- Nov 10, 2018
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- Faith
- Seeker
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- Private
I used to struggle heap's when I first left Christianity, leaving God was like leaving a partner. I came back numerous time's thinking that each time I'd restore the relationship, but no matter what I did I just became codependent. I never took the time to take care of myself and my needs, thinking that God would primarily take care of me. It took me a good three year's too shake off hell, and another year or two to let go of the feeling that I needed to pray.
I bought Bible's each time I fell back into the belief system, and tore them up each time I walked away. I suffered serious mental illness because of the critical overtone of the Bible, and that took a long time to recover from as well. I see Bible God much like my step father, and that make's sense because he was raised by Greek Orthodox parents. He was nothing but critical of everything I did, while giving me fake love note's all my life.
He thought that applying pain and fear was a genuine way to reach me. And many father's are like Bible God, that's because they've been raised with the religious mentality of that type. But I left that family behind and now I stand on my own two feet.
I bought Bible's each time I fell back into the belief system, and tore them up each time I walked away. I suffered serious mental illness because of the critical overtone of the Bible, and that took a long time to recover from as well. I see Bible God much like my step father, and that make's sense because he was raised by Greek Orthodox parents. He was nothing but critical of everything I did, while giving me fake love note's all my life.
He thought that applying pain and fear was a genuine way to reach me. And many father's are like Bible God, that's because they've been raised with the religious mentality of that type. But I left that family behind and now I stand on my own two feet.