on metformin, and hopefully that will fix the issue. If not we'll have to see why I'm not ovulating (which the tests tomorrow will tell) and he will probably put me on clomid, and progesterone supplements. Hopefully in the next week or so we will know the results and get started with treatment.