This Friday, God willing, I have an appointment with my former psychiatrist, to see about going back on meds. I have had chronic, severe OCD since age 3 or 4. I have been off meds for a long time, due to extreme adverse reactions to nearly each med I'd tried, though they helped a lot, too. I cannot access CBT/exposure-response therapy where I live, and am very much in need of medication. I'm just afraid to start down that road again, though, because of the bad experiences I've had with Anafranil and the SSRIs in the past. Yet, I know I've come to a point where I realize that I'm an ideal candidate for permanent medication. Please, if it is not too much to ask, pray for me in my quest to get my disorder treated.