Thoughts ...

[Noxot]

just use spiritual reason and logic. WHAT is the purpose for the grape vine? it is for the good pleasure of the husbandman obviously and obviously a good man loves his vine to grow and bare much fruit. WHAT was the purpose of buying the field? it was to get the treasure. only with God shall we know the truth and be set free.

now as for me if I had a field and I got the treasure I would ask of my Lord what should we do with the field. maybe it can be afforded that we plant things there that he may have some kind of foods and medicines to provide for those who need such things. land has it's own value but if someone could use it better then maybe someone else who is not royal may possess it. as for me, after finding this treasure, I have no need for this small plot of land as you see I have enough riches to have a better inheritance. one with more nobility and holiness and yet for some reason my peasant friends now hate me because I am rich and I was going to give them the land but the meek shall inherit the earth so they must be meek before they inherit the earth. but the rich man is the poor in spirit and they reign in the heavens.

I talk too much and I quote to many bible Scriptures. that is a fact and I can't help it. I don't even like coming to this place to post anymore. I can't seem to relate to anyone. I am suppressed in spirit. human beings do not allow me to express the Love I have for God in this place or hardly anywhere at all. THIS WORLD MAKES ME SICK. but it is something I have to live with. we are all suffering anyways. we are weighed down by the evils of humanity and are weighed down by our own animal body.

 

[Noxot]

I hate this world. if they would just be spiritual then they would end suffering. the world will always oppress themselves and those who are more noble than they are and I get sick of evil people trying to blame innocence people when those evil people are only sick because they won't stop wallowing in the mire. so it is not very useful to always play the victim because it is a bunch of sheep that want to be taken care of who cause a lot of the problems in this world. and they have bad leaders that do not care about the flock and the flock does not care if they have bad leaders and further more I am SICK of all the sheep asking for a leader because they are lazy beast that don't want to do ANYTHING productive. when are they going to take up their whole inheritance and be wise as serpents and harmless as doves?

so I have a deep rooted hatred for this reality and I can tell you why and then people can subsequently tell me that i'm a sinner and so NO, i will not explain to others what God is doing for me because they are my accusers and not my friend apparently. I CAN'T EVEN HAVE FELLOWSHIP WITH ANYONE IN THIS WORLD it feels like sometimes. there are very few people that i can pour my heart out to and it feels like nothing matters and it is no wonder I in some degree still think it would be a good idea to die rather than to live in this world. NOW i know how the prophets felt.

or maybe i'm an elder that got sick of all the little tricks kids play. I'M SICK OF THEM PUTTING POO BAGS ON MY DOOR AND LIGHTING THEM ON FIRE. FIRE IS DANGEROUS AND POO SMELLS.

 

[Noxot]

and i'm fine. but most people are not fine enough. prayer is more important than study. seeking God with all you are more important than self preservation. I have faith that HIS salvation shall accomplish what he proclaimed it did. let us dwell in the high things of God and rejoice in all we do with him. let our souls always be close to him and let us seek him all the day long. in our struggles let us try best we can to be with him and in our peace let us not forget he who loves us.

faith, hope, and love will kill you and we do need that cross.
faith, hope, and love will resurrect you and we do need his life.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

I dont understand everything, i just move forward in hope.

Romans 8:24 For we were saved in this hope, but hope that is seen is not hope; for why does one still hope for what he sees? 25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance.

2 Corinthians 4:18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.


Colossians 3 If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. 2 Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. 3 For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.

 

[x141]

Only the individual can know who they are, and cannot be taught this by anyone else other than the spirit of this truth that is in them, much like their Father in I'am, that I am. In this we begin to understand where we have come from and what in mind we are returning to.

The reason why they crucified Jesus was because they believed that he made himself equal with God, but it was God that made him equal with himself (which is what he by the spirit was taught, which is a truth applicable to every son of God (no gender implied), as being the mind/land/exceeding and great reward they possess, which is a jubilee of the soul. Who we are sets us free, and those who are in mind contrary to this truth are an adversary to the God that they are (it is the process that Adam prophesied of one he saw his soul (the woman, which sets the precedent of the order of the two images that she as a seed she cleaves to).

 

[x141]

On every level God has built a son; which God coming into a consensus of one in us will reveal the truth of.

 

[x141]

We are not subject to cause and effect, but cause and effect are ever present until we understand we are not.

 

[Noxot]

I dont understand everything, i just move forward in hope.

Romans 8:24 For we were saved in this hope, but hope that is seen is not hope; for why does one still hope for what he sees? 25 But if we hope for what we do not see, we eagerly wait for it with perseverance.

2 Corinthians 4:18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.


Colossians 3 If then you were raised with Christ, seek those things which are above, where Christ is, sitting at the right hand of God. 2 Set your mind on things above, not on things on the earth. 3 For you died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. 4 When Christ who is our life appears, then you also will appear with Him in glory.

amen. we don't need to understand things though. we just need to understand God and in that we shall worship God in spirit and in truth.


Mark 3:35
Whoever does God's will is my brother and sister and mother."

Matthew 18: 11-14
For the Son of Man is come to save those who were lost. What do you think? If a man has a hundred sheep, and one of them has gone astray, does he not leave the ninety-nine on the mountains and go in search of the one that went astray? And if he finds it, truly, I say to you, he rejoices over it more than over the ninety-nine that never went astray. So it is the will of my Father who is in heaven that not one of these little ones should perish.

Colossians 1:9-12
For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way, bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light.

 

[Noxot]

We are not subject to cause and effect, but cause and effect are ever present until we understand we are not.

and what less kind of labor could you be than 'we are not' lol. then we can be free and really be ourselves not bound to anything but God while flowing in being and creation, all things working for our good and not our bad (despite peoples evil intentions) for God is greater. but those who are evil suffer far more than those who are harmed by the evil doers unless the evil doers can make the innocent like they are. because Good defeats evil. evil can never defeat evil.

and freedom is nothing and everything comes from nothing and nothing is love and together we are with God, uniting inside of God. flowing inside of God. creating personality and beautiful expression because of the Love of the Trinity whom we are eternally embraced in.

'cause and effect' are part of the play and creativity of the Spirit of God and his eternal kingdom. whatever overcomes us shall be our master. but those who love God are overcome by his love and grace and they are set free and rejoice with God and God rejoices with them.

 

[Noxot]

grace and freedom transcend cause and effect even though cause and effect dwell within grace and freedom. in spirit there is a beautiful harmony that gives us hope for even more and more grand things because his loving-kindness, his sweetness is infinite and eternal and more and so faith hope and love are something of eternal qualities of God and of true reality and of ourselves. they are more real, more foundational of what constitutes reality than the sun that our earth spins around. they are before physical reality. the physical universe is an effect of spirit, an expression with purpose in the qualities of the heart of God that man is made in the image of.

it is spirit in a certain fashion whos purpose is not materialistic but is spiritual. it is not meaningless creation but creation with a purpose even if it has become subjected to vanity. even the vain universe and creation was made in hope.

 

[x141]

Too far to the right or too far to the left of the cross hangs a thief ...

 

[x141]

People don't understand that the nations and countries, boundaries and borders (gendered by (seed of a serpent) knowledge from an image without) is not the truth of the mind of Christ (seed of a woman, expressed image of his person), but the lie (or man of sin) that is at enmity with God.

We still cling to images not embracing the cross as something we have picked up and walk by in consciousness down to the single thought. From here (Mount Nebo (rather than going to the top of Pisgah) all the trees that were once free to eat of become filled with labor as we continue to make merchandise out of the truth that we are.

 

[Noxot]

Too far to the right or too far to the left of the cross hangs a thief ...

there is no greater hell and no greater punishment than to not be with the one who loves us. to love someone who you think is your beloved but who is not your beloved is the most catastrophic thing I could ever go through.

I don't know how to go on without him and I don't want to be if it is not with him. there is nothing I could ever do if he is not with me and I not with him. I already gave my life ABSOLUTELY no meaning at all because of him ( because he is the only meaning and purpose and the only reason good enough for me to love anyone at all). I don't have the strength to kill myself if I have forsaken him, if I have lost him.

I don't know what to do if I don't have him. I only live in this world because of him.

 

[x141]

This truth can only be seen from a city without walls (though it is enclosed).

The confusion of face that is outside of this city (though common to man), can be understood in ways that those who are caught between heaven and earth, cannot measure the greatness of.

 

[x141]

The fig tree (more narrowed down) is reflective of our own thoughts that we cover our nakedness with (which takes on different forms such as the building of the treasure cities of Pharaoh, or the sweat of the brow, thorns and thistles, and the adding of sin unto sin ... it no longer yielding to us it's strength (Cain) which goes hand in hand with the declining of the days they lived) (and for the seed or image of Cain, the seventh (a rest unto death) from Adam, and the sixth (number of man) from Cain Lamech, seven-fold, or an adding of sin unto sin (the progression found in the lineage of Cain being the same as what is found in the lineage of Abel/Seth which speak to the two rests along with their feasts and the progression of the year/years/weeks/days/hour's/moments). They are the second sin found in the phrase an adding of sin unto sin. The true fig tree does not bear by seasons, but is a fruit (which is a word of abiding, or is of a land that is you own) that is always present. The Bible is a book of consciousness, every God has an Adam, our father is the one who was before the book/bible, and after the book/bible. The parable of the fig tree, in all it's forms is endless, being that it is reflective of the soul of God, which is the mind of Christ, and the soul one finds and then continually (as a kingdom) enters into. (but there are many forms to say what I have said because it is the narrative of God we that are in). All paths that come from heaven lead to heaven. This path is in us in the form of consciousness/soul, and subconsciousness/spirit, the clause being there is only one who can lead us in and out (spoken by, or from the perception of my woman/soul), which enters the wisdom of God as being what is reflected in the picking up of our cross, or keeping the feast of Passover, or becoming barren, or past the time of life).

 

[Noxot]

because the thorns and thistles are already a distortion of the good order of things. evil is destruction or distortion of the best to a lesser thing. it is confusion and lies.

being is infinite but the kind of power God has created us by means possibilities of all kinds of infinities some of which do not deserve to exist but will until they do not.... such as hell...., if ever there was a devils doctrine this is it.... that or "there is no such thing as sin" is another devilish doctrine since hell and sin are the same thing

 

[x141]

Without an answer there is no question and without a question there is no answer; though they be the same.

 

[x141]

Fellowship is sacrificed for the price of reason.

 

[Noxot]

Fellowship is sacrificed for the price of reason.

sometimes that is the case for me. I almost don't believe in real fellowship anymore. right now I don't see much of a purpose of living in this world. it's boring and I can't find God given meaning to it besides "Jesus lived in the world and so you too must live in a world of confusion and mixtures of insanity with sanity". I must not fail to mention that this life is to be lived in true love which can look like a lot of different things. still... this world is a world of weakness, of necessity, of burden, of struggle.

i'm tired of playing by the games of the world and I can't find a better way to live in the world. it would be nice if I could convince my family to not be stricken by my death. I think people should not force me to stay in a world I don't want to be part of but apparently even God wants me here. ofc I can learn more things and grow better and better at loving people how I ought. but I don't have to exist in this world to love people.

I might eventually kill myself. it's not a big deal to me, besides hurting others and besides failing God in bearing my cross in this world and living a full life. I don't want to cause a negative thing upon others by me committing suicide.

maybe one day I will find what i'm supposed to do in this world or maybe I will die. at least I don't have children. thank God.

 

[Restoresmysoul]

sometimes that is the case for me. I almost don't believe in real fellowship anymore. right now I don't see much of a purpose of living in this world. it's boring and I can't find God given meaning to it besides "Jesus lived in the world and so you too must live in a world of confusion and mixtures of insanity with sanity". I must not fail to mention that this life is to be lived in true love which can look like a lot of different things. still... this world is a world of weakness, of necessity, of burden, of struggle.

i'm tired of playing by the games of the world and I can't find a better way to live in the world. it would be nice if I could convince my family to not be stricken by my death. I think people should not force me to stay in a world I don't want to be part of but apparently even God wants me here. ofc I can learn more things and grow better and better at loving people how I ought. but I don't have to exist in this world to love people.

I might eventually kill myself. it's not a big deal to me, besides hurting others and besides failing God in bearing my cross in this world and living a full life. I don't want to cause a negative thing upon others by me committing suicide.

maybe one day I will find what i'm supposed to do in this world or maybe I will die. at least I don't have children. thank God.

I think like that at times too. However i think i have found a way to deal with it, i.e., i see myself as a soldier in a battle, i cannot walk by sight but instead by faith. Why is this battle given to me? I dont know, but i know im in it anyway, so here i will make my stand, in faith.