Torment

[ST673]

Thank you. I've read this over and over today to help me. Thank you!!!

 

[ST673]

I'm sorry to hear that. Your OCD will keep finding ways to trigger your anxiety if it can. Try to ignore it as best you can, and to recognize that the anxiety is from OCD, even if it doesn't feel like it. The quickest way to get OCD to stop bothering you is to not pay any attention to it. I know how hard it can be though!!

you've helped me so much. I'm so thankful for you!

 

[ST673]

I know that these thoughts and feelings can be so exhausting but just remember how much God and Jesus Christ love you. My advice would be to just focus on God's goodness and to focus on Jesus Christ and His love for us. God bless you

Thank you! I've read this over and over to help me today..thank you!

 

[Mari17]

you've helped me so much. I'm so thankful for you!

Thank you so much for saying that! I pray you will continue to find great freedom over your OCD!

 

[God is good]

Thank you! I've read this over and over to help me today..thank you!

No problem, God loves you and Jesus Christ loves you. God bless

 

[ST673]

Thank you so much for saying that! I pray you will continue to find great freedom over your OCD!

Do you find that depression comes before and after an OCD attack?

 

[Mari17]

Do you find that depression comes before and after an OCD attack?

I don't tend to suffer from depression in general, although when I'm working through an obsession sometimes I feel depressed, because I'm just so discouraged. I think some people have both, though, or OCD can bring on depression because it's so intense.

 

[ST673]

I don't tend to suffer from depression in general, although when I'm working through an obsession sometimes I feel depressed, because I'm just so discouraged. I think some people have both, though, or OCD can bring on depression because it's so intense.

I don't usually either but I noticed something was off with me all summer and then the OCD attack happened. I guess what I'm having now is depression from the OCD.

 

[Mari17]

I'm sorry to hear that. It can be so devastating to have an obsession and feel so hopeless, to feel that there's no source of comfort. Do you feel that you are recovering from the OCD attack, or are you still fighting it?

 

[ST673]

I'm sorry to hear that. It can be so devastating to have an obsession and feel so hopeless, to feel that there's no source of comfort. Do you feel that you are recovering from the OCD attack, or are you still fighting it?

It's better but I'm still fighting guilt and fear & anxiety thinking what if I'm doing wrong? what if God is angry? Idk if it'll ever completely go away

 

[gloriousday2006]

I just want to say that I have been thinking about you and praying for you. I have been exactly where you are, and still am on many days. God will see you through. Stay strong in the Lord and He will see you through. I think this is the toughest challenge I have ever faced, but we can do ALL things through Christ. Hang on, and never give up. God is bigger than all of our FEARS...no matter how persistent they may be.

 

[ST673]

Really awful day when I had been doing better. I just feel like God or Ocd wants me to do something I don't want to do and I feel like the more I think about it the more I see things that relate to it. Back to stomach pains and can't sleep. Back to torment. This is awful. Why is this so awful

 

[ST673]

I just want to say that I have been thinking about you and praying for you. I have been exactly where you are, and still am on many days. God will see you through. Stay strong in the Lord and He will see you through. I think this is the toughest challenge I have ever faced, but we can do ALL things through Christ. Hang on, and never give up. God is bigger than all of our FEARS...no matter how persistent they may be.

That's so hard to do when I can't tell the difference between God and OCD. Thank you for thinking of me. I think we randomly posted at the same time.

 

[gloriousday2006]

I want you to know that you are not alone. In May mine started. It was so intense that I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, constant panic, severe panic attacks. This lead to severe depersonalization where I felt I was out of my body, and emotion numbing. Through all this I know that God is good. My mind works much like yours...it brings up all of my absolute worst, horrible fears. OCD attacks what we love most. Our relationship with our Savior is the most important thing, so this is where it aims. I have to tell myself each and every day not to go down the rabbit hole with my mind.

We are called to live by faith and trust. This can be so EXTREMELY hard with OCD, but we have to get to a place where we say I trust you God. Any thoughts that go against your will are not something I want or will ever want. I will stand with you forever no matter what I am up against. I believe the key here is trust.

I too have felt all the fear, guilt, condemnation...you are not alone. It helped me so tremendously when I realized I wasn't alone. I want you to understand that I have been there too...very severe OCD. You can OVERCOME ALL things through Christ. Never give up, but keep pushing forward to Jesus.

Remember we can overcome ANY obstacle with Christ.

1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

John 6:37
All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.

 

[ST673]

I want you to know that you are not alone. In May mine started. It was so intense that I couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, constant panic, severe panic attacks. This lead to severe depersonalization where I felt I was out of my body, and emotion numbing. Through all this I know that God is good. My mind works much like yours...it brings up all of my absolute worst, horrible fears. OCD attacks what we love most. Our relationship with our Savior is the most important thing, so this is where it aims. I have to tell myself each and every day not to go down the rabbit hole with my mind.

We are called to live by faith and trust. This can be so EXTREMELY hard with OCD, but we have to get to a place where we say I trust you God. Any thoughts that go against your will are not something I want or will ever want. I will stand with you forever no matter what I am up against. I believe the key here is trust.

I too have felt all the fear, guilt, condemnation...you are not alone. It helped me so tremendously when I realized I wasn't alone. I want you to understand that I have been there too...very severe OCD. You can OVERCOME ALL things through Christ. Never give up, but keep pushing forward to Jesus.

Remember we can overcome ANY obstacle with Christ.

1 John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.

John 6:37
All those the Father gives me will come to me, and whoever comes to me I will never drive away.

It's just so difficult when my compulsions are confession/evangelism so anywhere I turn for comfort doesn't give me much because those are essentially good things.

 

[Mari17]

It's just so difficult when my compulsions are confession/evangelism so anywhere I turn for comfort doesn't give me much because those are essentially good things.

I hear you, because my obsessions usually center around "real" or good/spiritual things too. Actually, that's what my current obsession has been and it has really thrown me for a loop. But, here's what I keep coming back to: If I am feeling this much anxiety, if I am feeling these negative feelings that make me suspect it's OCD, then my brain is distorting the issue in some way. I can't see it right now, because I'm in the middle of an obsession. But it is. Therefore, I have to NOT address the issue at all, hard though it is, until I can see more clearly. I know how tormenting it can feel to "put it off." But, when I have OCD, I will always doubt that my current obsession is OCD. So the key to overcoming an obsession is to treat it like OCD even if we're not sure that it is. That takes a lot of courage and faith, because we're making the decision to ignore the anxiety BEFORE we know that it's OK to. We still feel like we're disobeying God, etc. So what I've been trying to do is to ignore and/or bring every fearful or anxious thought about my current issue to God. To not engage with it at all, to not allow myself to try to figure it out or think about it, but just say, "God, please take care of this/help me to figure it out" and leave it. Oh, it's so hard! My mind wants so badly to figure it out! But I know that the urgency itself comes from OCD. Once the OCD calms down, the whole issue won't seem so scary, and it will be WAY easier to figure it out logically and clearly. There won't be that fear involved. I still may not know exactly what to do, but I won't be scared to think about it or try to figure it out. I hope this helps - keep asking questions or reaching out for encouragement as needed, because I have been (and am in) the same place you are and know exactly how you feel!! (Oh, and I am not completely out of my current obsession yet, but as I've practiced the strategies above I've noticed a huge improvement. There is hope!)

 

[ST673]

I hear you, because my obsessions usually center around "real" or good/spiritual things too. Actually, that's what my current obsession has been and it has really thrown me for a loop. But, here's what I keep coming back to: If I am feeling this much anxiety, if I am feeling these negative feelings that make me suspect it's OCD, then my brain is distorting the issue in some way. I can't see it right now, because I'm in the middle of an obsession. But it is. Therefore, I have to NOT address the issue at all, hard though it is, until I can see more clearly. I know how tormenting it can feel to "put it off." But, when I have OCD, I will always doubt that my current obsession is OCD. So the key to overcoming an obsession is to treat it like OCD even if we're not sure that it is. That takes a lot of courage and faith, because we're making the decision to ignore the anxiety BEFORE we know that it's OK to. We still feel like we're disobeying God, etc. So what I've been trying to do is to ignore and/or bring every fearful or anxious thought about my current issue to God. To not engage with it at all, to not allow myself to try to figure it out or think about it, but just say, "God, please take care of this/help me to figure it out" and leave it. Oh, it's so hard! My mind wants so badly to figure it out! But I know that the urgency itself comes from OCD. Once the OCD calms down, the whole issue won't seem so scary, and it will be WAY easier to figure it out logically and clearly. There won't be that fear involved. I still may not know exactly what to do, but I won't be scared to think about it or try to figure it out. I hope this helps - keep asking questions or reaching out for encouragement as needed, because I have been (and am in) the same place you are and know exactly how you feel!! (Oh, and I am not completely out of my current obsession yet, but as I've practiced the strategies above I've noticed a huge improvement. There is hope!)

Thank you....that makes a lot of sense! Seriously don't know what I'd do without you this past week.

 

[Mari17]

Thank you....that makes a lot of sense! Seriously don't know what I'd do without you this past week.

I'm happy I can help...it's such a confusing and discouraging disorder but there is so much freedom waiting for us, if only we can learn to grasp it! I am here anytime...feel free to pm me as well if you'd like. With God's help we'll be able to find healing!

 

[ST673]

I understand you completely friend. Its OCD... I too had thwe same stuff I lost weight, couldnt eat or sleep. Do not end your torment. This illness ebbs and flows. I am finally doing better after 3 months of tormnet, so please know that. If you ever need support or someone to talk to message me. Praying for you ♡

Thank you. I'm reading back through these replies today as I'm struggling with it trying to creep back in.