Hi all, I would like to share with you a story that I believe could be material for some discussion. I am a Christian who's of an ethnically Chinese background, being born and having spent the first five-and-a-half years of my life in Chongqing. I've lived perhaps 55% of my life in the West and 45% in China, but I spent what I consider to be my formative years as an individual in China (ages 11-17).
As many of you may already know, Buddhism has a long history in East Asia, including China. It reached China as early as the Han Dynasty through the Silk Road. However, once Buddhism planted roots in China, it became so Sinicized that it eventually lost much of its original teachings into a hybrid religion of Buddhism, Daoism, Confucianism, and Chinese folk beliefs. It's interesting how a large variety of figures are subjects of veneration in China. The general Guan Yu became deified as a result of Luo Guanzhong's historical novel Romance of the Three Kingdoms, while from what we know of the historical Guan Yu he was a very average military commander who made a number of major blunders, and historical records unveiled so far have nothing to say about anything related to his noble character. However, the novel portrays him as not only a fierce warrior, but as an embodiment of Confucian values in line with the interests of the ruling class. Throughout the ages, he's been worshiped as the God of War and the God of Fortune. Even more ridiculous is how totally fictional characters have been worshiped as deity figures. I've seen shrines in "Buddhist" temples dedicated to Sha Jing and Zhu Ba Jie, both of whom are characters from the classical novel Journey to the West, a fictionalized retelling of the Tang monk Xuanzang's journey to India to retrieve the Buddhist sutras. Sha Jing is his aide while Zhu Ba Jie is a humanoid pig who was originally a marshal in the Chinese celestial court of the Jade Emperor, but was cast down to earth due to mistakes he made and his journey to accompany Xuanzang would become his redemption.
First of all, I would like to be very clear that the majority of Buddhists in China and East Asia (I don't know much about SE Asia) do not even follow authentic Buddhism as it was originally conceived and practiced in India. Instead, they follow this hybrid religion often with the purpose of personal gain, and the saddest thing, at least in China, is that much of it is related to money, career, and social status. These people may seem to be devout when they go to temples, burn incense and do other things, but if you really get to the bottom of their beliefs it's often the practicing of tradition rather than genuine faith in something much larger than themselves. Others will tell you it's like a mental placebo, that they aren't completely sure what they really believe in. I was surrounded by much of this in the past, and as I grew older and began to understand the truths behind these practices, I became increasingly disillusioned with them. One thing you'll find at many Chinese temples that claim to be Buddhist (yet also contain Daoist and other folk deities) have these money boxes called "Merit Boxes", in which it is believed that in order to get "blessings", you must make a financial contribution when you visit the temple. Last year when I was back in my hometown Chongqing, I was out with my aunt and she decided to visit one of the temples in the area we were in. Of course, I didn't follow her because I believe in the One God and Jesus Christ. However, I asked the man at the entrance why temples have these "Merit Boxes", and on whether he thought they tainted the essence of what it means to have spiritual faith. He said he didn't know, except for the fact that it's always been this way. Traditions of men, I see.
Fast forward to this year, a few months ago I was at a very weak point in my walk with God. I selected a university course on Buddhism with a focus on the Zen, and I will now admit that I was feeling temptation to give Buddhism another chance. The professor is actually an ordained Zen priest who had lived in Japan for many years, and now runs his own Zen sessions. I wanted to explore authentic Buddhism in contrast to the hybrid religion I was exposed to earlier in life. However, at the end of the course, I was not inspired. I simply could not accept Buddhism after all, even in a purer form. Towards the end of the course we actually visited a Zen temple run by a few Chinese and Taiwanese nuns, and they held a meditation session for the class. So, I wasn't sure what everyone else's beliefs were and it's all history, but during the meditation session they all followed. I did not. I remained vigilant and refused to join. God was telling me all along the way that while He gave me the free will to explore and investigate, as free will has been given to all humans, along the way He was telling me that He was, and would always be, the Best, the Greatest, and the most complete that cannot be found in any other faith. Amen.
Having told my story in the paragraphs above, I will now give more details on why I rejected Buddhism after the investigation:
1. Buddhism goes into the idea of the "true self", yet does not give a detailed account of what exactly the "true self" is. While it does refer to the cultivation of some qualities such as peace and goodness, we know that the fundamental issue that stands in the way of achieving piece and goodness is the presence of sin in a fallen world. The problem of sinfulness cannot be overcome by our own efforts, not through meditation, not through anything else. It can only be overcome through walking with Christ's grace, who died for our sins. There is absolutely NOTHING in Buddhism or any other faith of such greatness and wonder.
2. The Buddhist belief in a karmic system has never felt right to me. It is believed in Buddhism that we must pay for the bad deeds and negative karma accumulated in previous lives. How is this just? On the other hand, I know that God creates each and every one of us fresh, giving us the free will to accept or reject Him. WE, in our bodies, in this life (until Revelation), are solely responsible for the consequences of our own decision in light of the meaning of God's existence. It is utterly unjust, unfair, and unimaginable to have a belief in past lives, and that we must still bear the burden of the negative aspects of past lives. Good deeds may also take lifetimes to be rewarded. Therefore, Buddhism, to me, essentially denies free will and choice. In Christ, salvation or punishment is assured, and it is a decision that is entirely up to individuals to take or not to take.
3. The ultimate goal of Buddhism is nirvana, freedom from the cycle of reincarnation. It is the liberation from all individual desires. The removal of ego and desire is a central tenet of Buddhism. I completely disagree with this. While Buddhism believes that not all desire is bad, ALL desire has potential to cause suffering so the end goal is having no desire whatsoever. This is utterly untrue to me. Isn't the will to be free of desire a desire in and of itself? This has been a contradiction I've never been able to wrap my head around. On the other hand, I know that if God gave us certain desires, then there must be good and healthy reasons for us to have the capacity for those desires, as long as we follow them in the way He designed it to be. Of course, many desires are simply evil.
4. Buddhism offers NO explanation as to why the universe and everything in it exists. Life does not have order and meaning in and of itself. I cannot believe in the randomness of existence, of creation and establishment by chance. When it comes to morality, I cannot accept an evolutionary relativist point-of-view.
5. Buddhism does not offer and security and assurance. Christ does.
6. The Buddha never claimed to be a deity, and never claimed that his teachings were religious dogma. While Buddhism emphasizes the need for one to seek their own path rather than follow the authority of scripture or of men, Buddhism in practice is very much a religion based on the lineage of men and is often organized in an extremely rigid manner.
7. Buddhism meshes with local cultures and beliefs way too well, because it lacks a central point of reference. I just cannot take seriously something that is so loose and so susceptible to assimilation. While the same can also be said about Christianity as a religion, there is a point where we can ultimately return to, that is the Word of God and prayer for His wisdom and guidance. Buddhism offers no certainty and authoritativeness whatsoever in its beliefs.
8. Buddhism believes that change is constant, that there is no certainty in life, only change. Therefore, we should not strive to take control of our lives all the time. The resolution to this, as I know, is to leave it to God to do the work. Buddhism does not offer any assurance that we'll be taken care of regardless of what circumstances we find ourselves in, it's a "deal with it" kind of attitude rather than any hope of change. In other words, Buddhism believes that we should not strive for change and accept the world as it is. Once again, my refusal to accept this was another reason why I ended up rejecting Buddhism. I find no strength in such passiveness.
9. Sure there are Buddhist charities and social projects, but when Buddhism itself cannot explain where morality comes from and why a consistent and cohesive moral framework is so essential for the world, for our existence as beings with flesh but also with souls, what more can I say?
To have desire and free will is to have a spirit, a soul, to have life. While desire can be both positive and negative, or sometimes both depending on which end of the stick we choose, desire is what ultimately makes us ALIVE and HUMAN. God desires to love us and for us to love Him, to care for us, to protect us, to guide us and provide for us. God desired to give us another chance, to redeem ourselves because of His love for His creation. He wants us to be close with Him, and wept when we did not. It is good desire that leads us to seek God and His revelation, to seek His grace and mercy. Between uncertainty and ambiguity versus certainty and assurance, I resisted the former and persisted in the latter. In our world, the biggest hypocrisy I see in Buddhism as it is often practiced is that while it claims to free our minds from preconceived notions of structure, it is very much structured and controlled in practice. On the other hand, God's Truth begins by affirming structure and how it all relates to us as beings, how we can make sense of ourselves and navigate this world with a clear revelation of our end state that is joy and glory if we believe and follow Him, while Buddhism's end goal, in a way, is the cessation of our being and existence as we know it.
For those who believe shall not perish, but have eternal life.
As many of you may already know, Buddhism has a long history in East Asia, including China. It reached China as early as the Han Dynasty through the Silk Road. However, once Buddhism planted roots in China, it became so Sinicized that it eventually lost much of its original teachings into a hybrid religion of Buddhism, Daoism, Confucianism, and Chinese folk beliefs. It's interesting how a large variety of figures are subjects of veneration in China. The general Guan Yu became deified as a result of Luo Guanzhong's historical novel Romance of the Three Kingdoms, while from what we know of the historical Guan Yu he was a very average military commander who made a number of major blunders, and historical records unveiled so far have nothing to say about anything related to his noble character. However, the novel portrays him as not only a fierce warrior, but as an embodiment of Confucian values in line with the interests of the ruling class. Throughout the ages, he's been worshiped as the God of War and the God of Fortune. Even more ridiculous is how totally fictional characters have been worshiped as deity figures. I've seen shrines in "Buddhist" temples dedicated to Sha Jing and Zhu Ba Jie, both of whom are characters from the classical novel Journey to the West, a fictionalized retelling of the Tang monk Xuanzang's journey to India to retrieve the Buddhist sutras. Sha Jing is his aide while Zhu Ba Jie is a humanoid pig who was originally a marshal in the Chinese celestial court of the Jade Emperor, but was cast down to earth due to mistakes he made and his journey to accompany Xuanzang would become his redemption.
First of all, I would like to be very clear that the majority of Buddhists in China and East Asia (I don't know much about SE Asia) do not even follow authentic Buddhism as it was originally conceived and practiced in India. Instead, they follow this hybrid religion often with the purpose of personal gain, and the saddest thing, at least in China, is that much of it is related to money, career, and social status. These people may seem to be devout when they go to temples, burn incense and do other things, but if you really get to the bottom of their beliefs it's often the practicing of tradition rather than genuine faith in something much larger than themselves. Others will tell you it's like a mental placebo, that they aren't completely sure what they really believe in. I was surrounded by much of this in the past, and as I grew older and began to understand the truths behind these practices, I became increasingly disillusioned with them. One thing you'll find at many Chinese temples that claim to be Buddhist (yet also contain Daoist and other folk deities) have these money boxes called "Merit Boxes", in which it is believed that in order to get "blessings", you must make a financial contribution when you visit the temple. Last year when I was back in my hometown Chongqing, I was out with my aunt and she decided to visit one of the temples in the area we were in. Of course, I didn't follow her because I believe in the One God and Jesus Christ. However, I asked the man at the entrance why temples have these "Merit Boxes", and on whether he thought they tainted the essence of what it means to have spiritual faith. He said he didn't know, except for the fact that it's always been this way. Traditions of men, I see.
Fast forward to this year, a few months ago I was at a very weak point in my walk with God. I selected a university course on Buddhism with a focus on the Zen, and I will now admit that I was feeling temptation to give Buddhism another chance. The professor is actually an ordained Zen priest who had lived in Japan for many years, and now runs his own Zen sessions. I wanted to explore authentic Buddhism in contrast to the hybrid religion I was exposed to earlier in life. However, at the end of the course, I was not inspired. I simply could not accept Buddhism after all, even in a purer form. Towards the end of the course we actually visited a Zen temple run by a few Chinese and Taiwanese nuns, and they held a meditation session for the class. So, I wasn't sure what everyone else's beliefs were and it's all history, but during the meditation session they all followed. I did not. I remained vigilant and refused to join. God was telling me all along the way that while He gave me the free will to explore and investigate, as free will has been given to all humans, along the way He was telling me that He was, and would always be, the Best, the Greatest, and the most complete that cannot be found in any other faith. Amen.
Having told my story in the paragraphs above, I will now give more details on why I rejected Buddhism after the investigation:
1. Buddhism goes into the idea of the "true self", yet does not give a detailed account of what exactly the "true self" is. While it does refer to the cultivation of some qualities such as peace and goodness, we know that the fundamental issue that stands in the way of achieving piece and goodness is the presence of sin in a fallen world. The problem of sinfulness cannot be overcome by our own efforts, not through meditation, not through anything else. It can only be overcome through walking with Christ's grace, who died for our sins. There is absolutely NOTHING in Buddhism or any other faith of such greatness and wonder.
2. The Buddhist belief in a karmic system has never felt right to me. It is believed in Buddhism that we must pay for the bad deeds and negative karma accumulated in previous lives. How is this just? On the other hand, I know that God creates each and every one of us fresh, giving us the free will to accept or reject Him. WE, in our bodies, in this life (until Revelation), are solely responsible for the consequences of our own decision in light of the meaning of God's existence. It is utterly unjust, unfair, and unimaginable to have a belief in past lives, and that we must still bear the burden of the negative aspects of past lives. Good deeds may also take lifetimes to be rewarded. Therefore, Buddhism, to me, essentially denies free will and choice. In Christ, salvation or punishment is assured, and it is a decision that is entirely up to individuals to take or not to take.
3. The ultimate goal of Buddhism is nirvana, freedom from the cycle of reincarnation. It is the liberation from all individual desires. The removal of ego and desire is a central tenet of Buddhism. I completely disagree with this. While Buddhism believes that not all desire is bad, ALL desire has potential to cause suffering so the end goal is having no desire whatsoever. This is utterly untrue to me. Isn't the will to be free of desire a desire in and of itself? This has been a contradiction I've never been able to wrap my head around. On the other hand, I know that if God gave us certain desires, then there must be good and healthy reasons for us to have the capacity for those desires, as long as we follow them in the way He designed it to be. Of course, many desires are simply evil.
4. Buddhism offers NO explanation as to why the universe and everything in it exists. Life does not have order and meaning in and of itself. I cannot believe in the randomness of existence, of creation and establishment by chance. When it comes to morality, I cannot accept an evolutionary relativist point-of-view.
5. Buddhism does not offer and security and assurance. Christ does.
6. The Buddha never claimed to be a deity, and never claimed that his teachings were religious dogma. While Buddhism emphasizes the need for one to seek their own path rather than follow the authority of scripture or of men, Buddhism in practice is very much a religion based on the lineage of men and is often organized in an extremely rigid manner.
7. Buddhism meshes with local cultures and beliefs way too well, because it lacks a central point of reference. I just cannot take seriously something that is so loose and so susceptible to assimilation. While the same can also be said about Christianity as a religion, there is a point where we can ultimately return to, that is the Word of God and prayer for His wisdom and guidance. Buddhism offers no certainty and authoritativeness whatsoever in its beliefs.
8. Buddhism believes that change is constant, that there is no certainty in life, only change. Therefore, we should not strive to take control of our lives all the time. The resolution to this, as I know, is to leave it to God to do the work. Buddhism does not offer any assurance that we'll be taken care of regardless of what circumstances we find ourselves in, it's a "deal with it" kind of attitude rather than any hope of change. In other words, Buddhism believes that we should not strive for change and accept the world as it is. Once again, my refusal to accept this was another reason why I ended up rejecting Buddhism. I find no strength in such passiveness.
9. Sure there are Buddhist charities and social projects, but when Buddhism itself cannot explain where morality comes from and why a consistent and cohesive moral framework is so essential for the world, for our existence as beings with flesh but also with souls, what more can I say?
To have desire and free will is to have a spirit, a soul, to have life. While desire can be both positive and negative, or sometimes both depending on which end of the stick we choose, desire is what ultimately makes us ALIVE and HUMAN. God desires to love us and for us to love Him, to care for us, to protect us, to guide us and provide for us. God desired to give us another chance, to redeem ourselves because of His love for His creation. He wants us to be close with Him, and wept when we did not. It is good desire that leads us to seek God and His revelation, to seek His grace and mercy. Between uncertainty and ambiguity versus certainty and assurance, I resisted the former and persisted in the latter. In our world, the biggest hypocrisy I see in Buddhism as it is often practiced is that while it claims to free our minds from preconceived notions of structure, it is very much structured and controlled in practice. On the other hand, God's Truth begins by affirming structure and how it all relates to us as beings, how we can make sense of ourselves and navigate this world with a clear revelation of our end state that is joy and glory if we believe and follow Him, while Buddhism's end goal, in a way, is the cessation of our being and existence as we know it.
For those who believe shall not perish, but have eternal life.
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